New Year's Resolutions
[So I'm a day late. Cry me a river.]
New Years is here again. And it has lost is lustful desires. It has become something that looks appealing from the window miles away however after the tormenting, jaw dropping collision of a journey comes to a close; the final step towards the window ruins the sight. The entire vision become somewhat of a meaningless event. Yet, loosing all the momentum of primary intentions (as I also feel), it must still trudge on through the muddy bottomless pits of life, love and never escaping time.
Ha. I seem to be losing it (what is it?).
Anyways...
My New Years' Resolutions...
(I thought it would be better to list them out; since my head is throbbing and I cannot be left to my own self again. Such was a confusing, lip biting atrocity.) &I have like 5 bazillion hours until I can get real food. So let me open my mind, heart&soul for you and me (aka you can leave now rofl).
1. Stop Procrastinating
This has eaten me with regret, pain and over many uncountable emotions. This needs to stop and it will. It really hurts no one else but me. The constant cramming for tests really does not help in the overall purpose of college. I should be learning this material because it tickles my fancy. Not because, fuck; I need this effing A (and need to really pass). &don't kid; it is a large amount of information. It is not titled a college course for kicks; it involves a little bit more skill then your horrifying AP class.
So no' mo' procrastinating.
2. Go To the Gym At Repeating Intervals
Not to be mean; but no one likes a fatty. (Haha -- No Fat Chicks from I think Family Guy?). But being healthy is important, since I stress way much I should use this healthy form to release it and what not. Plus that feeling of pulled muscles is kind of nice in knowing that wow you did something. And looking absolutely hott (2t's) is really nice too.
3. Stop Worrying About Life And Just Live It.
This includes the many facets of life that I, on a daily basis question. From love, death, fate and regret.
4. Be More Flexible
Self explanatory. Especially with time and with certain individuals.
5. Spend More Time With Family
They can be annoying but so can other people who are not related to you. They are amazing people if you take away their current dispositions. And of course never ignore their flaming faults but foster a relationship that is one filled of affection and joy. There is so much you can do and treasure before most of it is lost to time.
6. Get At Least 5 Solid Hours Of Sleep (On Class Nights)
Ah, sleep. Can you imagine what life would be without sleep? Without dreaming? Oh, the sleepless nights! Haha. I rock the puns tonight. In addition, the driving and most academic actions require a full grasp of your attention so REM looks mighty fine.
7. Get A Job
Something on campus would be most cost effective. Time to amp up my resume
8. Read More Literature
My vocabulary has faltered over the past year and it is quite shocking to myself personally. And my speech has turned so pathetically stereotypical of a teenager I want to scratch my eyes out. I would like to read some plays, fiction, novel and a nice autobiography here and there also. Let's be educated. Oh, current news on the world is also desired as well. The piles of US News, TIME, New York Times on the coffee table is astounding as well as the fact that I have not even read more than 2 articles in each periodical.
9. Develop Time Management Skills.
Time is currently slipping by like sand through your fingers. But try to appreciate it and use it wisely. Appreciate the weight of sand in your hands, examine each grain and use the sand as a tool.
10. Stop Being A Hopeless Romantic
Seriously. Stop. Life does not react in those behaviors.
11. Stop Putting Up With People's Bullshit
I'm tired of putting up with it. Sometimes it eats me from the inside so badly. I want to bitch slap you and interrogate you on how old do you think you are? And did you forget basic manners, respect and social skills to function in a society. Some people I refuse to socialize with and before you think I’m acting like hot shit look in the mirror and tell me how you really act or are perceived. Stupid Dumb Bitch.
12. Volunteer
I need to. It made me feel so much better helping people out and I need oomph for Grad school.
13. Create A Study Schedule
I work so well with schedules it is almost scary. I have my whole life mapped out and nothing is going according to plan. But a study schedule is really important
14. Get Periodical Check Ups With Doctors
Opps...I keep umm...forgetting?
15. Tear Down Walls
And the rest are not your's to know. They are Mine.
I don't feel the way I've ever felt,
I know
I'm gonna smile and not get worried,
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built,
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills
It takes my pain away
It's a lie, a kiss with open eyes,
And she's not breathing back
Anything but bother me
(It takes my pain away)
Never mind these are horrid times,
Ho ho ho,
I can't let it bother me
I never thought I'd walk away from you
I did
But it's a false sense of accomplishment,
Every time I quit.
Anyone can see my every flaw,
It isn't hard
Anyone can say they're above this all
It takes my pain away
It's a lie, a kiss with open eyes,
And she's not breathing back
Anything but bother me
(It takes my pain away)
Never mind these are horrid times,
Ho ho ho,
I can't let it bother me
I can't let it bother me.
It takes my pain away.
It's a lie, a kiss with open eyes,
And she's not breathing back
Anything but bother me
(It takes my pain away)
Never mind these are horrid times,
Ho oh oh,
I can't let it bother me
Takes my pain
Takes my pain
Takes my pain away...