Feelings Suck
Lately I've been feeling very very down. Sad to say the depressed Silvermane is back. I don't know why but I have pretty strange thoughts. I seem to be asked to work around everyone's schedule of late but no one really asks about my own, not that I have much going on and that certainly could play into it, but I try to go out and do things but no one seems interested in what I am doing which leads immediately back to a feeling of isolation. I also feel bad for anyone I visit because it's usually a long ass drive to anywhere and by the time I am down at some one's place I don't feel very energetic as I usually am, driving taxes you when traffic is endless. Added to this is a lack of local knowledge of what to do where in a host asks me what I want to do and I honestly don't know. As much as I don't like feeling like being used, I often feel like the only thing I can contribute to anyone's life is giving or getting work done for them. I am not sure if that is even healthy because in the end it makes me feel like I am just there as a labor force. I know this isn't true but it's what I feel.
Just been feeling very isolated of late that every thing is just so far away and there's no one there for Silvermane at home other than a dog, which is nice but I am a human being I do need human interaction as well. Just really wondering where and when my life turned so poopy.
Just been feeling very isolated of late that every thing is just so far away and there's no one there for Silvermane at home other than a dog, which is nice but I am a human being I do need human interaction as well. Just really wondering where and when my life turned so poopy.