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so havent been to java in a while. to tell the truth it was a nice break i missed it but it was nice to do something different. and i was told that even when im there im not there. which really hurt because i made an honest effort to walk around and talk to people or be in a group of people and not off by myself with chris. so i dont know.
i know i have been gone. i get this. but im also doing something new. i havent had an offical boyfriend in over 2 years. on top of that i have never liked any of them as much as i do chris. so do i want to spend a lot of time with him hell yes. especially before i have to get another job and both of us start school.
the funny thing is you think most of my friends would understand this. because they have all done this at some point in time or another. shit i mean that crap with meri and dave went on for over 3 years. i got ditched and left behind not included but i didnt care because i knew they loved each other and wanted to spend time together whenever they could. so i guess i kind of expected the same frame of mind from her at least. i just dont know.
other wise my life is going ok. today my car fucked up again. and i just got the damned thing fixed. my battery was out of water, and the car wouldnt turn over. blah. stupid fuckin car.
my parents are insane but i guess thats to be expected. i just deal with it the best i can. god damn. they make my want to slam my head into the wall till i lose all sence of being.
im done for now i guess.
i know i have been gone. i get this. but im also doing something new. i havent had an offical boyfriend in over 2 years. on top of that i have never liked any of them as much as i do chris. so do i want to spend a lot of time with him hell yes. especially before i have to get another job and both of us start school.
the funny thing is you think most of my friends would understand this. because they have all done this at some point in time or another. shit i mean that crap with meri and dave went on for over 3 years. i got ditched and left behind not included but i didnt care because i knew they loved each other and wanted to spend time together whenever they could. so i guess i kind of expected the same frame of mind from her at least. i just dont know.
other wise my life is going ok. today my car fucked up again. and i just got the damned thing fixed. my battery was out of water, and the car wouldnt turn over. blah. stupid fuckin car.
my parents are insane but i guess thats to be expected. i just deal with it the best i can. god damn. they make my want to slam my head into the wall till i lose all sence of being.
im done for now i guess.