When It's Not Only You and I
"What did you say?"
"Yes, Hyuk. You heard it right. I love you."
Eunhyuk chuckled and looked away. He couldn't believe Donghae's confessions, "I'm not in the mood for joking around."
"I'm not joking." Donghae answered seriously.
Eunhyuk, heard sincerity in Donghae's voice, couldn't help but looked at him again with his eyes got even wider.
"I'm sorry if it's annoying or disturbing you, but I just want you to know the truth." Donghae started to looked anywhere else to avoid Eunhyuk's eyes. "I... I love you for a long time. Even before you date Kyuhyun."
Eunhyuk felt his heart just slide down to his stomach. He couldn't believe that Sungmin was right. It seemed like everyone could see Donghae's love for him but he couldn't. How could he so stupid?
He hurt Donghae for a long time.
"I don't want you to be like this. I want you to know that I'll always be here beside you, loving you until I die."
Eunhyuk suddenly burst into laughter, "you're so exaggerating. Please, hae, it doesn't suit you at all." Eunhyuk covered his mouth and giggled like crazy.
Donghae sighed heavily to see Eunhyuk laughed at him, but to think about it, Eunhyuk was laughing because of him. It's kinda good think to see.
"Laugh as much as you can. I love to see you're laughing though. But it won't change the fact that I love you." Donghae said seriously while Eunhyuk still giggling. But then Eunhyuk stopped his laugh the moment Donghae said it again.
Eunhyuk was speechless and he opened his mouth but then closed it again. He sighed and wiped his face.
"Why?"
"I don't know. I just love you."
"You know I love Kyuhyun."
"But I love you even before you met Kyuhyun. It's so hard to fall out of love, you know."
"Why don't you tell me?"
"I was going to tell you but you suddenly hugged me tight and told me that you were officially dating kyuhyun. Remember that day?" Donghae told Eunhyuk and Eunhyuk widened his eyes remember about that day.
«««
Eunhyuk opened his locker and there's a letter flew out of his locker. He caught it with a chuckle. Of course he knew who has sent this letter. He immediately opened the letter.
I think I love you...
Eunhyuk's heart stopped beating and his face was red like a tomato. He bit his lips in nervous and he immediately locked the locker again.
He was going to back to his class when suddenly Kyuhyun's voice was heard in front of his ear.
"Answer me..."
Kyuhyun said from behind and the soft voice of Kyuhyun made him shiver. He could feel his heart beats even faster the moment he felt Kyuhyun's presence.
"But you didn't ask me anything..." Eunhyuk said in a low voice and he just looked down to the floor while holding the locker's knob tightly.
"Yes, because I'm going to ask the question now." Kyuhyun said seriously and Eunhyuk's poor heart couldn't handle it anymore. Thank God his back facing Kyuhyun, because he's too shy. His knees felt so weak and he felt like going to fall.
"Okay..."
Kyuhyun took a deep breath and asked, "would you be my boyfriend, Eunhyuk?"
Eunhyuk couldn't feel anything else but happy to heard it. Even actually there's something in his heart that made him felt weird, he's happy. He loves Kyuhyun too.
"Please turn around if your answer is yes..." Kyuhyun added and he sounded really nervous and scared that Eunhyuk would reject him. "If the answer no, you can-"
Eunhyuk immediately turned around before Kyuhyun finished his sentence. Kyuhyun widened his eyes to see Eunhyuk smiling happily to him. Then Eunhyuk moved closer and wrapped those arms around Kyuhyun's waist, "yes, I'd love to."
Kyuhyun frozen on his feet for a few seconds before finally realized that Eunhyuk was just accepted him. He hugged Eunhyuk back and smiled.
"Thanks. Thanks, Eunhyuk. I love you.."
Then after that, Eunhyuk told Kyuhyun that he needs to shared the happy news to his best friend, Donghae. So Eunhyuk went to the class happily.
He saw Donghae was in front of his class looking for him, when Donghae turned around Eunhyuk immediately hugged him tightly.
"it's over, Donghae. I will forget about my love for you... It's over. I'll give up on you.
Then Eunhyuk told Donghae that he just officially dating Kyuhyun.
»»»
"And the kiss that caused us this trouble was not a joke, Hyuk..." Donghae added.
Eunhyuk slowly sat up and Donghae immediately helped him. Eunhyuk sat on his bed while Donghae stood on his knees looking at Eunhyuk's eyes deeply.
"I'm sorry, Hae..." Eunhyuk's eyes started to water. "I hurt you for a long time... I'm sorry... I never knew about it.."
"That's okay." Donghae gave out a gentle smile. Eunhyuk gave a little smile as well. But then his smile gone when Donghae slowly hold his hands tightly, "but hyuk..."
Eunhyuk looked down to their hands and up to Donghae's face.
"Please, be with me. Forget about Kyuhyun and start everything all over again with me." Donghae said seriously to Eunhyuk until Eunhyuk widened his eyes at Donghae's words. Donghae looked at him seriously and deeply as if he's begging for Eunhyuk's pity. Eunhyuk fell all over again at those innocent round eyes. He couldn't utter any words to answer.
"I.. I..."
"Please, Hyuk. I really love you." Donghae hold Eunhyuk's hands tighter and he even leaned closer to Eunhyuk. "I promise. I will never leave you like what Kyuhyun did. I promise you, Hyuk."
Eunhyuk felt a stab in his heart. If he remember about Kyuhyun, it's the most painful of all the things that ever hurt him. It's really unbearable. Eunhyuk just bit his lips and tears fell.
Donghae's hands slowly touched Eunhyuk's soft cheek and his thumb caressed and wiped Eunhyuk's tears, "don't cry. I'm here, Hyuk. I will always be with you. Don't you see? After all this years, before you had a boyfriend, after you had boyfriend, and even until now, I always beside you, right? I love you, Hyuk."
Eunhyuk started to sob. He's too confused. In one side, he loves Donghae too. He knew it. He actually still love him, he just in denial back then. But in another side, he loves Kyuhyun too and he still couldn't get over him. Their lovely memories are really too much and too sweet to forget. He couldn't just forget it that easy.
Eunhyuk felt so greedy.
If only he could have Donghae and Kyuhyun at the same time...
But it's obvious that he couldn't have Kyuhyun anymore. The thought made him cry even more.
"I'm sorry, Donghae... I can't..." Eunhyuk answered between his sobs.
Donghae felt his heart fell to his stomach, "why, Hyuk? Do you still love Kyuhyun?"
"Of course I do!" Eunhyuk snapped at Donghae while sobbing uncontrollably. "Even he doesn't remember me and we're over, I can't immediately go out with you. People will think that I'm a whore! Besides, I can't do it. I can't, Hae... I still love him so much, Hae..." Eunhyuk cried out and tears going out of his eyes like a river.
Donghae sighed heavily and could feel his heart ripped into a million pieces. He loosen up his hold on Eunhyuk's hands and looked down to the floor.
"I'm sorry..." Eunhyuk whispered between his cry.
"But you love me, right?" Donghae suddenly asked. It made Eunhyuk shocked. He couldn't just say yes like that. Donghae would set his hope too high about them.
So Eunhyuk just looked down at his hands and shook his head while crying.
"Don't lie to me." Donghae move closer and cupped Eunhyuk's face with his both hands. "I heard it. I heard it when you were talking with Sungmin."
Eunhyuk looked up and widened his eyes in shock. He heard it?, He thought.
"Yes, I heard it when you said that you actually loved me too." Donghae said to him and Eunhyuk could see hope in Donghae's eyes. "You still love me, right?"
Eunhyuk shook his head and keep crying. His eyes avoided Donghae's eyes, "no, donghae, please-"
"No! Don't say no. I know you still have those feelings! I know! Don't lie, hyuk!" Donghae cupped Eunhyuk's face and he leaned even closer to Eunhyuk while Eunhyuk keep avoiding Donghae's eyes. "If you don't, then you wouldn't kiss me back that day."
Eunhyuk's tears fell even more to remember about the thing that caused him all of the trouble. Donghae's right. He kissed back. He stupidly kissed Donghae back.
"H-hae-"
"Don't say it yet, Hyuk! Please! You still want to be with Kyuhyun. That's why you said you don't love me anymore. You still feel guilty towards him. That's why!" Donghae cut him off. "I beg you..."
Eunhyuk slowly looked up to see Donghae's eyes and he saw sadness and hope there. He felt so bad for Donghae. He's been suffering all this years because he's too stupid. He didn't realize that Donghae loves him and keep hurting him by crying over Kyuhyun.
Maybe he should give Donghae a chance...
Eunhyuk slowly hugged Donghae's neck and he buried his face on his neck.
"Help me then, Hae..."
Donghae widened his eyes at Eunhyuk's words.
"Help me to forget him..."
Donghae felt his chest like exploding because of tons happiness. Eunhyuk gave him a chance. Eunhyuk just agreed to gave him a chance.
Donghae hugged Eunhyuk back so tightly, "of course, Hyuk! Of course! I will help you to forget him!" Donghae said happily. He smiled widely while hugging Eunhyuk's waist tightly.
Eunhyuk pulled away and tried to stop his cry. He wiped his tears on his cheeks and he looked at Donghae with a small smile on his face.
"Thanks, Hae..." He said. "And sorry..."
Donghae sighed in relieve and cupped Eunhyuk's face again, "it's okay. As long as you give me a chance, Hyuk. I'm okay."
Eunhyuk smiled.
Donghae moved closer until their face just an inch away and whispered, "I love you so much, Hyuk." Then Donghae pressed his lips against Eunhyuk's soft lips so gently.
•••
Kyuhyun never understand why since those really painful memories came, he only think about Eunhyuk. He wanted to know where is Eunhyuk, and with who. Suddenly the thought of Eunhyuk spending his time with Donghae made him feel so uneasy. Deep down in his heart, he didn’t want Eunhyuk with Donghae. But he didn’t know why.
It’s not like he didn’t realized and still didn’t accept that actually he and Eunhyuk are in a relationship. But it’s because why he still care about all of those shits when it’s really obvious that Eunhyuk was cheating on him. in the memories that came to him before, Eunhyuk was kissing Donghae when it’s obvious that Kyuhyun was his boyfriend. It means that Eunhyuk was cheating on him, right? Then why the fuck he cares about it? That’s what bothering him now.
Kyuhyun sat up on his bed and ruffled his own hair frustratedly, “what’s wrong with me?!” He snapped to himself.
Not long after that, suddenly his parents and the doctor came. They were smiling widely to Kyuhyun, “Hey, son! How are you, sweety?” His mom asked sweetly. She kissed Kyuhyun’s hair and caressed his white cheek.
“Mmmkay.” Kyuhyun answered lazily.
“Maybe you already bored to be here, right?” The doctor asked with a light chuckled.
“Already? I’m bored since the first time I opened my eyes.” He answered rudely while looking away from the doctor.
“Kyu, why did you talk that way to Dr. Kim?” His dad glared at him and shook his head. “I’m sorry for his rude behavior, Dr. Kim.”
“Gwenchana. I know he’s just boring to be here.” Dr. Kim waved his hand and chuckled, “That’s why Kyuhyun, I’m here to tell you that you can go home starts from tomorrow.” He smiled widely to Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun immediately looked at him with bright smile.
“jinjjayo?!” Kyuhyun asked excitedly.
“Ne! You’re free from this boring hospital.” Dr. Kim answered and gave him a wide smile.
“Owaaaaah! Kamsahamnida, Dr. Kim!” Kyuhyun bowed at him happily. He couldn’t wait to get out of this hospital. He wanted to go to school, or anywhere as long as it’s not the hospital.
i should tell Eun-ehm, Sungmin that I’m coming home tomorrow. I don’t want him to come here and find the room is empty., he thought.
•••
Eunhyuk looked at the blue book sadly. He touched it and feel his heart suddenly hurt like hell. He opened it and saw the pop-up. He smiled sadly and unconsciously tears fell.
He miss Kyuhyun. So much.
He thought that Kyuhyun actually didn’t really in love with him back then. Maybe during his relationship with Kyuhyun, Sungmin was the only person that Kyuhyun really love. Sungmin was the one Kyuhyun really wanted to spend his time with. Maybe It’s always Sungmin. Not him.
Tears started to fall again when he thinks that he’s so stupid. He made the book with all his heart, but it turned out to be nothing for Kyuhyun. It’s just a shit.
Eunhyuk chuckled sadly. He just found out that he’s really pathetic. He’s stupid bitch who just found his life was really pathetic. he thought that maybe it’s a punishment for playing with love. because he loves two person at a time, maybe this is the punishment.
Eunhyuk kissed the book and hugged it. He really miss Kyuhyun’s smile and his jealousy. Now he couldn’t see it all again. Kyuhyun hates him, and they’re over.
“Hyuk…”
Donghae called slowly from behind him. Eunhyuk immediately wiped his tears and put the book on the bedside table again. Donghae approached him and sat beside him on the bed.
“You still crying over him…” Donghae said sadly.
“I’m sorry. I promise I’ll stop next week.” Eunhyuk answered in a low voice and he wiped his tears with his hands.
Donghae hold Eunhyuk’s wrist and stopped him from wiping the tears. But then he replaced it with his own hands. He wiped Eunhyuk’s tears with his thumb gently. Eunhyuk’s heart felt warm because of the touch. Eunhyuk locked his eyes on Donghae’s eyes. Donghae could see Eunhyuk’s eyes are wet by tears. His heart was so hurt to see it. Then suddenly he moved closer and kissed Eunhyuk’s eyes. Eunhyuk closed his eyes and let Donghae kissed his eyes.
When Donghae pulled away, Donghae cupped his face with his both hands, “Eunhyuk… it’s okay to cry. you can cry on my shoulder.”
Eunhyuk lose his breath at Donghae’s words. He felt so happy and calm to have someone like Donghae. He’s been hurting him for a long time, but Donghae still willing to hear his cry and even lend his shoulder. suddenly, Eunhyuk’s sadness were gone and replaced with warmth. He felt so calm by Donghae’s presence. So instead of crying, Eunhyuk leaned his head on Donghae’s chest and closed his eyes enjoying Donghae’s heartbeat. His hands sneaked around Donghae’s waist and hugged it tightly.
“Thank You, Donghae.”
Donghae hugged him back and stroked Eunhyuk’s hair, “You’re welcome.”
•••
Eunhyuk was ready for school and he looked at his reflection on the mirror. He promised himself to forget about Kyuhyun. Whatever happened, those were just a sweet memories that he should forget. Now he should make a new one. There's Donghae who always want to help him to make a new one.
Eunhyuk smiled at that thought.
Eunhyuk grabbed his bag and put it on his shoulder. Then he coincidentally saw the blue book. He promised himself not to cry over it anymore, so he dare himself to grab it and put it inside his bag. He's going to sent it away.
Then he walked to his front door to leave the house. But he's surprised when he opened the door, he saw Donghae just got down of his motorcycle.
"W-what are you doing here?" Eunhyuk asked.
Donghae looked at Eunhyuk and smiled, "hey, morning." He said cheerfully. "I come to pick you up."
Eunhyuk frowned in confused, "why? I can go to school by myself." Eunhyuk answered.
"Eeeey~ don't you remember that we used to go to school together before you're with Kyuhyun?" Eunhyuk flinched and bite his lips for a second then looked away when he heard Donghae mentioned Kyuhyun's name. It didn't went unnoticed by donghae. "Sorry..." Donghae said when he saw Eunhyuk's reaction to Kyuhyun's name.
Then Eunhyuk walked to Donghae and his motorcycle, "oke, let's go."
Donghae smiled and immediately climbed to his motorcycle again, and Eunhyuk followed him.
Donghae started to drove his motorcycle away from Eunhyuk's house.
Eunhyuk started to think about the book. He knows that whenever he go to school, he will always pass Kyuhyun's house. He bite his lips in doubt, before finally say to donghae, "can we stop at kyuhyun's house for a minute?" He asked.
Donghae slower his motorcycle immediately, "what?"
"Please stop at Kyu's house for a minute. I need to do something." Eunhyuk said sadly.
Donghae sighed and didn't had any choice. He drove his motorcycle fastly again until finally they reached Kyuhyun's house.
Eunhyuk climbed down of the motorcycle and looked at the house with eyes full of longing, "wait here, okay?" Then he turned around.
But Donghae caught his wrist immediately. Eunhyuk startled a little bit then he turned around to look at Donghae. Donghae was looking at him sadly and he could tell that Donghae was afraid. Maybe afraid of Eunhyuk leaving him for kyuhyun again.
"Just a minute, hae." Eunhyuk said convincing him that Donghae didn't need to worry.
Slowly Donghae let Eunhyuk's wrist go. Eunhyuk turned around and walked to Kyuhyun's door house.
He knocked the door once. He felt his heart beats faster and he couldn't help himself but remember about the memories he and kyuhyun had in this house. He hold himself no to cry.
He knocked again for the second time, until not long after that the door was opened revealing Kyuhyun's mom.
"Ah! Eunhyuk-ah!" Mrs. Cho looked surprised because the early visit.
"Good morning, Mrs. Cho." Eunhyuk bowed politely to Mrs Cho and smiled.
"Aigoo~ why so formal?" Mrs. Cho hit Eunhyuk's arms lightly while chuckling.
Eunhyuk smiled and chuckled. Kyuhyun's mom always love him and so welcome to him. Kyuhyun even feel jealous because it seems like his mom love Eunhyuk more than his own son.
"What's up, Eunhyuk-ah?" Mrs. Cho asked lovingly.
Eunhyuk opened his bag and put the blue book out. He gave it to Kyuhyun's mom and Kyuhyun's mom looked confuse.
"Can you please give it to Kyuhyun? Emmm... Anni. Can you just please put it into Kyuhyun's bookshelf? Maybe he didn't want to see it but I just can't throw it away to trashcan..." Eunhyuk smiled sadly and Mrs. Cho's smile immediately faded away. "If he found it and want to throw it, it's okay."
Mrs. Cho sighed heavily and looked at the blue book sadly. Then she looked at Eunhyuk and pulled Eunhyuk into her hug. She patted Eunhyuk's back lovingly and hugged him tightly.
"I'm so sorry, Eunhyuk-ah..." Mrs. Cho said to him.
Eunhyuk bite his lips to hold his tears fell out of his eyes. He just smiled and chuckled sadly.
"Just wait a little longer, Eunhyuk-ah.." Mrs. Cho said again and Eunhyuk just chuckled bitterly once again.
Eunhyuk pulled away and smiled, "we broke up, Mrs Cho."
Kyuhyun's mother gasped in surprised, "What?!"
Eunhyuk nodded, "yeah. I'm sorry.."
Mrs. Cho looked so sad and she caressed Eunhyuk's cheek with her right hands while her other's hands holding the book.
"I'm so sorry... It really makes me sad, you know? I would really happy to have a son in law like you, Hyuk-ah.." She said sadly and Eunhyuk just smiled while he touched Kyuhyun's mom's hands. He hold it tightly and pushed it away from his cheeks slowly.
"Thanks, Mrs. Cho. I would really happy to have a mother like you. But... Kyuhyun didn't feel the same anymore." Eunhyuk tightened his hold at Kyuhyun's mom's hands. "It's okay..."
Mrs. Cho just looking at him sadly and sighed heavily.
"Just help me to put it on Kyu's bookshelf, okay?" Eunhyuk smiled. "Maybe this is the last time I asked you for help."
"Aigoo, Eunhyuk-ah. You make me sad!" Mrs. Cho started to cry and Eunhyuk shocked to see the tears fell out of Mrs. Cho's eyes.
"Uljima, Mrs. Cho. It's okay." Eunhyuk hugged Mrs. Cho tightly and he himself tried so hard not to cry. "It's okay..."
Eunhyuk pulled away and smiled, "I have to go, Mrs. Cho. My friend is waiting." Eunhyuk said while pointed at Donghae behind him with his thumb.
"Don't you want to see Kyuhyun?" She asked suddenly.
Eunhyuk froze.
"K-kyuhyun?" Eunhyuk asked in surprised. "Is he home already?"
Mrs. Cho nodded.
Eunhyuk felt his heart beats even faster. He really want to run inside the house and run to Kyuhyun's room. He wants to hug and kiss him. He misses him so much. But he knows. Kyuhyun won't like it. So he just smiled sadly again and again before shook his head.
"Thanks, Mrs. Cho. I don't want to disturb his rest." Eunhyuk said with a bitter smile. "Besides, I have school."
Mrs. Cho nodded, "okay. Take care, Eunhyuk-ah..."
Eunhyuk bowed again, "goodbye, Mrs. Cho. Hope we can meet again soon." He smiled.
Mrs Cho smiled sadly, "of course, Eunhyuk-ah. Bye."
Then Eunhyuk turned around and walked to Donghae's motorcycle. He gets on the motorcycle and Donghae drove away from Kyuhyun's house.
He's driving with absurd feeling because he just witnessed something that really make him jealous. Eunhyuk was so close with Kyuhyun's mom. He's afraid.
Then suddenly a pair of arms wrapped around his waist, and he could feel Eunhyuk was leaning his head on Donghae's back. Donghae froze in the beginning before he finally realized that Eunhyuk was crying again.
He must be crying again.
•••
"Yes, Hyuk. You heard it right. I love you."
Eunhyuk chuckled and looked away. He couldn't believe Donghae's confessions, "I'm not in the mood for joking around."
"I'm not joking." Donghae answered seriously.
Eunhyuk, heard sincerity in Donghae's voice, couldn't help but looked at him again with his eyes got even wider.
"I'm sorry if it's annoying or disturbing you, but I just want you to know the truth." Donghae started to looked anywhere else to avoid Eunhyuk's eyes. "I... I love you for a long time. Even before you date Kyuhyun."
Eunhyuk felt his heart just slide down to his stomach. He couldn't believe that Sungmin was right. It seemed like everyone could see Donghae's love for him but he couldn't. How could he so stupid?
He hurt Donghae for a long time.
"I don't want you to be like this. I want you to know that I'll always be here beside you, loving you until I die."
Eunhyuk suddenly burst into laughter, "you're so exaggerating. Please, hae, it doesn't suit you at all." Eunhyuk covered his mouth and giggled like crazy.
Donghae sighed heavily to see Eunhyuk laughed at him, but to think about it, Eunhyuk was laughing because of him. It's kinda good think to see.
"Laugh as much as you can. I love to see you're laughing though. But it won't change the fact that I love you." Donghae said seriously while Eunhyuk still giggling. But then Eunhyuk stopped his laugh the moment Donghae said it again.
Eunhyuk was speechless and he opened his mouth but then closed it again. He sighed and wiped his face.
"Why?"
"I don't know. I just love you."
"You know I love Kyuhyun."
"But I love you even before you met Kyuhyun. It's so hard to fall out of love, you know."
"Why don't you tell me?"
"I was going to tell you but you suddenly hugged me tight and told me that you were officially dating kyuhyun. Remember that day?" Donghae told Eunhyuk and Eunhyuk widened his eyes remember about that day.
«««
Eunhyuk opened his locker and there's a letter flew out of his locker. He caught it with a chuckle. Of course he knew who has sent this letter. He immediately opened the letter.
I think I love you...
Eunhyuk's heart stopped beating and his face was red like a tomato. He bit his lips in nervous and he immediately locked the locker again.
He was going to back to his class when suddenly Kyuhyun's voice was heard in front of his ear.
"Answer me..."
Kyuhyun said from behind and the soft voice of Kyuhyun made him shiver. He could feel his heart beats even faster the moment he felt Kyuhyun's presence.
"But you didn't ask me anything..." Eunhyuk said in a low voice and he just looked down to the floor while holding the locker's knob tightly.
"Yes, because I'm going to ask the question now." Kyuhyun said seriously and Eunhyuk's poor heart couldn't handle it anymore. Thank God his back facing Kyuhyun, because he's too shy. His knees felt so weak and he felt like going to fall.
"Okay..."
Kyuhyun took a deep breath and asked, "would you be my boyfriend, Eunhyuk?"
Eunhyuk couldn't feel anything else but happy to heard it. Even actually there's something in his heart that made him felt weird, he's happy. He loves Kyuhyun too.
"Please turn around if your answer is yes..." Kyuhyun added and he sounded really nervous and scared that Eunhyuk would reject him. "If the answer no, you can-"
Eunhyuk immediately turned around before Kyuhyun finished his sentence. Kyuhyun widened his eyes to see Eunhyuk smiling happily to him. Then Eunhyuk moved closer and wrapped those arms around Kyuhyun's waist, "yes, I'd love to."
Kyuhyun frozen on his feet for a few seconds before finally realized that Eunhyuk was just accepted him. He hugged Eunhyuk back and smiled.
"Thanks. Thanks, Eunhyuk. I love you.."
Then after that, Eunhyuk told Kyuhyun that he needs to shared the happy news to his best friend, Donghae. So Eunhyuk went to the class happily.
He saw Donghae was in front of his class looking for him, when Donghae turned around Eunhyuk immediately hugged him tightly.
"it's over, Donghae. I will forget about my love for you... It's over. I'll give up on you.
Then Eunhyuk told Donghae that he just officially dating Kyuhyun.
»»»
"And the kiss that caused us this trouble was not a joke, Hyuk..." Donghae added.
Eunhyuk slowly sat up and Donghae immediately helped him. Eunhyuk sat on his bed while Donghae stood on his knees looking at Eunhyuk's eyes deeply.
"I'm sorry, Hae..." Eunhyuk's eyes started to water. "I hurt you for a long time... I'm sorry... I never knew about it.."
"That's okay." Donghae gave out a gentle smile. Eunhyuk gave a little smile as well. But then his smile gone when Donghae slowly hold his hands tightly, "but hyuk..."
Eunhyuk looked down to their hands and up to Donghae's face.
"Please, be with me. Forget about Kyuhyun and start everything all over again with me." Donghae said seriously to Eunhyuk until Eunhyuk widened his eyes at Donghae's words. Donghae looked at him seriously and deeply as if he's begging for Eunhyuk's pity. Eunhyuk fell all over again at those innocent round eyes. He couldn't utter any words to answer.
"I.. I..."
"Please, Hyuk. I really love you." Donghae hold Eunhyuk's hands tighter and he even leaned closer to Eunhyuk. "I promise. I will never leave you like what Kyuhyun did. I promise you, Hyuk."
Eunhyuk felt a stab in his heart. If he remember about Kyuhyun, it's the most painful of all the things that ever hurt him. It's really unbearable. Eunhyuk just bit his lips and tears fell.
Donghae's hands slowly touched Eunhyuk's soft cheek and his thumb caressed and wiped Eunhyuk's tears, "don't cry. I'm here, Hyuk. I will always be with you. Don't you see? After all this years, before you had a boyfriend, after you had boyfriend, and even until now, I always beside you, right? I love you, Hyuk."
Eunhyuk started to sob. He's too confused. In one side, he loves Donghae too. He knew it. He actually still love him, he just in denial back then. But in another side, he loves Kyuhyun too and he still couldn't get over him. Their lovely memories are really too much and too sweet to forget. He couldn't just forget it that easy.
Eunhyuk felt so greedy.
If only he could have Donghae and Kyuhyun at the same time...
But it's obvious that he couldn't have Kyuhyun anymore. The thought made him cry even more.
"I'm sorry, Donghae... I can't..." Eunhyuk answered between his sobs.
Donghae felt his heart fell to his stomach, "why, Hyuk? Do you still love Kyuhyun?"
"Of course I do!" Eunhyuk snapped at Donghae while sobbing uncontrollably. "Even he doesn't remember me and we're over, I can't immediately go out with you. People will think that I'm a whore! Besides, I can't do it. I can't, Hae... I still love him so much, Hae..." Eunhyuk cried out and tears going out of his eyes like a river.
Donghae sighed heavily and could feel his heart ripped into a million pieces. He loosen up his hold on Eunhyuk's hands and looked down to the floor.
"I'm sorry..." Eunhyuk whispered between his cry.
"But you love me, right?" Donghae suddenly asked. It made Eunhyuk shocked. He couldn't just say yes like that. Donghae would set his hope too high about them.
So Eunhyuk just looked down at his hands and shook his head while crying.
"Don't lie to me." Donghae move closer and cupped Eunhyuk's face with his both hands. "I heard it. I heard it when you were talking with Sungmin."
Eunhyuk looked up and widened his eyes in shock. He heard it?, He thought.
"Yes, I heard it when you said that you actually loved me too." Donghae said to him and Eunhyuk could see hope in Donghae's eyes. "You still love me, right?"
Eunhyuk shook his head and keep crying. His eyes avoided Donghae's eyes, "no, donghae, please-"
"No! Don't say no. I know you still have those feelings! I know! Don't lie, hyuk!" Donghae cupped Eunhyuk's face and he leaned even closer to Eunhyuk while Eunhyuk keep avoiding Donghae's eyes. "If you don't, then you wouldn't kiss me back that day."
Eunhyuk's tears fell even more to remember about the thing that caused him all of the trouble. Donghae's right. He kissed back. He stupidly kissed Donghae back.
"H-hae-"
"Don't say it yet, Hyuk! Please! You still want to be with Kyuhyun. That's why you said you don't love me anymore. You still feel guilty towards him. That's why!" Donghae cut him off. "I beg you..."
Eunhyuk slowly looked up to see Donghae's eyes and he saw sadness and hope there. He felt so bad for Donghae. He's been suffering all this years because he's too stupid. He didn't realize that Donghae loves him and keep hurting him by crying over Kyuhyun.
Maybe he should give Donghae a chance...
Eunhyuk slowly hugged Donghae's neck and he buried his face on his neck.
"Help me then, Hae..."
Donghae widened his eyes at Eunhyuk's words.
"Help me to forget him..."
Donghae felt his chest like exploding because of tons happiness. Eunhyuk gave him a chance. Eunhyuk just agreed to gave him a chance.
Donghae hugged Eunhyuk back so tightly, "of course, Hyuk! Of course! I will help you to forget him!" Donghae said happily. He smiled widely while hugging Eunhyuk's waist tightly.
Eunhyuk pulled away and tried to stop his cry. He wiped his tears on his cheeks and he looked at Donghae with a small smile on his face.
"Thanks, Hae..." He said. "And sorry..."
Donghae sighed in relieve and cupped Eunhyuk's face again, "it's okay. As long as you give me a chance, Hyuk. I'm okay."
Eunhyuk smiled.
Donghae moved closer until their face just an inch away and whispered, "I love you so much, Hyuk." Then Donghae pressed his lips against Eunhyuk's soft lips so gently.
•••
Kyuhyun never understand why since those really painful memories came, he only think about Eunhyuk. He wanted to know where is Eunhyuk, and with who. Suddenly the thought of Eunhyuk spending his time with Donghae made him feel so uneasy. Deep down in his heart, he didn’t want Eunhyuk with Donghae. But he didn’t know why.
It’s not like he didn’t realized and still didn’t accept that actually he and Eunhyuk are in a relationship. But it’s because why he still care about all of those shits when it’s really obvious that Eunhyuk was cheating on him. in the memories that came to him before, Eunhyuk was kissing Donghae when it’s obvious that Kyuhyun was his boyfriend. It means that Eunhyuk was cheating on him, right? Then why the fuck he cares about it? That’s what bothering him now.
Kyuhyun sat up on his bed and ruffled his own hair frustratedly, “what’s wrong with me?!” He snapped to himself.
Not long after that, suddenly his parents and the doctor came. They were smiling widely to Kyuhyun, “Hey, son! How are you, sweety?” His mom asked sweetly. She kissed Kyuhyun’s hair and caressed his white cheek.
“Mmmkay.” Kyuhyun answered lazily.
“Maybe you already bored to be here, right?” The doctor asked with a light chuckled.
“Already? I’m bored since the first time I opened my eyes.” He answered rudely while looking away from the doctor.
“Kyu, why did you talk that way to Dr. Kim?” His dad glared at him and shook his head. “I’m sorry for his rude behavior, Dr. Kim.”
“Gwenchana. I know he’s just boring to be here.” Dr. Kim waved his hand and chuckled, “That’s why Kyuhyun, I’m here to tell you that you can go home starts from tomorrow.” He smiled widely to Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun immediately looked at him with bright smile.
“jinjjayo?!” Kyuhyun asked excitedly.
“Ne! You’re free from this boring hospital.” Dr. Kim answered and gave him a wide smile.
“Owaaaaah! Kamsahamnida, Dr. Kim!” Kyuhyun bowed at him happily. He couldn’t wait to get out of this hospital. He wanted to go to school, or anywhere as long as it’s not the hospital.
i should tell Eun-ehm, Sungmin that I’m coming home tomorrow. I don’t want him to come here and find the room is empty., he thought.
•••
Eunhyuk looked at the blue book sadly. He touched it and feel his heart suddenly hurt like hell. He opened it and saw the pop-up. He smiled sadly and unconsciously tears fell.
He miss Kyuhyun. So much.
He thought that Kyuhyun actually didn’t really in love with him back then. Maybe during his relationship with Kyuhyun, Sungmin was the only person that Kyuhyun really love. Sungmin was the one Kyuhyun really wanted to spend his time with. Maybe It’s always Sungmin. Not him.
Tears started to fall again when he thinks that he’s so stupid. He made the book with all his heart, but it turned out to be nothing for Kyuhyun. It’s just a shit.
Eunhyuk chuckled sadly. He just found out that he’s really pathetic. He’s stupid bitch who just found his life was really pathetic. he thought that maybe it’s a punishment for playing with love. because he loves two person at a time, maybe this is the punishment.
Eunhyuk kissed the book and hugged it. He really miss Kyuhyun’s smile and his jealousy. Now he couldn’t see it all again. Kyuhyun hates him, and they’re over.
“Hyuk…”
Donghae called slowly from behind him. Eunhyuk immediately wiped his tears and put the book on the bedside table again. Donghae approached him and sat beside him on the bed.
“You still crying over him…” Donghae said sadly.
“I’m sorry. I promise I’ll stop next week.” Eunhyuk answered in a low voice and he wiped his tears with his hands.
Donghae hold Eunhyuk’s wrist and stopped him from wiping the tears. But then he replaced it with his own hands. He wiped Eunhyuk’s tears with his thumb gently. Eunhyuk’s heart felt warm because of the touch. Eunhyuk locked his eyes on Donghae’s eyes. Donghae could see Eunhyuk’s eyes are wet by tears. His heart was so hurt to see it. Then suddenly he moved closer and kissed Eunhyuk’s eyes. Eunhyuk closed his eyes and let Donghae kissed his eyes.
When Donghae pulled away, Donghae cupped his face with his both hands, “Eunhyuk… it’s okay to cry. you can cry on my shoulder.”
Eunhyuk lose his breath at Donghae’s words. He felt so happy and calm to have someone like Donghae. He’s been hurting him for a long time, but Donghae still willing to hear his cry and even lend his shoulder. suddenly, Eunhyuk’s sadness were gone and replaced with warmth. He felt so calm by Donghae’s presence. So instead of crying, Eunhyuk leaned his head on Donghae’s chest and closed his eyes enjoying Donghae’s heartbeat. His hands sneaked around Donghae’s waist and hugged it tightly.
“Thank You, Donghae.”
Donghae hugged him back and stroked Eunhyuk’s hair, “You’re welcome.”
•••
Eunhyuk was ready for school and he looked at his reflection on the mirror. He promised himself to forget about Kyuhyun. Whatever happened, those were just a sweet memories that he should forget. Now he should make a new one. There's Donghae who always want to help him to make a new one.
Eunhyuk smiled at that thought.
Eunhyuk grabbed his bag and put it on his shoulder. Then he coincidentally saw the blue book. He promised himself not to cry over it anymore, so he dare himself to grab it and put it inside his bag. He's going to sent it away.
Then he walked to his front door to leave the house. But he's surprised when he opened the door, he saw Donghae just got down of his motorcycle.
"W-what are you doing here?" Eunhyuk asked.
Donghae looked at Eunhyuk and smiled, "hey, morning." He said cheerfully. "I come to pick you up."
Eunhyuk frowned in confused, "why? I can go to school by myself." Eunhyuk answered.
"Eeeey~ don't you remember that we used to go to school together before you're with Kyuhyun?" Eunhyuk flinched and bite his lips for a second then looked away when he heard Donghae mentioned Kyuhyun's name. It didn't went unnoticed by donghae. "Sorry..." Donghae said when he saw Eunhyuk's reaction to Kyuhyun's name.
Then Eunhyuk walked to Donghae and his motorcycle, "oke, let's go."
Donghae smiled and immediately climbed to his motorcycle again, and Eunhyuk followed him.
Donghae started to drove his motorcycle away from Eunhyuk's house.
Eunhyuk started to think about the book. He knows that whenever he go to school, he will always pass Kyuhyun's house. He bite his lips in doubt, before finally say to donghae, "can we stop at kyuhyun's house for a minute?" He asked.
Donghae slower his motorcycle immediately, "what?"
"Please stop at Kyu's house for a minute. I need to do something." Eunhyuk said sadly.
Donghae sighed and didn't had any choice. He drove his motorcycle fastly again until finally they reached Kyuhyun's house.
Eunhyuk climbed down of the motorcycle and looked at the house with eyes full of longing, "wait here, okay?" Then he turned around.
But Donghae caught his wrist immediately. Eunhyuk startled a little bit then he turned around to look at Donghae. Donghae was looking at him sadly and he could tell that Donghae was afraid. Maybe afraid of Eunhyuk leaving him for kyuhyun again.
"Just a minute, hae." Eunhyuk said convincing him that Donghae didn't need to worry.
Slowly Donghae let Eunhyuk's wrist go. Eunhyuk turned around and walked to Kyuhyun's door house.
He knocked the door once. He felt his heart beats faster and he couldn't help himself but remember about the memories he and kyuhyun had in this house. He hold himself no to cry.
He knocked again for the second time, until not long after that the door was opened revealing Kyuhyun's mom.
"Ah! Eunhyuk-ah!" Mrs. Cho looked surprised because the early visit.
"Good morning, Mrs. Cho." Eunhyuk bowed politely to Mrs Cho and smiled.
"Aigoo~ why so formal?" Mrs. Cho hit Eunhyuk's arms lightly while chuckling.
Eunhyuk smiled and chuckled. Kyuhyun's mom always love him and so welcome to him. Kyuhyun even feel jealous because it seems like his mom love Eunhyuk more than his own son.
"What's up, Eunhyuk-ah?" Mrs. Cho asked lovingly.
Eunhyuk opened his bag and put the blue book out. He gave it to Kyuhyun's mom and Kyuhyun's mom looked confuse.
"Can you please give it to Kyuhyun? Emmm... Anni. Can you just please put it into Kyuhyun's bookshelf? Maybe he didn't want to see it but I just can't throw it away to trashcan..." Eunhyuk smiled sadly and Mrs. Cho's smile immediately faded away. "If he found it and want to throw it, it's okay."
Mrs. Cho sighed heavily and looked at the blue book sadly. Then she looked at Eunhyuk and pulled Eunhyuk into her hug. She patted Eunhyuk's back lovingly and hugged him tightly.
"I'm so sorry, Eunhyuk-ah..." Mrs. Cho said to him.
Eunhyuk bite his lips to hold his tears fell out of his eyes. He just smiled and chuckled sadly.
"Just wait a little longer, Eunhyuk-ah.." Mrs. Cho said again and Eunhyuk just chuckled bitterly once again.
Eunhyuk pulled away and smiled, "we broke up, Mrs Cho."
Kyuhyun's mother gasped in surprised, "What?!"
Eunhyuk nodded, "yeah. I'm sorry.."
Mrs. Cho looked so sad and she caressed Eunhyuk's cheek with her right hands while her other's hands holding the book.
"I'm so sorry... It really makes me sad, you know? I would really happy to have a son in law like you, Hyuk-ah.." She said sadly and Eunhyuk just smiled while he touched Kyuhyun's mom's hands. He hold it tightly and pushed it away from his cheeks slowly.
"Thanks, Mrs. Cho. I would really happy to have a mother like you. But... Kyuhyun didn't feel the same anymore." Eunhyuk tightened his hold at Kyuhyun's mom's hands. "It's okay..."
Mrs. Cho just looking at him sadly and sighed heavily.
"Just help me to put it on Kyu's bookshelf, okay?" Eunhyuk smiled. "Maybe this is the last time I asked you for help."
"Aigoo, Eunhyuk-ah. You make me sad!" Mrs. Cho started to cry and Eunhyuk shocked to see the tears fell out of Mrs. Cho's eyes.
"Uljima, Mrs. Cho. It's okay." Eunhyuk hugged Mrs. Cho tightly and he himself tried so hard not to cry. "It's okay..."
Eunhyuk pulled away and smiled, "I have to go, Mrs. Cho. My friend is waiting." Eunhyuk said while pointed at Donghae behind him with his thumb.
"Don't you want to see Kyuhyun?" She asked suddenly.
Eunhyuk froze.
"K-kyuhyun?" Eunhyuk asked in surprised. "Is he home already?"
Mrs. Cho nodded.
Eunhyuk felt his heart beats even faster. He really want to run inside the house and run to Kyuhyun's room. He wants to hug and kiss him. He misses him so much. But he knows. Kyuhyun won't like it. So he just smiled sadly again and again before shook his head.
"Thanks, Mrs. Cho. I don't want to disturb his rest." Eunhyuk said with a bitter smile. "Besides, I have school."
Mrs. Cho nodded, "okay. Take care, Eunhyuk-ah..."
Eunhyuk bowed again, "goodbye, Mrs. Cho. Hope we can meet again soon." He smiled.
Mrs Cho smiled sadly, "of course, Eunhyuk-ah. Bye."
Then Eunhyuk turned around and walked to Donghae's motorcycle. He gets on the motorcycle and Donghae drove away from Kyuhyun's house.
He's driving with absurd feeling because he just witnessed something that really make him jealous. Eunhyuk was so close with Kyuhyun's mom. He's afraid.
Then suddenly a pair of arms wrapped around his waist, and he could feel Eunhyuk was leaning his head on Donghae's back. Donghae froze in the beginning before he finally realized that Eunhyuk was crying again.
He must be crying again.
•••