Yay for Thanksgiving Break
I am so happy that Thanksgiving break is finally here. I really need the break even though I don't know how much of a break I'm going to get. There are so many things that are due right when I get back, but all I can do is just be optimistic about it.
On another note, I'm finally learning to let things go. It is helping me just be happy with the way things are. Sure, sometimes my life is very f*ed up and I feel like I don't deserve half the shit that happens to me. However, its not my place to judge what I deserve. Buddhism teaches that this is one of the roots of our suffering. I find it funny that I mentioned curbing my desires and the Buddhist philosophy in an entry about a year ago, but I have completely forgotten this wisdom.
No more vengefulness. No more anger. No more bipolarness. I'm just letting all the crappy shit go.
My mom told me to do this and I'm finding it helpful. Speaking of the parents, I feel as if I should pull a Will and Grace and tell them my secret over Thanksgiving. It would be good for me since I have so much shit to deal with and I don't need the fear of them rejecting and ditching me to constantly linger in the back of my psyche. For some reason, I feel as if it was time. It's something I feel holds back the communication and relationship between me and my parents, since its such a huge part they can't share with me. I just need to build up the courage to do it.
I always promised myself I would tell them if I ever had a boyfriend. I decided this because I wanted them to know about such a big part of my life. However, it doesn't seem this is going to happen in the near future, so I might as well come clean now. I am also learning how to survive single. I don't need a boyfriend to make me feel wanted. I can make it to where I need to be alone. Plus, I know now that there are plenty of people who love and care for me. I just needed to get over my insecurities.
Finally, props to those who care. I love you all. Have a happy Thanksgiving break.
On another note, I'm finally learning to let things go. It is helping me just be happy with the way things are. Sure, sometimes my life is very f*ed up and I feel like I don't deserve half the shit that happens to me. However, its not my place to judge what I deserve. Buddhism teaches that this is one of the roots of our suffering. I find it funny that I mentioned curbing my desires and the Buddhist philosophy in an entry about a year ago, but I have completely forgotten this wisdom.
No more vengefulness. No more anger. No more bipolarness. I'm just letting all the crappy shit go.
My mom told me to do this and I'm finding it helpful. Speaking of the parents, I feel as if I should pull a Will and Grace and tell them my secret over Thanksgiving. It would be good for me since I have so much shit to deal with and I don't need the fear of them rejecting and ditching me to constantly linger in the back of my psyche. For some reason, I feel as if it was time. It's something I feel holds back the communication and relationship between me and my parents, since its such a huge part they can't share with me. I just need to build up the courage to do it.
I always promised myself I would tell them if I ever had a boyfriend. I decided this because I wanted them to know about such a big part of my life. However, it doesn't seem this is going to happen in the near future, so I might as well come clean now. I am also learning how to survive single. I don't need a boyfriend to make me feel wanted. I can make it to where I need to be alone. Plus, I know now that there are plenty of people who love and care for me. I just needed to get over my insecurities.
Finally, props to those who care. I love you all. Have a happy Thanksgiving break.