If only they knew...
All right, all right, it's been a while since I've written in this thing... time for the old dust cleaning.
(Caution: Extreme ranting ahead)
(sighs) So yeah, times have been changing. Relations changing, people changing, heck, everything and everyone's changing by the second here. Though... I'm beginning to draw the line. People I used to have a decent relation with a couple of weeks ago seem ready and just waiting for the opportunity to bite my wing off. All I can say is, if they want to play that game, it's a 2-player game, no matter how you look at it. You want to ignore me? Fine, I'll take the shots. I probably won't care. Don't come crying to me if you get hurt, though. You want to mount an offensive? Reason more for me to close up at you, and yeah, I might as well take some frustration out on you, whatever way I see fit. Don't like it? I'm not forcing any of you to change. Just walk away, or just throw a few shots at me. Cool off, that's all I ask.
I'm under pressure these days just worrying about most of you. This has not been a pleasant while as of late. More this goes, weaker I get, more emotional I get, and it leads to shit like this. Ignorance is one thing I truly dislike, especially when I attempt to help. It's that kind of stuff that sends me over the thin, emotional line between the Silver Phoenix that wants to help everyone regardless of what the bird's status is, and the weakened, ticking time bomb-like Raven that's just trying to live through the situation, by fighting out. This is all I can say about this.
As for the rest, RL stuff, RP stuff, everything related to that, there's a major brick in the way of everything. I'm not going forward until I can fight my way out of this hole, that everyone's problems are helped with, no matter what the degree, among other things.
Right now, though, this Phoenix is weakened. And it's not looking good. All I'm saying. I'm off to my nest. Until next time...
(Caution: Extreme ranting ahead)
(sighs) So yeah, times have been changing. Relations changing, people changing, heck, everything and everyone's changing by the second here. Though... I'm beginning to draw the line. People I used to have a decent relation with a couple of weeks ago seem ready and just waiting for the opportunity to bite my wing off. All I can say is, if they want to play that game, it's a 2-player game, no matter how you look at it. You want to ignore me? Fine, I'll take the shots. I probably won't care. Don't come crying to me if you get hurt, though. You want to mount an offensive? Reason more for me to close up at you, and yeah, I might as well take some frustration out on you, whatever way I see fit. Don't like it? I'm not forcing any of you to change. Just walk away, or just throw a few shots at me. Cool off, that's all I ask.
I'm under pressure these days just worrying about most of you. This has not been a pleasant while as of late. More this goes, weaker I get, more emotional I get, and it leads to shit like this. Ignorance is one thing I truly dislike, especially when I attempt to help. It's that kind of stuff that sends me over the thin, emotional line between the Silver Phoenix that wants to help everyone regardless of what the bird's status is, and the weakened, ticking time bomb-like Raven that's just trying to live through the situation, by fighting out. This is all I can say about this.
As for the rest, RL stuff, RP stuff, everything related to that, there's a major brick in the way of everything. I'm not going forward until I can fight my way out of this hole, that everyone's problems are helped with, no matter what the degree, among other things.
Right now, though, this Phoenix is weakened. And it's not looking good. All I'm saying. I'm off to my nest. Until next time...