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all this year has brought was betrayal. This time last year. 2 of my oldest friends betrayed me when they betrayed their boyfriends. My family doesn't love me because of anything about me other than we share teh same genes. My boyfriend, well exboyfriend doesn't cuz well, he broke up with me. And does not give a fuck. Who out there loves me? No one. I have a friend here, and she likes me well enough but she can't love me. Doesn't know me well enough. And I doubt i'm the kind of person that inspires love. Lust obviously. but i don't want lust. I want honest to god love.