The books of java
So finally got home at 7 o'clock very happy to be home so I could leave. Randi shows up while I'm in the shower barges into the bathroom and almost gives me a heart attack. Took her and Shawna with me to Java. Quite night at the shop only a few of us there, but it was nice. Started to have a serious conversation with Dan told him in good time we would have one. We got interupted I still had more to say, but have tons of time. Am a bit upset and confused as I learn about more of the things that have gone on in past weeks. Cant go back now just have to keep moving forward. Am a bit puzzled over Andys comment about "go on" I'm gald I have her "permission" if thats what you want to call it to attempt something with Dan, but such lack of caring makes me wonder if its for real or not. But even if it truely is ok I have no idea how he feels about me I know he considers me a friend which is great. no complaints about that. I'm almost afraid to ask how he really feels at this point in time. Too many complications. I think every one needs more time to recover if you will from the past events. But it is my belief that every thing happens for a reason, and that if something is meant to be it will. So I guess ill take a back seat for now. See what happens when Andy comes back into town, and what happens as time progresses. And if all that happens is something of a honest and true friendship then I shall be satisfied. Oh I have a feeling I'm just making things worse. I hope not. But I'm tired of setting my feelings aside so everyone else can be happy its my turn now. I think I deserve it. I can already feel the tension hehehe ah Aint life grand!?!