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So after i get home. I eat wash some dishes then crash. Then I have a dream. I know Kevin was in it. And I am so still in love with him. I feel guilty about last night. I went to meet J. And we had sex. I really needed it and it was pretty good. But i feel like i shouldn't've. Cuz it would hurt Kevin. But he won't know. He doesn't even fucking care. Never did. I wasted so much time with him. Being a naive little girl that anyone could love me. I mean really. He broke me. And i don't know how to fix me.