home i remember what that was like
my house is no longer the same and i hate coming home all together now. its not the same place i used to know with the same people they have all changed. my parents look older and angryer and the kids pretty much run wild. they let bad people into out home and now they have done bad things to us they sold drugs out of our home and now have stolen tons of jewlry from my mom. i also now have to decided wether i am going to live here or if i am going to live with chris. thats a huge decision that i dont know if i am ready for i love him and want to be with him for a long time but to live with him permantently i just dont know it scares me so much but as each day passes it seems like the best thing for me. im scared to leave because of the kids then who will watch them who will really know whats going on and them what if there is always what if what if me and chris break up for some unknow reason then i will be homeless im scared i just want to cry. why is it like this now the holidays what the fuck why me?