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ok yes been a while again. right now i'm sititng in my room with only the laptop turned on. it's so beautiful outside. the sky is pinkish like and the branches of the trees are outlined perfectly against it. and it's snowing. and it's just gorgeous. and i'm listening to my travis cd. lately i've been listening to it before falling asleep. so i have school tomorrow. this vacation i decided to stay EXTREMELY antisocial. well, partly i decided and partly this whole vacation seemed way too short when it usually feels way long. i saw four people-- 2 of the four for about 3 minutes. and i saw a movie with the other two- Spanglish. It was an interesting movie. It was kinda boring but good at the same time. It was like watching a novel. You may think this is crazy because all movies are like watching a novel. But no, I felt like I was reading it, on the screen. It taught some good life lessons. Haha i wish i had seen it BEFORE i wrote all my college essays. AHH UNIVERSITY OF CHICAGO! I am SOOO excited. i can't even begin to describe how much i'm looking forward to leaving ba. i seem to be the only tho. it seems like everyone is sad blah blah blah. the blah blah blah is not an attempt to demean anybody's feelings. it's just i don't feel like typing and there really isn't anything more to say. anyways, i am extremely excited. but the thing is, i might not be able to go, because we can't afford it. 40000 a year and i'm not getting any financial aid. so i'm busting my ass for some fucking good scholarships. otherwise it's marquette for me.. woohoo. i'm actually kinda growing to not hate marquette. it's not bad. i'd have to live at home tho. they don't have classes that i want and blah. and i would save a lot of money. so tomorrow is school. fun. actually, it's not too bad. my classes are all pretty easy. i never do homework and it's great. it took a while for me to get to this point, but i'm glad i'm here. i really need to load cds onto my ipod. but i'm so lazy. i have like 200 cds and i'm just.. i have the time just not the patience for all that tediousness. i've taken up watching sex in the city lately. it's rather funny, really racy, but funny nonetheless. i really don't like sarah jessica parker's character right now. idk why i keep a journal. i never kept one because i don't want people to be able to hold anything against me and i always remember something when i write it down so i'll never go and look back at it. hell, i remember a journal entry from second grade. it was something about columbus or the sea or something. wow a piece of fuzz on my pillow totally looked like a bug and i almost flipped out. ahh this is a good travis song.. all hippyish. you should always enjoy the first time you listen to a song.. it's the only time you'll be surprised. you can only have one first time. i tried listening to this cd without knowing what happens next.. to get that first-time thrill again.. and it just didn't work. ok i'm out!