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I am going to go absolutely crazy. I swear. Today in Algebra 2 we had a quiz that I KNOW I can do, given that its totally easy and then I realized what went wrong halfway through it. I know why I am never that great at tests and quizzes in there! It's because of the stupid, freaking questions! I went to read the instructions/questions for them and suddenly my mind went blank......so really..... I failed it. I know I did, and as soon as I turned it in I sat down and I wanted to go home and cry. I still do. I want to go home and cry so freaking loud and long so that in the end I have no more tears left. I try to hide it from people everyday, but when I leave that class every single day I feel worse and worse and now..... now I feel stupid. I feel like I'm making it more and more obvious to those around me that I'm miserable. This weekend I am going to sit down and organize my algebra 2 notebook, even though it won't do me any good whatsoever..... and hope that my grade will go up SOME....see, my current grade in there is a 58. -_- Been in the 40's most of the semester, and its finally came up to a 58, and I have worked so hard..... so very hard to bring it up. My mom never got me the tutor she said she was, and now.....you know, my parents are going to blame the internet..... they will, and when they do, they will cut it off. I won't be able to talk to anyone! None of my friends call me on the phone anymore, so really..... you know.... STRESS!! I'm going to fail, I know that, but no friends either! Gah! >.< My school is stupid anyway..... giving me World History when I don't need it.... I switched my seal to tech prep and all, so why didn't they take it off? They knew I was a senior this year, so why not automatically put me in the senior class for Algebra 2?? Seriously...... now I bet that the class is full, and that I am S.O.L and that I won't be able to graduate. Or at least walk, depending on my grade in Algebra 2 at the end of the semester. There is the summer school program for those who make a 60 and higher that will be able to bring their grade up to a 70, but umm....that is SUMMER. After graduation. I thought that there was a program for students that failed the first semester that is able to do an extension during 2nd semester or over Christmas break. If that is the case, I would be glad to do it, because
1) I hate being a failure and
2) I don't want to lose contact with friends and my art
Next semester is going to be so easy anyway that it isn't even funny anymore. The only major class that I have to take is Chemistry, and still..... (that is why my school is retarded, they gave me 3 acdemic classes this semester and only one next....and we have 4 classes a semester, so really...) stupid teachers.... stupid school......absolutely stupid. Again, I apologize for ranting and venting on here, but its the only one I know of to really get things out of my system, and very few look at it. If you think that Mmatt needs to see this (talking to you, Alana and Del) then show it to him if you must. I didn't want to worry him and make him think its him when it's not, so that is why I didn't tell him before. But if you think that he needs to know......then go ahead. He knows how much I love him and how much I'm trying to make sure that what we have will work out in the end...enough to where I will pay half or most of his way to get down here and stay for a while, since my mom won't let me go up there (stupid mom...)
So yeah....... and btw, if you're having any difficulty reading this (depending on if you're actually looking through my site instead of friend's page thinger), then just go to the comment link and read from there.
Another thing is that Aleisha thinks she's you-know-what again, because she's been feeling sick in the morning the past few days, so.....I'm prroooobably going to have to talk to her about that....because they really shouldn't be doing that yet when she's not even 18 yet and Eric's dumbass is still in 11th grade when he's 18 going on 19, so....Aleisha's stupid for being with him anyway. And as for the current problem, you would have thought the first scare would have made them back off some, when they didn't really do anything! And now that they've done it several times, -_- she's just.....*sigh* I love her, but I know what she wants to do in the future, and what she is doing now is not a good way of achieving it. So that makes her dumb. I mean, yes I thought about it with Mmatt and I know the dangers and risks, but I'm willing to risk it and knowing that what I want to do won't be at risk with having a kid if it came to that. She wants to be a special doctor, as to where I want to be a writer/artist/poet/whatever.
For my Xanga :P
http://www.salscreationz.com/conn...lthinkofme.html
1) I hate being a failure and
2) I don't want to lose contact with friends and my art
Next semester is going to be so easy anyway that it isn't even funny anymore. The only major class that I have to take is Chemistry, and still..... (that is why my school is retarded, they gave me 3 acdemic classes this semester and only one next....and we have 4 classes a semester, so really...) stupid teachers.... stupid school......absolutely stupid. Again, I apologize for ranting and venting on here, but its the only one I know of to really get things out of my system, and very few look at it. If you think that Mmatt needs to see this (talking to you, Alana and Del) then show it to him if you must. I didn't want to worry him and make him think its him when it's not, so that is why I didn't tell him before. But if you think that he needs to know......then go ahead. He knows how much I love him and how much I'm trying to make sure that what we have will work out in the end...enough to where I will pay half or most of his way to get down here and stay for a while, since my mom won't let me go up there (stupid mom...)
So yeah....... and btw, if you're having any difficulty reading this (depending on if you're actually looking through my site instead of friend's page thinger), then just go to the comment link and read from there.
Another thing is that Aleisha thinks she's you-know-what again, because she's been feeling sick in the morning the past few days, so.....I'm prroooobably going to have to talk to her about that....because they really shouldn't be doing that yet when she's not even 18 yet and Eric's dumbass is still in 11th grade when he's 18 going on 19, so....Aleisha's stupid for being with him anyway. And as for the current problem, you would have thought the first scare would have made them back off some, when they didn't really do anything! And now that they've done it several times, -_- she's just.....*sigh* I love her, but I know what she wants to do in the future, and what she is doing now is not a good way of achieving it. So that makes her dumb. I mean, yes I thought about it with Mmatt and I know the dangers and risks, but I'm willing to risk it and knowing that what I want to do won't be at risk with having a kid if it came to that. She wants to be a special doctor, as to where I want to be a writer/artist/poet/whatever.
For my Xanga :P
http://www.salscreationz.com/conn...lthinkofme.html