Pre-Wedding Life and Job Hunting
It's hard to believe that in a week and two days, I'll be married.
Most of the time I feel like it will all be okay and that this is the next logical step in my life. But then sometimes, like yesterday and today, I feel really homesick for the home and family I haven't even left yet (yes, even mean old Emily). Once I get married and Chad and I move to Dixon for good, I won't even have a family close by to come home to. Mommy is selling the house, getting married to Lynn, and moving to Drexel, MO all before the date of September 15th-ish. (That's the general plan, anyway--as always, it's subject to change.) Drexel is around 8-9 hours from Dixon...I won't see her but maybe a couple times a year :(
I'm sure this is a common sentiment for people to have before they get married, but it's not an easy one. I'm really close to Mommy, and always have been. For better or worse, she's been more of a friendly mentor to me than a mother. With our family history as rocky and dysfunctional as it's been, that's just the way it turned out. Consequently, I'll be moving away from not only my amazing hero of a mother, but a very good friend. I don't know how to deal with not being able to see her. When I was at school in Texas my freshman year, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I cried every night for almost a year, and if for some reason I couldn't get through to her on the phone, I cried even more.
I guess I'm just nervous about how I'll feel once all is said and done. Yes, I know I'll have Chad with me, but I think I'm right in saying that that's not quite the same :) I feel like I'm being voluntarily uprooted from everything that's familiar and planted somewhere else that has questionable weather.
Don't get me wrong--I'm very excited about getting married and I know we'll be happy in Dixon. I just get an overwhelming surge of sadness and loneliness when I realize that I can't just drive over and tell Mommy the funny things that happened that day, like how I accidentally put too much detergent in the washer and made it a load of foam. It's not going to be easy to get used to that.
Megan, however, is going to start Greenville College this Fall. She's majoring in Music Education with an instrumental emphasis, and will therefore have no life unless she sacrifices much sleep to see human beings outside the music building. I'm sure we'll have some sort of reason to come back to visit her, and hopefully so will Mommy and Lynn. So maybe it won't be so bad?...
Who knows what Emily's doing. She doesn't tell me anything--not even when I fixed her precious Sega and played Toe Jam and Earl with her yesterday. So I've given up on asking, and just wait to be told via Mommy or Megan. But there's still no news on what the heck she's doing when Mommy sells the house.
In other things, the wedding planning is coming along all right. Almost all the big things are taken care of, and it's just the delegation of "day of" duties that remains. That's the hardest part, if you ask me. I have to make sure there's somebody to take care of everything? That's a tall order, even if it does mean that I don't have to do it all myself.
Oh, and does anybody have any grand ideas on how to get rid of awful looking tan lines? I'm wearing a strapless dress, and it's pretty bad. I can't use bronzer because it will get all over the dress and anyone else I touch (and let's face it, I'll be hugging my husband at some point), and I'm shying away from self-tanning lotion because I think the color would look odd when I'm tan on the shoulders but almost white in my shirt strap lines. I'm tanning for real a little bit every day now, but I don't know if the tan lines will diminish enough before the wedding. I need help.
And in perhaps the most exciting part of this entry, I have great news. I applied for an Administrative Assistant to the Executive Director position at the Sterling YMCA, and after my inital interview, I have another phone interview on Tuesday! I'm really excited about this job, and it would be perfect. Not only would my boss be incredibly nice (not to mention human, unlike the bosses at Nevco), but everybody else is friendly, and Chad and I would get free memberships to the YMCA! Talk about perks! So please pray for me, I've never wanted a job this much before. Out of thirty people who applied, I was one of about eight that he interviewed and asked back for the second round of interviews. I think I have a pretty good chance! I really hope I get it!
*sigh* Life is hectic, but I guess it's good. This Saturday is Chad's birthday, and he'll be here, which is nice. We also have our bachelor and bachelorette parties on Saturday, which I'm excited about. That should be great fun!
I think that's enough for now. I have much to do and not a lot of time left to do it...
Reason of the Day ~ Only a week and two days!
Most of the time I feel like it will all be okay and that this is the next logical step in my life. But then sometimes, like yesterday and today, I feel really homesick for the home and family I haven't even left yet (yes, even mean old Emily). Once I get married and Chad and I move to Dixon for good, I won't even have a family close by to come home to. Mommy is selling the house, getting married to Lynn, and moving to Drexel, MO all before the date of September 15th-ish. (That's the general plan, anyway--as always, it's subject to change.) Drexel is around 8-9 hours from Dixon...I won't see her but maybe a couple times a year :(
I'm sure this is a common sentiment for people to have before they get married, but it's not an easy one. I'm really close to Mommy, and always have been. For better or worse, she's been more of a friendly mentor to me than a mother. With our family history as rocky and dysfunctional as it's been, that's just the way it turned out. Consequently, I'll be moving away from not only my amazing hero of a mother, but a very good friend. I don't know how to deal with not being able to see her. When I was at school in Texas my freshman year, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I cried every night for almost a year, and if for some reason I couldn't get through to her on the phone, I cried even more.
I guess I'm just nervous about how I'll feel once all is said and done. Yes, I know I'll have Chad with me, but I think I'm right in saying that that's not quite the same :) I feel like I'm being voluntarily uprooted from everything that's familiar and planted somewhere else that has questionable weather.
Don't get me wrong--I'm very excited about getting married and I know we'll be happy in Dixon. I just get an overwhelming surge of sadness and loneliness when I realize that I can't just drive over and tell Mommy the funny things that happened that day, like how I accidentally put too much detergent in the washer and made it a load of foam. It's not going to be easy to get used to that.
Megan, however, is going to start Greenville College this Fall. She's majoring in Music Education with an instrumental emphasis, and will therefore have no life unless she sacrifices much sleep to see human beings outside the music building. I'm sure we'll have some sort of reason to come back to visit her, and hopefully so will Mommy and Lynn. So maybe it won't be so bad?...
Who knows what Emily's doing. She doesn't tell me anything--not even when I fixed her precious Sega and played Toe Jam and Earl with her yesterday. So I've given up on asking, and just wait to be told via Mommy or Megan. But there's still no news on what the heck she's doing when Mommy sells the house.
In other things, the wedding planning is coming along all right. Almost all the big things are taken care of, and it's just the delegation of "day of" duties that remains. That's the hardest part, if you ask me. I have to make sure there's somebody to take care of everything? That's a tall order, even if it does mean that I don't have to do it all myself.
Oh, and does anybody have any grand ideas on how to get rid of awful looking tan lines? I'm wearing a strapless dress, and it's pretty bad. I can't use bronzer because it will get all over the dress and anyone else I touch (and let's face it, I'll be hugging my husband at some point), and I'm shying away from self-tanning lotion because I think the color would look odd when I'm tan on the shoulders but almost white in my shirt strap lines. I'm tanning for real a little bit every day now, but I don't know if the tan lines will diminish enough before the wedding. I need help.
And in perhaps the most exciting part of this entry, I have great news. I applied for an Administrative Assistant to the Executive Director position at the Sterling YMCA, and after my inital interview, I have another phone interview on Tuesday! I'm really excited about this job, and it would be perfect. Not only would my boss be incredibly nice (not to mention human, unlike the bosses at Nevco), but everybody else is friendly, and Chad and I would get free memberships to the YMCA! Talk about perks! So please pray for me, I've never wanted a job this much before. Out of thirty people who applied, I was one of about eight that he interviewed and asked back for the second round of interviews. I think I have a pretty good chance! I really hope I get it!
*sigh* Life is hectic, but I guess it's good. This Saturday is Chad's birthday, and he'll be here, which is nice. We also have our bachelor and bachelorette parties on Saturday, which I'm excited about. That should be great fun!
I think that's enough for now. I have much to do and not a lot of time left to do it...
Reason of the Day ~ Only a week and two days!