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I have been making a solid effort to go to the gym everyday and follow Derick's plan. I also went from eating practically nothing to eating whatever because he told me that if I didn't start eating I was going to mess up my thyroid and it would cause me to gain more weight. If he was trying to scare me it worked. But now I'm starting to balance back out and make some healthier choices. I was snacking all day but it was all good stuff. And I couldn't fucking bring myself to stay off of the fucking scale so I got on this evening and it give me six different readings and I was so fed up that I threw the damn thing out the bathroom window. Landed on the grass so I didn't get a satisfying crunch, but i t was enough to get it the fuck out of my bathroom so I am not tempted anymore. All I have left is my tape measure but I'm starting to think that maybe I should have Kyle hide that as well. But I need to follow a solid meal plan. Plan out my meals & snacks and if I am still hungry then only fruit or veggies. I think that is a good plan. I wish my stupid school was done with for the semester it's really cutting into my life at the moment. I need to be happy with myself before I can go and throw myself into studying for three more years. HATE.