Graduation
I'm done studying for my last final. Actually, I just don't have any motivation anymore. I should care, and I do-- sort of. I studied a fair amount. It's so hard to be motivated because I already got into school, yet I have no official papers telling me so. I hope they're at my mailbox today when I go take my exam. After my test I have to hand in 3 papers, and then that's it. I can't believe it's almost all over.
I feel like I'm okay with graduating. But part of that ok feeling is probably because I'm not really grasping what it all means maybe. I am so tired of living with four other girls, and I'm so tired of the problems and drama that come with that. Everyone in this apartment has changed so much since we all decided to live together, and not everyone is the person I was friends with last year. So I can't wait to get away from all the drama and lies. There's so much more to life than not wanting to admit you forgot to wash a plate. I'm going to be sad to drive away from here for the last time, and I will miss some people.
I think part of the reason why graduation isn't more sad for me is because Marc and I aren't ending. We're going onto another stage that four years ago I never imagined possible. We're going to be a real world couple. I can't believe it actually worked out (if this paperwork ever shows up). That's what is going to be hard, moving in July. Because even though it's just to go to school, in my mind it's kind of for good. But at the same time, I'm really excited. The apartment complex I want to live in has a one bedroom people moving out on July 23rd, which means I can be in on August 1st.
I guess overall it's bittersweet. But next week I'm going to have so much fun. Senior week stuff, and Tina's coming out. I'm glad she's coming, she'll be so much fun. And with her around, there will be less time for me to get all sappy and sad, and I don't want to do that. She's fun, social, and my friends that met her last year when she was here for my 21st birthday love her. So Tina-- I CANT WAIT!!!!
I feel like I'm okay with graduating. But part of that ok feeling is probably because I'm not really grasping what it all means maybe. I am so tired of living with four other girls, and I'm so tired of the problems and drama that come with that. Everyone in this apartment has changed so much since we all decided to live together, and not everyone is the person I was friends with last year. So I can't wait to get away from all the drama and lies. There's so much more to life than not wanting to admit you forgot to wash a plate. I'm going to be sad to drive away from here for the last time, and I will miss some people.
I think part of the reason why graduation isn't more sad for me is because Marc and I aren't ending. We're going onto another stage that four years ago I never imagined possible. We're going to be a real world couple. I can't believe it actually worked out (if this paperwork ever shows up). That's what is going to be hard, moving in July. Because even though it's just to go to school, in my mind it's kind of for good. But at the same time, I'm really excited. The apartment complex I want to live in has a one bedroom people moving out on July 23rd, which means I can be in on August 1st.
I guess overall it's bittersweet. But next week I'm going to have so much fun. Senior week stuff, and Tina's coming out. I'm glad she's coming, she'll be so much fun. And with her around, there will be less time for me to get all sappy and sad, and I don't want to do that. She's fun, social, and my friends that met her last year when she was here for my 21st birthday love her. So Tina-- I CANT WAIT!!!!