Trust

Feb 11, 2011 21:55

Title : Trust
Length : 1/? (I hope it's not longer than 3 parts)
Genre : Angst, Romance
Rating : NC-17 (just for save)
Pairing : HyukHae
Disclaimer : I just own this fail fic kekekeke~
Summary : Donghae is a poor guy who has been suffer in his life then he meet his stalker Lee Hyukjae.
Warning : Grammar fail of course ><

Donghae keep walking with his hands in his pocket. He's walking to his home from his work. He's tired like hell. Being a bartender is not easy and it's so tiring. Not to mention there's a lot of gay man that wanting to touch him. He almost give up and quit his job if he didn't remember that he really need that job so he can feed himself and his mom. He still do the job.

He keep walking while actually he can't stop glancing behind him. He takes a deep breath and sighed. He feels that it's enough. He can't take it anymore.

He stopped his track and turned around. that person suddenly stopped his track too. He looked shocked because he obviously got caught.

"Can you stop following me?" Donghae asked angrily to the boy that had been following him these past 2 days. "I'm not a bitch if that's what you think."

"I-i know..." The boy said innocently. He staring at Donghae with a little bit afraid of Donghae's anger.

"So why do you keep following me?" Donghae asked again. He really annoyed by this boy. If he thought that Donghae didn't realize about it then he stupid.

"I like you." The boy said simply.

Donghae widened his eyes, shocked for a split second but then he laughed. "Sorry, but I'm not a goddamn gay." He said and turned around to continue his track.

But the boy keep following him and he even run to Donghae's side to catch his step and walk together side by side."I'm Hyukjae. What's your name?"

Donghae sighed, "mine is 'none-of-your-business'." He said while keep walking casually. He didn't even glance at Hyukjae. He keep staring at his path in front of him.

"Wow that's too long." Hyukjae said as if he surprised. Well, in fact he didn't. "That's too difficult. What if I call you Donghae?" He asked with a big smile.

Donghae shocked and he turned his gaze to Hyukjae. He stopped his track and staring at him in disbelief.

Hyukjae smirked and show his gummy smile again to the brunette, "why? Don't say it's your real name.." Hyukjae said with a little laugh. "I just randomly choose it."

Donghae rolled his eyes and laughed sarcastically, "haha right." He said. "stalker."

Then he walked again and Hyukjae following him. Donghae really has no idea how to get rid off this boy that came out of nowhere. So he let him be. That's what he did for these past 2 days, right? Let him stalked him.

"So, Donghae. Would you go out with me?" Hyukjae asked all of sudden and full of confident.

Donghae rolled his eyes again. He can't believe that there's stupid person like this boy in this world. He's stranger. What makes him think that I'll agree to go out with him just like that?, Donghae thought.

"I told you, I'm not a bitch." Donghae answered simply without looking at Hyukjae.

"Of course you're not." Hyukjae said while shrugged his shoulder. "So would you go out with me?"

"And I told you I'm not a gay." Donghae answered again.

Hyukjae shrugged his shoulder again, "it doesn't matter." Hyukjae said simply without expression. "So would you go out w-"

"It means NO, you freakin' dumb faggot! How could you didn't understand?! Or you just pretending like you don't understand?" Donghae snapped at him and he emphasized the 'NO' part. He glaring at Hyukjae annoyingly. He can't take it anymore. This boy is testing his patience.

Hyukjae himself feels neither shocked nor afraid. He didn't even feel hurt by the rejection. He just smiled and suddenly chuckled.

"I didn't pretending. I was hoping that you'll change your mind and say yes." He chuckled. He keep walking while his eyes locked to the asphalt.

"Then keep on hoping for the rest of your life." Donghae said rudely. He stopped his track again and looking at Hyukjae that followed him to stop his track too.

Hyukjae looked up to see Donghae's face. He looked so annoyed by Hyukjae's presence and he looked so fierce but handsome.

"Now stop following me!" Donghae shouted at Hyukjae and suddenly he run away as fast as he can so Hyukjae can't follow him anymore.

Hyukjae just stand there watching Donghae running away.

You'll say yes someday..

•••

Donghae slammed his door's house closed. He panting so hard because he ran to his home. He slid down against the door and he clutched the shirt tightly. He can't breath. He feels his heart really weak for this kind of thing. fvck, I'm such a weak person!, Donghae thought.

He still panting and haven't success yet to breath properly when his mom came and glaring at him.

"Where have you been?!" She shouted at Donghae angrily.

Donghae looked up at her while still panting and looked down again like he doesn't care about her.

"Answer me!" She yelled.

"Work, of course. You need to ask?" Donghae said. He was annoyed by his mom question. He asked that question like everyday and Donghae started to tired to answer it because the answer will always be the same and his mom knows it.

"What is your job, Lee Donghae?" Asked her.

"You don't need to know." Donghae answered casually.

His mother became really angry and he slapped Donghae's face so hard. Donghae shocked to death because of the slap.

"What was that for?!" Donghae shouted at his mom. He stood up and glaring at his mother.

"I won't forgive you, Donghae. I won't forgive you. You killed your dad!" His mother pointed his forefinger right in front of his eyes and she looked really mad at him. Well, it's such an usual sight for Donghae though, but he just can't help but feel a squeeze in his heart.

His mother turned around and leave him there. He walked towards his room and immediately throw his body to his bed. He's laying on his stomach with his palm still covering his cheek.

Then finally he's crying. He's crying so hard but he tried so hard to cry without a sound. He's afraid that his mother will hear it. He covered his mouth while he's crying.

•••

He's wiping the bar when suddenly a man sit there. He immediately looked up and ready to serve him, "what can I get for-"

There is Hyukjae grinning ear to ear at him. Donghae rolled his eyes and walk away to continue wiping the glass and bottle.

"Hei! I'm a customer! I need a drink and you need m0ney, right?" Hyukjae shouted at Donghae and Donghae couldn't feel more annoyed. He's right. He needs m0ney.

So he walk back to Hyukjae, "what can I get for you, sir?" He asked.

"Emmmm... Get me a red wine." He said. Then Donghae immediately move to get what Hyukjae wants when Hyukjae called him again. "No no!"

Donghae turned around and looked so annoyed. He raised an eyebrow at Hyukjae.

"‎hemmm, tequilla please. Yes, tequilla." Hyukjae said after thinking for a while.

Donghae turned around and walk again to get the tequilla. But, being such a jerk Hyukjae is, he called again.

"Hei, no! I changed my mind!" He shouted. Donghae clenched his fist and he hold his desire to punch this boy. He turned around again, glaring at Hyukjae. "Just beer. Oke?"

"You changed your mind again, I swear I'll kill you." Donghae threated him.

Hyukjae giggled, "you're so cute even when you're mad!" He giggled like a 5 year old kid and it even make Donghae more angry.

Donghae turned around and takes a deep breath. Patient has its rewards..., Donghae rubbed his chest and go to take the beer.

Then he bring it to Hyukjae and his friend's table. He put it on the table while Hyukjae and his friends keep laughing and whispering to each other. Donghae so relieved that they didn't even bother him.

But he's wrong. When he about to leave their table, someone grabbed his wrist. He turned around and looked who it is. Donghae glared at the hand's owner. Of course it's Hyukjae.

"See, guys? Isn't he really cute? He's glaring at me but he's still cute." Hyukjae said to his friends causing them laughing like mad.

"You right!" One of his friends said.

"Cute exactly!" The other said.

"And hot!"

By that, Donghae widened his eyes and know what it is going to. He freed his wrist from Hyukjae's hand and walk away immediately. Donghae can hear them laugh louder than before.

Fucking bastard..., Donghae thought with full of anger.

He goes back to the kitchen and there's some his friends. He leaning against the table and sighed heavily.

"What's wrong?" Eeteuk asked to him.

"Some bastards, hyung." Donghae answered lazily. He ruffled his hair frustratedly, "you know what hyung? One of them has been following me these days."

Eeteuk widened his eyes, "what?! Seriously?!"

"Yes! It's scary!" Donghae shouted at his hyung.

"Donghae-ah, you should be carefull oke?" Eeteuk patted his back and talk to him seriously.

Donghae nodded and sighed again.

•••

Donghae walking towards his home in the dark alley. He walking lazily and really slowly. He doesn't want to be home yet. He doesn't want to meet his mom. She'll slap him again for sure. He hopes that his mom will be asleep when he reached home.

"Donghae!" Someone called him and run to him.

Donghae didn't even bother to turn around or stop his track. He knows that it's Hyukjae. Again and again.

"Yah, Donghae! It's dangerous for walking alone like this. You're too cute for your own good! What if someone kidnap you?" Hyukjae said anxiously, he walk side by side with Donghae. But his words fall on deaf ears. Donghae didn't even care with Hyukjae's presence.

Hyukjae sighed, "why you didn't want to talk to me? I'm not a bad guy. I just want to know you." Hyukjae said sounds like begging him to at least look at him.

"I don't talk with stranger." Donghae said simply. He keep walking and not even take a glance at Hyukjae.

"We know each other now! We're not stranger anymore, right?" Hyukjae said excitedly.

"I don't know you." Donghae said.

"Yah! Yesterday I told you, I'm Hyukjae. It means you know me already." Hyukjae looked annoyed and he sighed heavily in frustration.

Donghae stopped his track and turned his body to facing Hyukjae, "stop following me. I'm not interested with you." Hyukjae frowned and pouted his lips at Donghae's words.

"So rude." Hyukjae said faking a sadness causing Donghae rolled his eyes.

Donghae continue to walking again and Hyukjae keep following him.

"At least let me know about your house, oke?" Hyukjae gave his gummy smile and Donghae just sighed at Hyukjae stubborn.

"I don't have anything. My house is small and there's nothing precious." Donghae said explained about his home and indirectly tell Hyukjae that he's a poor.

"Yah! I want to know your house so I can visit you. I don't want to rob your house, you know?" Hyukjae pouted.

"I don't want you to visit me." Donghae said arrogantly. Hyukjae widened his eyes for a second and sighed.

"I just really want to know you..." He looking down on his feet and he looked so sad.

Donghae feels a little bit guilty for said something rude. He looked at Hyukjae and it seems like Hyukjae really hurt by Donghae's words.

Donghae sighed again, "you can always find me at the bar. No need to come to my house." Hyukjae raised his head and looked extremely happy because of it. Because it means like Donghae allowed him to meet him.

Donghae slapped his forehead. What did he just say? It's a doom for himself.

Hyukjae staring at him with a big smile and suddenly it changed. He smirked. "Guess you'll meet me everyday at the bar from now on." Hyukjae said while he smirked at Donghae.

"Aish. I said the wrong thing." Donghae kicked an air. He turned his gaze to Hyukjae in disbelief. "How could someone be so annoying like you? Now leave me!" Donghae said frustratedly.

"Is your home still far from here?" Hyukjae asked seriously.

Donghae stopped his track again and glare at Hyukjae, "Yes! Go to your home! My house still very far from here!" Donghae answered fiercely. Donghae thought that if he told Hyukjae about how far Donghae's house is, maybe he'll give up and leave him. He must be tired to follow Donghae until he arrive at his house.

No, but Donghae is wrong.

"Well, I'll walk you to your home. It's really late, so dangerous if you walk alone." Hyukjae said simply.

Donghae dropped his jaw and staring at Hyukjae in disbelief. He rolled his eyes, stomped his feet and continue to walk. He keep stomping his feet while walking, just like an angry 5 year old kid. Hyukjae laughed at Donghae's cuteness.

•••

Then everything happened like he already predicted. Hyukjae will always be at the bar talking to him. He always ask Donghae to have a date with him. That's his purpose since the beginning, going out with Donghae. But Donghae will never accept it. He got his own reason to keep reject the other's offer even sometimes, he feels like he'd love to spend the time with the red head.

"I say NO, Lee Hyukjae! I'm freakin' tired to say this! Just go to your little group there, and ask help from them to find you a girl for your date! For God's sake Hyukjae! Don't you hear I say I'm a guy?!" Donghae keep babbling his words annoyedly while his hands keep wiping the bar and stuff.

Hyukjae stomped his feet like a kid, "so whaaaaat?! I know you're a guy! But I like you, Haeeee~"

"Stop calling me 'Hae'!" Donghae looked up to see Hyukjae's face and he's glaring at him now.

Hyukjae pouted. He's so handsome and cute. Donghae almost fall at his cuteness. But he immediately shrugged it off.

"I don't care! Just leave me alone!" Donghae said again.

"I. WON'T! " Hyukjae emphasized every words he said. He smirked at Donghae and then he leave Donghae. He walked towards his friend's table.

Donghae just shook his head in disbelief. He never meet someone as stubborn as him. He's annoying.

When finally his shift was done, Donghae changed his uniform and picked up his bag and slung it on his shoulder. Then after he said goodbye to the other staff, he left the club.

He walked alone at the alley. He feels a little bit disappointed because Hyukjae was already went home. He usually accompany him to go home and walk down this alley, but not today. He pouted at the thought.

"Hey, there sexy..." Someone called him from behind him in a husky voice.

Donghae chuckled, thought it was Hyukjae. But he's wrong because when he turned around, there's no Hyukjae. There's just a man with a big body, and he's really tall. He has a big muscle. He's walking towards him.

Donghae stepped backward everytime the big man got closer. He can't see the other's face because it was so dark. He doesn't know who the man is.

"Don't step back, sexy..." He said again with a chuckle.

Donghae scared. He never be this scared. Maybe he should run?

When the man finally got closer, the street lamp's light make the big man's face clear. Donghae can see the face of him and he widened his eyes in shock when he knows the face.

"Y-young Jae..." Donghae keep stepping backward.

Young Jae smirked, "you remember me? Awww, that's so sweet, Hae." He said faking a cuteness.

Donghae's heart beating faster. There's no one beside the two of them in this alley. If he do something bad, there's no one will help him. Run... I should run...

Without thinking twice, Donghae turned around and run as fast as he can. Young Jae run too and chasing after him.

For Donghae's bad luck, Young Jae is faster. He catch Donghae's bag and pulled it. it makes Donghae fall on his butt. Donghae looked at the big man in horror. He move backward when Young Jae keep moving closer to him.

"Where are you going, Hae? I want to have some fun with you..." Young Jae said and it made Donghae shivered. He knows what the other talking about.

"No... Please let me go..." Donghae keep moving backward. He knows if he stand up and run, it's useless. But if he didn't do anything, he'll die.

For his horror, Donghae realized that it's a wall behind him. He trapped between Young Jae and the wall. He can't move backward anymore when Young Jae move closer.

Young Jae smirked. He crouched down in front of Donghae and touch Donghae's cheek. Donghae just trembling in his position, scared like hell.

"You're still sexy, Donghae. You're still hot. You're skin still smooth..." He caressed Donghae's cheek with his thumb. Donghae's praying that this guy will do nothing to him. He didn't know what to do. He's scared to death.

"I'm wondering..." Young Jae said in a low voice. Then he smirked evily and leaned closer to Donghae. Donghae stiffened. Then Young Jae whispered in front of his ear with a husky voice, "if you still as tight as before, Donghae~"

Donghae widened his eyes in shock. "Get off!!!" Donghae screamed in horror and he pushed Young Jae's body as hard as he can. But Young Jae is way much stronger than him. Young Jae catch Donghae's body and lift him up. He put Donghae's body on his shoulder. "Let me gooooo!!! Let me go!! Please let me go!!!" Donghae keep shaking his feet and his hands try to punch Young Jae's back. He keep struggling on Young Jae's shoulder. But Young Jae is incredibly stronger, because Donghae's effort is a vain.

Young Jae stopped in the corner of the alley where there's no light at all. He put down Donghae's struggling body and he sit on top of him. Donghae trapped helplessly between his leg.

"Get off of meeee!! Let me goooo!!" Donghae keep struggling. He punching Young Jae's chest with his tiny hands. He's crying so hard. He's screaming and begging Young Jae to stop but it falls on deaf ears.

Young Jae started to unbutton Donghae's shirt and when it's done he smirked. He smiled widely to see Donghae's bare chest and the twin nipples that asking to be sucked.

Donghae cry harder if it's possible. He keep struggling and punching Young Jae's body. Young Jae catch his both hands and pinned it above Donghae's head.

"Shut up, good boy~ it'll feel good, remember?" Young Jae said in front of Donghae's ear and he licked Donghae's earlobe sensually.

Donghae just crying and crying because he can't do anything. "Please let me goooo~" he keep struggling, his feet kicked up and down but it's such a waste.

Young Jae take off Donghae's belt and use it to tie Donghae's hands on his back. When he done, he laughed happily.

"I miss you so much, Lee Donghae~" Young Jae whispered in front of Donghae's ear while his hands caressing Donghae's chest. Rubbing Donghae's nipple over and over again.

"Nooo... Please..." Donghae keep crying. He tried to free his hands, but it's failed.

Young Jae kiss Donghae's nipple and licks it sensually. He licks and sucks his nipple over and over again. He didn't even care Donghae's plead to stop.

Young Jae kissing and sucking Donghae's neck, he's marking him. He keep biting and kissing Donghae's neck while his hands started to undo Donghae's jeans.

"NO!!! Please!!!" Donghae struggled again. He rocking his feet randomly. But it's a waste. Young Jae unzipped his jeans easily and take off Donghae's jeans and boxer in one movement.

Young Jae grinning ear to ear when he saw Donghae's big member. Donghae crying, sprawled helplessly.

Young Jae placed his face between Donghae's leg. He smiled to see Donghae's member in front of him. He touched it and kiss it. He enjoying smelling and kissing it like Donghae's member is his old friend that he really missed.

Donghae stiffened because of the touch. It gave him goosebumps. He cry harder, "No... Please... Nooo..."

Young Jae didn't even bother to hear what Donghae said. He keep kissing and brushing his lips on Donghae's length. Then he put Donghae's member inside his mouth and he sucking it.

"Noo-aaahh! Mmmgghh... P-please..." Donghae moan because a sudden warm that engulfed his length. He's crying even harder. "HEEEELLLP! Somebody h-help..." He closed his eyes, crying and feel helpless. He really wished there's someone will help him.

Young Jae was bobbing his head up and down sucking Donghae's length when suddenly there's someone screamed at him.

"Yah, you bastard!!!"

Young Jae was being pulled harshly and Donghae can feel Young Jae's mouth left his member. He opened his eyes and saw Young Jae being punched by someone.

There's a man keep punching and kicking Young Jae's body harshly until Young Jae laying on the street helplessly. He sprawled on the street, choking and he vomiting blood.

Donghae still laying helplessly on the street, crying. Then suddenly the man approached him and tried to touch him.

Donghae curled into a ball and screamed, "NO!! Don't touch me! Please! Don't hurt meeee!" He's crying so hard.

"Donghae! Donghae! It's me, Hae! It's me. Hyukjae!" The man said.

Then Donghae looked up to see his face, and he lower his cry when he saw the red-head's face.

of all people... Why him... He saw me like this..., Donghae thought.

"Let's go, Donghae. Before that bastard wake up." Hyukjae said. He take Donghae's jeans and boxer on the street and put it into Donghae's bag. Then he carry Donghae's body bridal style, and he walked as fast as he can towards his car.

He placed Donghae's body in passenger seat. He can see Donghae's still in shock, he still crying. He cover his member with his long shirt and his hands.

"You fix yourself. I'll wait outside." Hyukjae said before he shut the door closed.

Then Donghae immediately take out his boxer and his jeans from his bag and wear it again. He buttoned up his shirt while he still sobbing.

Then he knocked the window, telling Hyukjae that he finished.

Hyukjae get into his car. He's looking at Donghae who still sobbing. "I'm really sorry... I should be there.. I should accompany you to go home..." Hyukjae said sadly. He feels so guilty.

Donghae didn't say anything. He only keep sobbing.

"I'll take you home, okay?" Hyukjae said and he's going to drive his car to Donghae's home when Donghae finally spoke up.

"N-no... P-please... I-i have t-to calm myself f-first..." Donghae said between his sob. "I-i don't w-want my mom to w-worry..."

Hyukjae sighed. "Oke. We'll go to the park near the club, is it oke?" Hyukjae asked.

Donghae nodded.

•••

Donghae and Hyukjae sit together on the park bench. Donghae keep crying and sobbing while he palms his face. He's too shock with what just happened.

Hyukjae sighed heavily. He put his elbow on his knees and he palms his face too. He looked so feeling guilty with what happened to Donghae. He's late to pick Donghae up from the club.

Hyukjae looked up to Donghae who still crying loudly, "Donghae, from now on, you are not allowed to go home by yourself. Especially walk down that alley alone! You hear me?! You'll go home with me, with my car! Or I'll walk you home. If I'm not able to take you home, you'll take taxi to go home. Oke?" Hyukjae said almost shout at Donghae. He sounds like a father that scolding his daughter.

Donghae looked up to Hyukjae and yell, "Who are you?! You're not my father! You're not my guardian! Don't tell me to do something! You are not-"

"Can you please at least appreciate my effort to keep you safe?!!!" Hyukjae yelled at Donghae, cut Donghae's words. "I just saved your ass!"

Donghae burst out into tears again and palms his face again. He's shocked that Hyukjae just yelled at him. He's scared.

"Donghae, I'm sorry. I didn't meant to yell at you..." Hyukjae said in a low voice. "I'm just really worry. I'm so panic like hell when you pinned down under that bastard legs and being molested-oh my God I'm so scared, Donghae..." Hyukjae covered his face again and sighed heavily. He can't imagine if those things happen again to Donghae.

Donghae wiped his tears and looked at Hyukjae, "I'm s-sorry..." He said between his cry. "...and thank you. I was so scared, Hyukjae. I-i was so s-scared..." Donghae said while trying to stop his tears.

Hyukjae looked up and found that beautiful face damp because of tears, and those eyes showing fear. Hyukjae furrowed his eyebrow at the sight and feeling so sad to see Donghae like this. Donghae is afraid.

He couldn't help but move closer and pull Donghae into his hug. Then Donghae burst out into tears again in his hug. He's crying so loud and looked like he can't even stop crying. He clutched Eunhyuk's shirt tightly, and crying. Eunhyuk rubbed Donghae's hair slowly while whispering some soothing words.

After one and half hours crying, Donghae finally stopped crying. He looked more calm, even his sobs still can be heard a little bit. He leaned his head on Hyukjae's chest and bite his lips try to stop his sobs. Hyukjae just rubbing his hair slowly try to soothe him.

"Hyukjae..."

Hyukjae looked down at Donghae's face, "hmmm?"

"Thank you." Donghae said in a low voice.

Hyukjae smile a little at those words. He tightened his hug and rests his chin on top of Donghae's head. "You're welcome." Hyukjae said.

"I was so scared..." Donghae's tears fall again even without a sound of sobs from him. He quickly wiped it.

"It's okay, Hae. You're safe here. Don't worry, oke?" Hyukjae said while rubbing Donghae's back slowly.

"I can't... I can't i-imagine if you didn't came..." Donghae started to sob again because of the thought. The memory of his past flashing on his mind and it made him goosebumps.

Hyukjae lifted up Donghae's chin with his finger and Donghae looked at Hyukjae's eyes. His eyes is full of fear.

"I'm here. You'll be okay. Can you trust me?" Hyukjae said with a calm tone. He looked at Donghae's eyes seriously and Donghae trapped on those beautiful eyes. He can't looked away anymore.

Then he nodded.

Hyukjae show his gummy smile, "thanks, Hae." He said.

"I'm sorry, Hyukjae." Donghae looked down. "I always treat you bad..."

Hyukjae chuckled, "now please treat me nicely, okay?" Hyukjae ruffled Donghae's hair like Donghae is 5 year old cute kid.

Donghae nodded and leaned his head on Hyukjae's chest again. His both arms wrapped around Hyukjae's waist.

"I never trust anybody, Hyukjae..." Donghae said all of sudden.

Hyukjae raised his eyebrow in confuse, "wae?"

"I always betrayed by the one I trusted." Hyukjae sighed. He feels bad for Donghae. "Isn't it really hurt?" Donghae said then bite his lips. He feels pain all over his body when he remember about his past.

Hyukjae didn't know what to say. He feels bad for Donghae. He just rubbed Donghae's back to keep him calm.

Donghae chuckled, "it is really hurt, Hyukjae. That's why I treated you bad earlier. I don't trust anybody."

Hyukjae tightened his hug on Donghae. He feels so sad to hear Donghae telling him his sad story like this. Like he was really suffering in his life.

"But you can trust me, Hae..." Hyukjae said in a low voice.

Donghae smile. "Yes, I will only trust you, Hyukjae. From now on." He said simply. "Ummm... Can you promise me you won't betray me like what they did, Hyukjae?" Donghae looked up to see Hyukjae's face. He looked at him with his puppy eyes and it made Hyukjae melted.

"I promise you."

•••

Hyukjae's car stopped in front of the small house. Hyukjae looked at the house and looked back at Donghae.

Donghae smiled, "this is my house. I know it seems like a bird cage, right?" Donghae chuckled.

"It's not that bad, Hae." Hyukjae said honestly. His house is not that bad though.

Suddenly, a sound of thunder cut their conversation. They looked up to the sky and the sky is really dark. Donghae bite his lips and Hyukjae can see that Donghae actually scared.

"What's wrong?" Hyukjae asked.

"I don't like rain. Not to mention, it seems like there will be a storm. I'm afraid of thunder. They'll cut the electricity and I'm afraid of the dark." Donghae pouted his lips and looked down at his laps.

"But there's your mom, right? You're not alone." Hyukjae said try to make Donghae calm and not afraid anymore.

Donghae let out a small chuckled, "my mom hates me, for your info."

Hyukjae widened his eyes, "what?"

Donghae laughed again. He shrugged his shoulder, "you'll know more about my life soon. But promise me you won't cry." Donghae looking at Hyukjae and smile.

Hyukjae frowned, "what?" He asked in confuse.

"Goodnight, Hyukjae." Donghae said and get out of the car.

He immediately walk into his house without looking back again. He walked straight to his room. He laying his body on his bed and staring at the ceiling.

He curled into a ball. Tears started to form on the corner of his eyes. He still scared of what happened earlier.

Young Jae is free... God please keep me safe..., Donghae thought while tears started to fall.

Suddenly there's a voice of thunder and it's so loud. Donghae flinched because of it. He shocked. He's scared of thunder. Then rain started to fall down. It's raining hard out there, and thunder keep breaking the silence. Donghae covered his ear with his pillow and he's crying harder. He's totally scared of thunder.

For his horror, like what he predicted, suddenly the lights is off. The electricity was cut off. Everything is so dark and Donghae can't see anything.

Dark, thunder. It's enough to scared Donghae.

He's trembling and shaking. He's sobbing and tears can't stop falling. He remember, his mom used to sleep with him when a storm and blackout like this. But now? It's impossible. Now he's alone.

He tried to assure himself that he's okay. There's his mom sleeping at the next room, he's not alone. But he can't calm. He still scared. He needs someone to embrace him and calm him, or he needs to hug someone to make him sure that he's not alone. He needs his mom.

Then he stood up and walked carefully to his mom's room. He opened his mom's room and walked towards the bed. He can see a little bit his mom's back facing him. He lay his body behind his mom and he sneaked his hands around his mom's waist. He hugged her from behind.

"M-mom... I-i know you hate me..." Donghae said in a low voice. "B-but I'm scared... I can't sleep alone, m-mom... I'm scared..." He said while keep sobbing. He buried his face on his mom's back like a 5 year old kid.

His mom didn't say anything. Probably she's already asleep for real.

"Let me s-sleep with y-you tonight, mom... I'm scared..." Donghae tightened his hug and move closer. He knows that his mom sleeping and won't hear anything he said. But he really miss talking to his mom. "Mom... I... I miss y-you... When will you love me again... When will y-you hug and calm me again when a storm come like this... I miss you..." Donghae whispered in a very low voice. He's crying without a sound. He didn't want to disturb his mom's sleep.

Suddenly Donghae chuckled at his stupidity, "stupid... You'll never love me again, right?" He chuckled even his tears falling. "You... You hate me... So much..." Donghae said sadly and started to sob again. "It's okay mom... As long as I know that you always near me. Live with me. Just... Don't leave me, mom..." He added. His tears never stop falling. His mom's back and pillow is wet because of the tears. "I'm scared..."

Donghae keep crying and sobbing. He tried so hard not to make any sound. He can't breath, it's so hard to breath.

"I love you, mom. Sleep well..." Donghae said. He move a little bit closer and kissed his mom's forehead. Then he buried his face on his mom's back again and try to sleep.

It's easy to sleep when he knows that he's hugging his mom. He feels save. Even it feels so fake at the same time.

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eunhae, fanfiction

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