Bite my lip and close my eyes take me away to paradise
aaaahhhhh one of the best damn weekends ever. So Friday I get fired and that sucked go to my happy place Java with my happy friends. Got to go to Dan and Stephs was only gonna stay one night ended up staying the whole weekend! I had a lot of fun it was nice to be away from home and around people I know care about me. Drinking for days! It was needed. Did feel kind of bad though didnt want to overstay my welcome. But I think that they would let me know if they just wanted some down time.
Jesse. I have no idea how to feel about this person. He gave me some from of an apology for something he doesnt rember doing so it doesnt mean very much. But ya know what we have only know each other for 2 months so it doesnt really matter. Its strange because as I look back on the summer and at the drama aspects of it many of them had to deal with Jesse. If he truely wants me as a friend then he will try to prove it. But I dont think he cares about me one way or the other. I think he just want to keep the peace with me so he can get with my friend or friends (for future reference) He embarrased me and hurt me and did it just to be malicious and then he doesnt even fucking remember it! So ya everything is fine with us I know how he is and He knows how I am and we are done. "over it" right. I tired of the pain. I dont deserve it. And I wont put up with it either. I dont want to be around people who hurt me. So I wont. Simple as that. I just didnt realise it till now!
Going to the doctor tomorrow my shit is fucked up.I can barely breath. This is way worse than last time. I feel really light headed and lungs are pressing against my ribs. ooowwwweee
And the job hunt is on. blah. But you gotta do what you gotta do!
Jesse. I have no idea how to feel about this person. He gave me some from of an apology for something he doesnt rember doing so it doesnt mean very much. But ya know what we have only know each other for 2 months so it doesnt really matter. Its strange because as I look back on the summer and at the drama aspects of it many of them had to deal with Jesse. If he truely wants me as a friend then he will try to prove it. But I dont think he cares about me one way or the other. I think he just want to keep the peace with me so he can get with my friend or friends (for future reference) He embarrased me and hurt me and did it just to be malicious and then he doesnt even fucking remember it! So ya everything is fine with us I know how he is and He knows how I am and we are done. "over it" right. I tired of the pain. I dont deserve it. And I wont put up with it either. I dont want to be around people who hurt me. So I wont. Simple as that. I just didnt realise it till now!
Going to the doctor tomorrow my shit is fucked up.I can barely breath. This is way worse than last time. I feel really light headed and lungs are pressing against my ribs. ooowwwweee
And the job hunt is on. blah. But you gotta do what you gotta do!