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I was sitting here reading my old journals and my profile and I realized that I had changed. Not that my beliefs had changed because they make me me but that being in total love like being surrendering to love, the whole concept of it and the thought of it, changed me. Changed my life. It is no longer about me Sarah, it's Sarah and John. I am not complaining one bit at all. I love John with everything in me, but never in my life have I had this feeling. I like it though. I love it. I love him I love being in love with him. All this talk of moving in together and marriage and kids is new to me. All I know is I am so grateful to have him and Iam so in love with him.It's just awesome. Anyways, I have spent all morning looking for jobs online and shit. Looking for aparments and blah blah. I am so ready to leave this place. But I have to have something to go to when I get to Fayetteville. Anyways I don't know if I am going to have any luck. So please say a prayer for me. I wish we were just done with all this little shit and could be sitting comfortably with a car and a place and jobs. But we will get thru this. Anyways later