*hugs and nuzzles, curling up around her and wraping a wing over her back*
Eli, my friend... The only thing I can possibly tell you right now is to not blame yourself. I'm not sure if you are or not, but I can tell you first hand that you are not to blame...
Dennis has done all this to himself. Every part of the path he was the one who chose to put his foot down and continue forward, even if that path was leading him back. He's no better than what he claims Swyn and DP and Drace are, and I've come to realize that while I'm not 100% happy with their behavior in the past, well... I've moved on, shall we say? And he has not - he's dropped continuously, steadily, into the shadows that he claims to hate.
*shakes her head with a sigh* I myself never stopped caring. Even now, after the accusations and curses he's thrown my way, the snide, ultimately un-Dragoneer-like behavior that he's shown me, I still care about him and his well being. But how much can we take? Is it wrong to realize that the flame will burn you, no matter how many times you put your hand in it? "Maybe... maybe it won't this time." I wish to God that there was some way I could help him; the only thing I can possibly do now, and you too it seems, is to stand on the sidelines and watch, praying that he'll come to his senses. He's shrugged off our help, slapped our hands and disregarded our pain and sorrow for the Hell he's put us through.
Dragoneer, way back in the day, was a big brother to just about all of us. He was loved by many, and that Dragoneer is still loved now even if just by the few. But that Dragoneer is gone - he left us of his own free will, not because of US, not because of even DP and Swyn and Drace - he left us because he didn't care anymore. And he tosses the blame at us.
Sure, we've all changed, but he's changed for the worse, not the better. He hasn't grown up, matured any like the rest of us have. Hell, you and I were some of the youngest of our group! And look at us now.
*shakes her head*
I know it hurts. But you did the smart thing - it will hurt a lot less as time goes on, if you at least allow yourself to be there just in case.
Eli, my friend... The only thing I can possibly tell you right now is to not blame yourself. I'm not sure if you are or not, but I can tell you first hand that you are not to blame...
Dennis has done all this to himself. Every part of the path he was the one who chose to put his foot down and continue forward, even if that path was leading him back. He's no better than what he claims Swyn and DP and Drace are, and I've come to realize that while I'm not 100% happy with their behavior in the past, well... I've moved on, shall we say? And he has not - he's dropped continuously, steadily, into the shadows that he claims to hate.
*shakes her head with a sigh* I myself never stopped caring. Even now, after the accusations and curses he's thrown my way, the snide, ultimately un-Dragoneer-like behavior that he's shown me, I still care about him and his well being. But how much can we take? Is it wrong to realize that the flame will burn you, no matter how many times you put your hand in it? "Maybe... maybe it won't this time." I wish to God that there was some way I could help him; the only thing I can possibly do now, and you too it seems, is to stand on the sidelines and watch, praying that he'll come to his senses. He's shrugged off our help, slapped our hands and disregarded our pain and sorrow for the Hell he's put us through.
Dragoneer, way back in the day, was a big brother to just about all of us. He was loved by many, and that Dragoneer is still loved now even if just by the few. But that Dragoneer is gone - he left us of his own free will, not because of US, not because of even DP and Swyn and Drace - he left us because he didn't care anymore. And he tosses the blame at us.
Sure, we've all changed, but he's changed for the worse, not the better. He hasn't grown up, matured any like the rest of us have. Hell, you and I were some of the youngest of our group! And look at us now.
*shakes her head*
I know it hurts. But you did the smart thing - it will hurt a lot less as time goes on, if you at least allow yourself to be there just in case.
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