thanksgiving
quick post from work:
thanksgiving this year wasn't as warm, fuzzy, and happy family-ish as previous years, but it also wasn't as drama-filled as christmas usually is - so overall, it was good. i went to my grandparents' house wednesday night, and was immediately involved in helping out with my grandmother. like i mentioned before, things aren't really going well; she's extremely weak, can't walk, hallucinates, and won't eat. i was glad that i could help out, but it make me really depressed at the same time. mom is living up there now, and her life is consumed with working and taking care of her. it seems unfair to me that she has to put her life on hold when nobody else in our family is willing to do the same - but, i know that mom wanted to do this. i've been feeling guilty about this myself, even though i know mom would kill me if i tried to take time off to go up and help her. so, i just have to try to get up there as much as i can before.. well, before it's too late.
i did get to go shopping yesterday with mom, nat, brooke, and daphne though, which was a welcome break from everything that's going on. i got a new cell phone (merry christmas to ME) which i loooove. i stayed longer than i should have to help with grandma, but i got to have a quick moment with her where she was coherent, and i could tell her i loved her and how happy i was to see her. she seemed more aware than normal while i was there, so i guess that's good.
anyhow, gotta get back to work. tonight is jared's annual thanksgiving party, so swing by if you're around. there's pumpkin pie! :)
thanksgiving this year wasn't as warm, fuzzy, and happy family-ish as previous years, but it also wasn't as drama-filled as christmas usually is - so overall, it was good. i went to my grandparents' house wednesday night, and was immediately involved in helping out with my grandmother. like i mentioned before, things aren't really going well; she's extremely weak, can't walk, hallucinates, and won't eat. i was glad that i could help out, but it make me really depressed at the same time. mom is living up there now, and her life is consumed with working and taking care of her. it seems unfair to me that she has to put her life on hold when nobody else in our family is willing to do the same - but, i know that mom wanted to do this. i've been feeling guilty about this myself, even though i know mom would kill me if i tried to take time off to go up and help her. so, i just have to try to get up there as much as i can before.. well, before it's too late.
i did get to go shopping yesterday with mom, nat, brooke, and daphne though, which was a welcome break from everything that's going on. i got a new cell phone (merry christmas to ME) which i loooove. i stayed longer than i should have to help with grandma, but i got to have a quick moment with her where she was coherent, and i could tell her i loved her and how happy i was to see her. she seemed more aware than normal while i was there, so i guess that's good.
anyhow, gotta get back to work. tonight is jared's annual thanksgiving party, so swing by if you're around. there's pumpkin pie! :)