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Why do I keep making stupid mistakes. Isn't there a quote that states something like "The definition of insane is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results"? That would be me. I make the same mistakes again and again and then expect things to be different this time. I need to learn how to communicate in serious conversations that involve feelings without cracking jokes and changing the subject. COMMUNICATION IS KEY!! Why can't I do it then?! I fucked up today and even while I was talking, my head was saying "what are you doing?! Stop! Your messing things up!" But I kept going. I think I have a problem admitting that I just said something wrong and that I really meant...this. *sigh* When will I grow up. Everyone around me is...but sometimes I feel like I am regressing back into jr. high mentality. I would like to be normal...