help
why does it matter why does any of it matter why do i matter why cant i do anything right why cant i help you why cant you see that i want to help you you scare me so much and i care about you so much and i dont want to lose you but you wont let me help you and so i dont know what i can do and if you think you are feeling worthless then think about me the one who is so worthless she cant help her friends and i know you hate when i make things about myself and im sorry and i dont want to upset you but please for once id like someone to realize that this is hard on me too but im so scared to tell you that because if i do youll get upset and then ill lose you and i dont want to lose you so i cant say anything i cant say what i want to say because im so scared ive always been scared thats just how i am but its never come down to this before i wish you were better if i could fix your life i would i want things to get better for you i feel sorry for you and scared for you but i dont know how to help and its tearing me up but is that really what matters is it really the way i feel that matters or the way you feel that matters i dont know but the way you feel determines what you do so i have to put your feelings above mine because im scared for you so thats what im doing okay im disregarding my feelings completely and making this all about you because thats what you want and i dont want to lose you and i have to do what you want in order to help you and i have to put your interests ahead of mine because its about you not me