somethings i never quite understand
Today is sad day. I feel so upset and so hurt and i dont understand the resoning for what happen. I feel obligated to follow the requests of a friend. I can understand the reasoning and i just still feel like you are giving up. I am sorry for the stupid things we have done. I know that we acted with irrational thoughts and emotions. I know that the things we done should not of done. But we did and there has to be some reason for them. You have been waiting two years and you are just gonna give up and throw them all away. I came online and what did u expect me to think. You thought it would be best if we didnt talk to each other for a bit. YOu have been there for me whenever i needed it no matter how much it hurt you to tell me the right thing i should. when the whole time u knew in ur heart and mind what you wanted to tell me. You knew that you would never get a flying chance in hell at me. Then when i finally come alone you are gone and not ready for it. But it still happens and now all our friendship is is a shattered image of what it use to be. seems unrepairable unless we try but to me it seems like you dont even want to try... you dont.... i suppose that is ok with me i will always be around if u need me but just know i am hurt hurt at a bad time in my life when i wish i wasnt being hurt it was like double whammy....there is so much to be said by i think i am just gonna lay down and close my eyes and try to pick up the shattered pieces and start again