re-focusing on my body
Seeing this photo of Rachel McAdams today made me rethink my own attitude about my body and weight and I realized that I have lost focus lately and I am surely heading towards depression if I continue on the current trend. Somehow, in early May, I managed to lose about 6 lbs, just not really doing that much, eating less junk, etc, and somehow, I have been below 138 all summer. I was just thrilled, I have been in the 140s for several years. But now the last 2 weeks have been bad and got to 138.6 2 days ago, which is totally unacceptable to me. I can tell I am feeling down, feeling bloated, unhappy, bordering on depression. So last night I took some laxies (first time in about 3 weeks) and down today to 136.4 lbs which is much better. I've got to refocus on losing more weight. I need to be 130 lbs by the end of Sep.
today: 136.4lbs
next goal: 135 lbs on Monday, Aug. 17
going to a pot luck event tonight, so I gotta save on calories at home, having 2 soft boiled eggs for late breakfast, will try just fruit and such for lunch... tonight should not be too hard, as I really hate to eat in public and an acquitance of mine will be there, she is close to 400 lbs, she inspires me to eat less.