Jul 08, 2005 03:00
My ana is forever calling out to me, telling me I can do it, I NEED to, but I let her down. Every day. Disgusting blob of fat.... but what good does it do to put myself down? I NEED self-control. I always say, "I'll start a diet tomorrow," and the other day I did pretty good. But it isn't enough. I'm stuck in a size 15 and ma's down to a 10. 75 pounds.... will I ever see you? hell, I'd be happy at 80 or 85...
I could be so pretty...
I could have someone like Brian... if that's what I wanted.
I wonder which is truly worse, ana or mia?
ickie
i'm so gross
my arm hurrrrrrrrrrrrts still. hope it doesn't fall off.