"Opened my eyes today & I knew there's something different..."
Okay. First order of business: I think I've fallen again.
That would be quite a news flash, considering the fact that it's been (what?) about nearly a decade since I fell quite hard for someone. But compared to the me from ten years ago, I suppose I'd have a fairly better idea on how to go about this situation. As
Panic! At The Disco would have it,
"it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise & rationality." Now I know I haven't been totally honest. I admit, there were a few distractions within that ten-year period, but I'd like to reassure myself that I still had a tight rational lid on my impulses and therefore maintained a mindset that "this is temporary & will not last so better make the most of it by not doing anything stupid." And so I managed to keep my emotions in check & my sanity carefully guarded. I'm not saying that I've turned to stone. Maybe I've turned Vulcan & suppressed my emotions with logic, but just because I've managed to suppress them doesn't necessarily mean that I haven't felt anything during that time. Also,
even Vulcans have the need for release. I guess it's my own psyche catching up on me, or my collective karma hitting me square on.
"I saw you in a brand-new way like the clouds have somehow lifted..."
Either way, I find myself reading up on European history (as in from
Elizabeth I &
Mary Queen of Scots, to
Marie Antoinette & the
Affair of the Necklace). I mean, I've considered myself a bookworm and a geek, but history has always been one of my weak points. I can hardly tell the difference between the
French Revolution from
Les Miserable. But now, I'm afraid that one of these days, I might find myself trying to digest socio-political analyses of events that involved the monarchy of that time over early morning breakfast, instead of plotting out the
mystical properties of common everyday herbs and meditating on
the beauty of the universe as captured by the Hubble telescope's lens over cups of coffee.
"And if yesterday I heard myself saying these words, I would swear it was a lie..."
I'm afraid of losing myself again, of giving too much of myself & forgetting to leave even a little bit for my own. I've already lost six out of my nine so-called cat lives. While I still have a few left, I want to know if this one's worth all this reading, all these hours I should've spent sleeping.
I've been way too cautious, way too careful, that I never realized that by putting up these defenses I've only managed to wall myself in my own little labyrinth.
"I don't know why, but suddenly I'm falling..."
And that's what scares me the most right now.
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Meanwhile, here's some linkspamming for lack of anything better to do.
How Real Transformers Work. No, really.
For felines:
How to Drive Your Human Crazy. Nuff said.
Yes, there really IS a
Pelican Nebula.
I believe I've posted this before, but then I could never get enough of the
Shakespearean Insulter.
On the news:
Men Disguised as Muslim Women Rob Bank! And lastly, here's the answer to the question,
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Latest News from the
New Worlds Alliance: New Worlds: Transformed
From July 9 to 15, there will be another celebration of fandom in New Worlds: Transformed, to be held at the Power Plant Mall at Rockwell. The New Worlds Alliance (NWA), an organization of fan groups focused primarily on fantasy, science fiction, horror and superheroes, will be holding exhibits and activities that showcase the various ways they show their love for their favorite shows, books and authors. Highlighting the event is the opening of the film adaptation of JK Rowling's Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, a week before the release of the last book of the series, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
This is the power of fandom. Who else can dictate to large production outfits what movie to make next? Many of the recent box-office hits were either fantasy, such as Pirates of the Carribean and Shrek, or about superheroes like Spiderman and the Fantastic Four; all of these are highly successful franchises that have generated fans from all over. Many upcoming movies are from either the same or affiliated genres: Transformers, Harry Potter and Stardust. Look further down the road and you'll see offerings such as Batman, Star Trek and Wolverine. Hollywood, it seems, is tapping into what some call the Fandom Phenomenon: groups of people from widely different backgrounds coming together to celebrate the stories and
characters they love.
The local fans are no less passionate. The past five years have seen numerous events and conventions that serve as venues for fans to meet, greet, connect and celebrate.
But what makes these events truly interesting are the fans themselves. These are people inspired by imagination and touched by creativity, who choose to let their respective fandoms shape their lives. Don't let the costumes, quoted lines, quaint mannerisms and affectations, and the obsession with merchandise fool you. Take a chance and engage one (or two or three) in conversation; you'll be surprised to see how lucid and grounded they actually are--and you'll find they're witty too! Take the time to stroll around the exhibits, greet the characters in costume and find out exactly how their fandoms have set their imaginations on fire and touched their hearts. Explore the activities offered in this event: play a game or two, have yourself sorted into a House, learn the Vulcan Salute. You may be surprised to find that you're actually a fan at heart.
With such a following, it is no surprise that outfits like Rockwell Power Plant Mall, Level Up! Games, Dream FM, and Fandom Cafe have supported this event. It is open to the public. And the entrance, like imagination, is free. For more information, please log on to
http://newworlds.ph/.