~Life~

[silversable]

I think now for the first time ever, I feel my age. I'm feeling all the burdens that life has to offer all at once. Right now, I feel like I'm caught in the middle of who I am. Sometimes I feel like such a kid, and yet other times I feel like I've left my family and friends way behind. I have all this judgment on my head, and expectations from

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[tonegativeone]

I know a few months ago we had a conversation evolving around the entry you just made, though minus the leaving part.

I myself still don't know what to do, but unlike you, I haven't even started to do anything with myself.

My theory [i have too many, don't mind me], is that maybe putting so much effort and thought about trying to figure out who you really are and what you really want, well, that can end up dragging you down even more. You and I, we're both pretty young. We're not supposed to have all the answers yet. We need to be out experiencing things so we can collect judgement from those experiences and reflect on them to learn about who we are and what we really want.

The most frustrating thing, but something that usually never fails to happen, is not being able to see clearly into your future.

Nothing will really take away your worries and frustrations, but you should really try [if it's possible] to take a break from things, and try [though not sure how effective that will be] to explain to the people you care about that you just need a freaking break before you explode.

[silversable]

Thanks Chick. It really means a lot that you care. I know what you mean about never really seeing clear into the future. If people could, more people would be happy, that's for sure. It's just there's a lot of shitty things going on in my life, that I have absolutely no control over... and that is what makes me want to explode.