finding the joy
I feel... good. Sleepy, but good, like a cat laying in the sunlight on a windowsill.
I think I've been a lot happier lately, excessive work not withstanding. I just feel... content, so much more often. I think it's because I'm learning not to worry, and that some things are not the end of the world. Also, I've discovered some new music that seems to mellow me out even after a bad day. It's actually a fairly drastic change from a couple of years ago.
Hell, I had two mid-terms today, and I don't even care. That's rather different from the old 'norm'. There's a lot to be said for tranquility and contentment. When I'm happy, it's so much easier to relate to other people. I hope that by smiling and being open that I can help somebody out with their bad day or make a good one better. 'Course, I'm still working on the expressiveness part-- years and years of habits can be hard to break, especially when they've ingrained themselves into my self-image.
Even so, I think I'm going to work on it. I'll get there eventually. And I'm changing my LJ icon because while the old one is cool, I need a new one. (But I still like the layout, so sue me). So, message to the world for tonight-- look for the little bits of peace or joy wherever you can find them. They add up.
I think I've been a lot happier lately, excessive work not withstanding. I just feel... content, so much more often. I think it's because I'm learning not to worry, and that some things are not the end of the world. Also, I've discovered some new music that seems to mellow me out even after a bad day. It's actually a fairly drastic change from a couple of years ago.
Hell, I had two mid-terms today, and I don't even care. That's rather different from the old 'norm'. There's a lot to be said for tranquility and contentment. When I'm happy, it's so much easier to relate to other people. I hope that by smiling and being open that I can help somebody out with their bad day or make a good one better. 'Course, I'm still working on the expressiveness part-- years and years of habits can be hard to break, especially when they've ingrained themselves into my self-image.
Even so, I think I'm going to work on it. I'll get there eventually. And I'm changing my LJ icon because while the old one is cool, I need a new one. (But I still like the layout, so sue me). So, message to the world for tonight-- look for the little bits of peace or joy wherever you can find them. They add up.