thank you chocolate
Yesterday I was very very emotional and upset; it had been quite a nice day, and I even wanted to write stuff, then my family called and things went a bit downhill. Well, I say a bit, but I mean a lot.
I don't want to talk about it because it's not about me and the only reason I'm even involved is 'I have experience'. Thing is, the whole sad affair has brought things back to my mind that I did not want to have to deal with again. Been there, done that. The fact I have experience does not mean I am a good example to follow.
Also, it upset me because I'm here, far away, and I feel detached from what happens to my sister, my brother or my mum. I am powerless to comfort them if they are sad and if they don't want to talk to me, they can just stop answering my calls, there's nothing I can do to stop that.
All of this means that while I desperately wanted to write, read or do anything to distract myself, I just spent the afternoon on my bed with a headache and Nutella (which I had to buy anew for obvious reasons). I didn't want to talk, write, sing, dance, read or anything... Bad day.
That was yesterday though and today is another day. :) And guess what? I got more coursework back from my tutors! Yay! These two were the ones I rushed through because I was running out of time, so I was particularly worried I'd get a lower mark than the other two. Not so. My English Lit comparison of two novels got 74% and my Drama theory vs. practice debate got 83%! The latter, I had to re-read it because I was genuinely baffled at the good review my tutor gave. Mum agrees with him, on the other hand, so now I have to match these results in this term. *feels the pressure*
I'll post the essays in a bit, the Drama one I was so desperate that I used Umbridge. I KNOW!
I don't want to talk about it because it's not about me and the only reason I'm even involved is 'I have experience'. Thing is, the whole sad affair has brought things back to my mind that I did not want to have to deal with again. Been there, done that. The fact I have experience does not mean I am a good example to follow.
Also, it upset me because I'm here, far away, and I feel detached from what happens to my sister, my brother or my mum. I am powerless to comfort them if they are sad and if they don't want to talk to me, they can just stop answering my calls, there's nothing I can do to stop that.
All of this means that while I desperately wanted to write, read or do anything to distract myself, I just spent the afternoon on my bed with a headache and Nutella (which I had to buy anew for obvious reasons). I didn't want to talk, write, sing, dance, read or anything... Bad day.
That was yesterday though and today is another day. :) And guess what? I got more coursework back from my tutors! Yay! These two were the ones I rushed through because I was running out of time, so I was particularly worried I'd get a lower mark than the other two. Not so. My English Lit comparison of two novels got 74% and my Drama theory vs. practice debate got 83%! The latter, I had to re-read it because I was genuinely baffled at the good review my tutor gave. Mum agrees with him, on the other hand, so now I have to match these results in this term. *feels the pressure*
I'll post the essays in a bit, the Drama one I was so desperate that I used Umbridge. I KNOW!