Yeah, Life
Hah, my life has completely blown up in my face, all in one day...
1. My aunt died
2. my brother still has his life in a freeze of sorts
3. My one true support, the only one I felt I could truely lean against has pullin that support from under me.
Oh, I know what he said, that he still loves me, and I believe that with everything that I am, I have to, or I'm going to fall completely apart, and I don't know, join the Air Force and have them pay for my schooling...but he did take himself away from me in a time when I needed him. However I cannot hate him for it, he is taking care of himself first, and that is more important than me, if it keeps him happy. Its just, he told me I could still go to him if I needed him, but I don't think he is looking at this rationally, I can't go to him, I still love him, and if I try and go to him I will not be able to give him the space he needs. So, I am dealing with my life on my own right now, and I don't seem to be doing a very good job of it, but it will get better, I will survive this, and maybe, I'll be stronger for it.
1. My aunt died
2. my brother still has his life in a freeze of sorts
3. My one true support, the only one I felt I could truely lean against has pullin that support from under me.
Oh, I know what he said, that he still loves me, and I believe that with everything that I am, I have to, or I'm going to fall completely apart, and I don't know, join the Air Force and have them pay for my schooling...but he did take himself away from me in a time when I needed him. However I cannot hate him for it, he is taking care of himself first, and that is more important than me, if it keeps him happy. Its just, he told me I could still go to him if I needed him, but I don't think he is looking at this rationally, I can't go to him, I still love him, and if I try and go to him I will not be able to give him the space he needs. So, I am dealing with my life on my own right now, and I don't seem to be doing a very good job of it, but it will get better, I will survive this, and maybe, I'll be stronger for it.