It's about time I said "Hello"
I realize I've been gone for a very long time from here. Not that I was probably missed by any insane fans (of which I have none)... But, the fact is I avoided livejournal for awhile during some troubling times. Here's the abridged version. A little over a year and a half ago I found out I was pregnant. It was pure surprise. We had talked about having children, but certainly had not planned on starting at the time. Regardless of the surprise, I was so completely happy! It felt completely surreal, but I was very excited. I waited with anticipation for my first appointment at 8 weeks so that it could really be confirmed since it felt so unreal. So, when they couldn't find a heart beat during the ultrasound, I was completely devastated. I went in a few days afterward to get a D&C done. I remember waking up sobbing with the nurses trying to comfort me. They finally sent someone to get my mother hoping she would be able to calm me down. The weeks that followed were pretty hard for me, especially since the procedure didn't go as planned. Maybe the worst thing about the way I felt was that I felt like I had no reason to feel so crushed. Miscarriages happen to so many people. I felt like it shouldn't feel like a loss, especially since it had never even felt real. I've moved past that kind of guilt of being sad and have realized now that there will always be some sadness. It's more sadness for something that will never be. Something that could have been.
Shortly after that, my husband and I decided that we would like to try again, and a few months later I found out that I was pregnant. There is something so scary about experiencing a miscarriage and being pregnant again. The whole time you feel blessed that things are going as planned, but terrified that something will go wrong. Well, let me get to the end of the story, or maybe I should say the beginning of a new story. Three months ago I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. We named him Christian, and he is the light of my life! He is a gift! And he's such a beautiful baby. I'm not lying either. He's adorable! And he's so sweet with the most beautiful smile. He was 9 lb 6 oz at birth. And that was a week early! I was induced and ended up having a c-section due to his size. So, that's my story! At least part of it. Suffice to say, that my family is well and happy (though my dog almost died last month and will take months to recover...) Now, I'm going to go try to take a nap while the baby is sleeping, though I'm sure he'll wake up as soon as my head hits the pillow. He usually does...
~Silverton
Shortly after that, my husband and I decided that we would like to try again, and a few months later I found out that I was pregnant. There is something so scary about experiencing a miscarriage and being pregnant again. The whole time you feel blessed that things are going as planned, but terrified that something will go wrong. Well, let me get to the end of the story, or maybe I should say the beginning of a new story. Three months ago I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. We named him Christian, and he is the light of my life! He is a gift! And he's such a beautiful baby. I'm not lying either. He's adorable! And he's so sweet with the most beautiful smile. He was 9 lb 6 oz at birth. And that was a week early! I was induced and ended up having a c-section due to his size. So, that's my story! At least part of it. Suffice to say, that my family is well and happy (though my dog almost died last month and will take months to recover...) Now, I'm going to go try to take a nap while the baby is sleeping, though I'm sure he'll wake up as soon as my head hits the pillow. He usually does...
~Silverton