Been a while
So today's one of those days where I've got a lot in my head and want to do something. But don't know what rather then homework (which I'm too restless to do) or games. So games it's been.
I just got back from the cafe. I realize I don't eat much. Literally. I eat at the cafeterias like once a day during the weekends. 2 if I'm lucky/working on the weekdays. No wonder I'm so skinny and still eat the worst foods. I'll snack on some stuff if I have it. But I usually don't. And even then, at the cafeterias, I'm only getting a rather small share of stuff. Usually it's been a small helping of fries, or a salad (rather small as well), or a hamburger/hotdog, or maybe something of the entree of the day.
Today for instance. There was no work, it was closed for MLK weekend. So I didn't get the food before work/during like I usually would. I wanted to go and get something, but Troy, the only friend I really have on campus with a meal plan was on duty and couldn't. So I dind't go. I had like 2 tiny snack-packs of doritos. between then and when I left for dinner at around 5:45. It was chicken tenders today. Nice, these things taste awesome. I had a plate of around 8 or so and a slab of this boneless BBQ rib sandwich (without the bun). Horribly processed, but tastes good. That's it, besides a glass of milk and half a glass of Vault. 'Bout the norm for me and eating here. I'm not really sure why, half of it is clearly due to the fact that no one lives on campus really anymore. And going by myself seems rather pointless since I'm surrounded by groups it makes me feel isolated. Not that that is anything new to my world, but it's still sort of uncomfortable.
Next about this, is during my time eating, I decided to take my glasses off. If you know me, you know I have horrible vision. My lenses are +7.25 in my left and +7.5 in my right. Which means that everything is blurry unless it's lik 3 inches from my face. Suddenly, the world seemed foreign. I couldn't make out the faces of anyone, just a lot of moving, colorful, blobs. I could still see the forms of the food on my plate, so it wasn't hard to pick up the chicken bites to dip and eat. So I didn't look like a fool. With my world suddenly like this. I had no reason to focus on anything else. It'd be futile for me to do and not worth the effort. And with my ipod playing, there was nothing to listen to. It left me in a rather calm state, even though I was bored/restless/down, it put me at ease a bit. I kept them off. Some girl sat next to me at the table I was at. No, I didn't know her, it was horribly busy with the popular entree and only 2 cafeterias open for the weekend. I had no reason to look at her, she could've been really cute. But since my sight is so bad, there'd be no point in blatantly looking and squinting hard to make her out.
I dunno, the whole fact that the world I was in was pretty much filled with unrecognizable objects and people was interesting. It took the distractions of the environment away. Not that sometimes distractions can be nice. But at times things are overwhelming and/or annoying. I'd say it'd be interesting for you to try it out. But that's impossible unless you make your eyesight as bad as mine. Closing your eyes doesn't work. Because then you can't function at all like you could be like me. I can see basic forms. Thus I can walk around, find objects I need (it being a good 2 inches or larger), and just stare empty around.
Well that was a lot longer then expected, but I should've guessed I'd ramble as per usual with me.
I just got back from the cafe. I realize I don't eat much. Literally. I eat at the cafeterias like once a day during the weekends. 2 if I'm lucky/working on the weekdays. No wonder I'm so skinny and still eat the worst foods. I'll snack on some stuff if I have it. But I usually don't. And even then, at the cafeterias, I'm only getting a rather small share of stuff. Usually it's been a small helping of fries, or a salad (rather small as well), or a hamburger/hotdog, or maybe something of the entree of the day.
Today for instance. There was no work, it was closed for MLK weekend. So I didn't get the food before work/during like I usually would. I wanted to go and get something, but Troy, the only friend I really have on campus with a meal plan was on duty and couldn't. So I dind't go. I had like 2 tiny snack-packs of doritos. between then and when I left for dinner at around 5:45. It was chicken tenders today. Nice, these things taste awesome. I had a plate of around 8 or so and a slab of this boneless BBQ rib sandwich (without the bun). Horribly processed, but tastes good. That's it, besides a glass of milk and half a glass of Vault. 'Bout the norm for me and eating here. I'm not really sure why, half of it is clearly due to the fact that no one lives on campus really anymore. And going by myself seems rather pointless since I'm surrounded by groups it makes me feel isolated. Not that that is anything new to my world, but it's still sort of uncomfortable.
Next about this, is during my time eating, I decided to take my glasses off. If you know me, you know I have horrible vision. My lenses are +7.25 in my left and +7.5 in my right. Which means that everything is blurry unless it's lik 3 inches from my face. Suddenly, the world seemed foreign. I couldn't make out the faces of anyone, just a lot of moving, colorful, blobs. I could still see the forms of the food on my plate, so it wasn't hard to pick up the chicken bites to dip and eat. So I didn't look like a fool. With my world suddenly like this. I had no reason to focus on anything else. It'd be futile for me to do and not worth the effort. And with my ipod playing, there was nothing to listen to. It left me in a rather calm state, even though I was bored/restless/down, it put me at ease a bit. I kept them off. Some girl sat next to me at the table I was at. No, I didn't know her, it was horribly busy with the popular entree and only 2 cafeterias open for the weekend. I had no reason to look at her, she could've been really cute. But since my sight is so bad, there'd be no point in blatantly looking and squinting hard to make her out.
I dunno, the whole fact that the world I was in was pretty much filled with unrecognizable objects and people was interesting. It took the distractions of the environment away. Not that sometimes distractions can be nice. But at times things are overwhelming and/or annoying. I'd say it'd be interesting for you to try it out. But that's impossible unless you make your eyesight as bad as mine. Closing your eyes doesn't work. Because then you can't function at all like you could be like me. I can see basic forms. Thus I can walk around, find objects I need (it being a good 2 inches or larger), and just stare empty around.
Well that was a lot longer then expected, but I should've guessed I'd ramble as per usual with me.