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[silverstarz383]

Wow, I'm actually returning to live journal to update... isn't this amazing?  Well, let's tell you the stuff that's happened recently. This summer has been a pretty good one.  There are some things that I wish were better, but things can always be better nomatter what situation you're in... or at least no matter what situation I've been in for as long as I can remember. I met Jeremy, an amazing boy who left too soon.  Rekindled a friendship with Justin, stopped hanging out with even more of the north reading kids than last summer.  I knew it was coming, fake friends can only last so long.  The only ones that I mildly keep in touch with are Lindsay, Lauren, Colleen, and the occasional IM from Lorri.  It's fine, I like it that way.  There are only so many people that you actually want to keep in touch with over time.  I met Sam and Jeff this summer along with an assortment of other people that I've met through them... hanging out with them has definitely been a very good addition to fun in my life. I've seen Greg a couple times, we've always had good times... with the exception of one summer. It's cool how our wicked cool frienship has lasted a lifetime.  Let's see... also went to NH once.  I wish I could have gone a lot more, but classes and work at GaYlands (Galyans) fucked up those chances for me.  I purchased Joel... and he's turning even more and more purple as the days go on ;)  I went to the Nickelback concert with three doors down and puddle of mudd.  Probably one of the most amazing nights of my summer.  They played "Hero" and "Leader of Men" the two songs that touch me in a deep spot...haha... yes I was drunk and cried when I heard both songs.  Other concerts... I went to the Kiss Concert in May, and I just saw Howie Day with OAR August 5th... another great show!  And here's theory that proves true.  The past always makes a couple visits to the present every now and then.  Yeah, I'm talking about a couple ex boyfriends popping into my life when they hadn't even been thought of in years pretty much.  The first and most interesting strange happening was Elliot.  I was going through the trusty Ex shoe box with all of his things, jewlery, pictures, cards, dried flowers, you name it...everything of us was there. I just wanted to show her what he was like cuz she was curious about past boys in my life.  This has been the first time I opened those memories in almost two years, and when I did... it was no big deal... even with him being my first love and all I had no old feelings coming back. I just smile beccause it happened, i was one of the lucky people who had something like that cuz there are many people who havent.  But this is where it gets interesting: about a 1/2 hour after showing Sam those things, i get a phone call completely out of the blue on my cell phone... who is it, it's ELLIOT!! First time I have heard from him all summer... and he's HOME.  I failed to mention he's in the Army national guard and was called to go to Iraq a long time ago, but is home for a few extra weeks.  The ultimate weirdness if you ask me.  And another interesting happening on the Ex front is Bobby.  Yes Bobby... I never ever in my most wild dreams thought that we would speak again and I was happy that way.  But one of my coolest friends Gropemaster, who I actually met though Bobby began to talk to him again and that ultimately ended up in Bobby and I speaking for the first time online in years.  It was a very interesting happening.  A week or so later, we're actually hanging out at Lindsays house swimming, then again we're hanging out at his house drinking, and again at his house drinking and playing Aruba for clothes!   It's definitely a weird, but good thing.  I always wanted to keep this kid in my life as a friend, and now I kinda can.  It's amazing how years apart can still make us act the same as we always have... and how hurtful words can be healed with a little time and a few genuine apologies.  It's really good to know that the past doesn't always have to be our enemy and not everything is full of regrets. We all have regrets, but I am happy to say that Bobby is no longer completely one of them like he was for a long long time.  Other news... I AM PUMPED to go to UNH... I can't fuckin wait.  I have been talking to my new roommate Renee online a bit and she seems great!!  She's from Maine and she has a boyfriend who is trying out for the NFL! Go figure huh?  I have a feeling this is going to be one of the best years of my entire life... and I am so ready to take it on. :)
With that, i am wrapping up this update :) See you again livejournal... don't know when, but I will.

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