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Written september 8th:
ok well i've oficialy had one of the worst days in a long while. Its not that anything really BAD happened, just ive been in kind'v a pessimistic mood today. Everyone and everything it seems has really been getting to me. and i feel like im in the right. Y should i tolerate people i dont like? i cant always surround my self with the people i DO want to be around, but that dosnt mean i have to with the ones i dont.
ok, u need an example? well, first. ***. is really getting to me. Lunch? she comes 10-15 minutes in, sits with this girl, talks to NOone else, except on rare occasion, then 5-10minutes later, they leave. like, the hell? y bother "gracing us" with your prescence at all? o, and dont complain about the people who sit there. (who were there before you...) If you dont like them, dont come. so, (not to be a hypocrit) if i dont feel like being near you, dont complain if i MySelf dont show up. o, and dont act all suprised when i'm honest with you. you know very well i'm not your slave, always at your every beckon-call. I'm not your mother. i have my own life. Its not even like you've done anything to deserve my attention. ok fine, we're friends, but u use me and u know u do. i'm a very tolerant person, but its getting to the point where i'm sick of it. (reminds me of someone u yourself critized for doing the same EXACT thing). i dont know what it is, but you're becoming very self-concious, and from this, very vain, and from that, very selfish, and i dont like it. o and btw - keep your promises. i dont feel like its my job to remind you of things you said youd do. (its not even like i asked you to in the 1st place). i did remind you, twice already. i Dont want to do it again.
o, and lotsa other stuff, but i g2g cuz ppl are here. We'll continue this later.
- MQ
ps - thanks Jes and Roxy and others who've listened to me about this, it really helped.
ok well i've oficialy had one of the worst days in a long while. Its not that anything really BAD happened, just ive been in kind'v a pessimistic mood today. Everyone and everything it seems has really been getting to me. and i feel like im in the right. Y should i tolerate people i dont like? i cant always surround my self with the people i DO want to be around, but that dosnt mean i have to with the ones i dont.
ok, u need an example? well, first. ***. is really getting to me. Lunch? she comes 10-15 minutes in, sits with this girl, talks to NOone else, except on rare occasion, then 5-10minutes later, they leave. like, the hell? y bother "gracing us" with your prescence at all? o, and dont complain about the people who sit there. (who were there before you...) If you dont like them, dont come. so, (not to be a hypocrit) if i dont feel like being near you, dont complain if i MySelf dont show up. o, and dont act all suprised when i'm honest with you. you know very well i'm not your slave, always at your every beckon-call. I'm not your mother. i have my own life. Its not even like you've done anything to deserve my attention. ok fine, we're friends, but u use me and u know u do. i'm a very tolerant person, but its getting to the point where i'm sick of it. (reminds me of someone u yourself critized for doing the same EXACT thing). i dont know what it is, but you're becoming very self-concious, and from this, very vain, and from that, very selfish, and i dont like it. o and btw - keep your promises. i dont feel like its my job to remind you of things you said youd do. (its not even like i asked you to in the 1st place). i did remind you, twice already. i Dont want to do it again.
o, and lotsa other stuff, but i g2g cuz ppl are here. We'll continue this later.
- MQ
ps - thanks Jes and Roxy and others who've listened to me about this, it really helped.