I Am Back and Film Update
*the small brown wolf peeks out of the small cave and waves* Baroo.
I am back on the lj after a week or so of being off (more like 12 days). I needed a break from the drama and well as I now pour over the weeks of lj post I can see I left at the height of it. Why did I leave the internet and the furry fandom for the most part in that time? I needed time to think to myself, about what is important for me and my health and who are my friends, what do they mean to me, etc., etc., etc. What I discovered was that as much as I am a furry artist, a dealer I am not. I am not cut out to sell my artwork, nor does it appear popular enough to make it commercially viable (aka I don't make any money off what I do sell, or enough to make it worthwhile). What few commissions I get are spotty if at all non existent and often i find myself rushed to do them and fail to do my best work on them. So for those reasons and some others I am no longer doing commissions. I may still do badges cause they are easy and I like doing them. But beyond that if you ever wanted a commission from Silvermane or wanted me to do something well...I am not sure I will.
Why this sudden change? I spent another year a Furfright chained to the dealers table and saw a lot of my friends have at least some fun while I missed out. I also broke a fursonal promise to myself that I was going to be more social and have fun. I did try and had fun hanging out but most of that occured after the con was done or at night. I CANNOT and WILL NOT let that happen again next year. I am still debating on doing a table if nothing else to get rid of prints and because well I already signed up. What most likely will happen is I will be at the table for certain times when there is nothing going on.
I've also discovered something else in my self imposed exile, I, Silvermane, am not perfect. *waits for everyone to pass out* Further more I am lucky. I am lucky I have a mate that loves me and I love him, we may not always hang out and may not have alot in common but we got it where it counts. I also have a great circle of friends which coincidently grew by one this past weekend. With that I also discovered that not all your friends will like each other and that is cool, what matters is do they like you for what you are. Finally I discovered something very deep. You can be a writer, artist, fursuiter, decoration maker, con chair, or a plain no body whom no one even knows exists in the furry fandom. What ultimately counts is what you, yes YOU, have done with your life. Me? Well I am going to help out wolves starting with the one thing I know to do and do well *grabs a pen, some envelopes, stamps, and a checkbook* Writing checks! :) *tail wags* Sure the donations will be small and perhaps will only pay for some food, maybe a few feet of fence, a brushing, but hey it's doing SOMETHING!!! :)
Speaking of things to do. I had the werewolf film meet this past weekend. We are a go for starting this puppy up. Filming will be in the spring time and further updates will be comming. Right now fiddling with the idea of creating a yahoo group or lj group to get interest going. Will let everyone know more when it happens.
Working this week til Saturday, bleah hate that I miss Thanksgiving but good news is that Sunday I am having a dinner. *tail wags* I did it again *grins with tounge sticking out* I got a 19lbs turkey...*grins and laughs* I always over do these things....Anyway if I don't hear from anyone (which I never got alot of email when I took my sabbatical), have a safe, sane, and fulfilling Thanksgiving! FOr those outside the US of A have a blessed day and take care of yourselves!!! ^..^
Silvermane
"I feel disorientated."
"This is the Disorientation Center."
"That makes sense."
-Tom Baker and Elizabeth Shaden in Doctor Who "Android Invasion"
I am back on the lj after a week or so of being off (more like 12 days). I needed a break from the drama and well as I now pour over the weeks of lj post I can see I left at the height of it. Why did I leave the internet and the furry fandom for the most part in that time? I needed time to think to myself, about what is important for me and my health and who are my friends, what do they mean to me, etc., etc., etc. What I discovered was that as much as I am a furry artist, a dealer I am not. I am not cut out to sell my artwork, nor does it appear popular enough to make it commercially viable (aka I don't make any money off what I do sell, or enough to make it worthwhile). What few commissions I get are spotty if at all non existent and often i find myself rushed to do them and fail to do my best work on them. So for those reasons and some others I am no longer doing commissions. I may still do badges cause they are easy and I like doing them. But beyond that if you ever wanted a commission from Silvermane or wanted me to do something well...I am not sure I will.
Why this sudden change? I spent another year a Furfright chained to the dealers table and saw a lot of my friends have at least some fun while I missed out. I also broke a fursonal promise to myself that I was going to be more social and have fun. I did try and had fun hanging out but most of that occured after the con was done or at night. I CANNOT and WILL NOT let that happen again next year. I am still debating on doing a table if nothing else to get rid of prints and because well I already signed up. What most likely will happen is I will be at the table for certain times when there is nothing going on.
I've also discovered something else in my self imposed exile, I, Silvermane, am not perfect. *waits for everyone to pass out* Further more I am lucky. I am lucky I have a mate that loves me and I love him, we may not always hang out and may not have alot in common but we got it where it counts. I also have a great circle of friends which coincidently grew by one this past weekend. With that I also discovered that not all your friends will like each other and that is cool, what matters is do they like you for what you are. Finally I discovered something very deep. You can be a writer, artist, fursuiter, decoration maker, con chair, or a plain no body whom no one even knows exists in the furry fandom. What ultimately counts is what you, yes YOU, have done with your life. Me? Well I am going to help out wolves starting with the one thing I know to do and do well *grabs a pen, some envelopes, stamps, and a checkbook* Writing checks! :) *tail wags* Sure the donations will be small and perhaps will only pay for some food, maybe a few feet of fence, a brushing, but hey it's doing SOMETHING!!! :)
Speaking of things to do. I had the werewolf film meet this past weekend. We are a go for starting this puppy up. Filming will be in the spring time and further updates will be comming. Right now fiddling with the idea of creating a yahoo group or lj group to get interest going. Will let everyone know more when it happens.
Working this week til Saturday, bleah hate that I miss Thanksgiving but good news is that Sunday I am having a dinner. *tail wags* I did it again *grins with tounge sticking out* I got a 19lbs turkey...*grins and laughs* I always over do these things....Anyway if I don't hear from anyone (which I never got alot of email when I took my sabbatical), have a safe, sane, and fulfilling Thanksgiving! FOr those outside the US of A have a blessed day and take care of yourselves!!! ^..^
Silvermane
"I feel disorientated."
"This is the Disorientation Center."
"That makes sense."
-Tom Baker and Elizabeth Shaden in Doctor Who "Android Invasion"