-letting go-
I'm starting to get nervous about the end of the semester... Some of these people, annoying as they may be, mean the world to me.
Just starting to think a lot about life i guess, and realizing that after NJ i have nothing, and that really scares me. I fully intend to make the most out of my internship... but i also need to find something for afterwards, b/c going home really isn't an option.
I really wanted Scottsdale, but now it doesn't seem like that's such a good idea.
Maybe life will catch up to me in the next five months, and give me some sort of direction and purpose.
In the meantime, the next week, ok, hell the next month, until New Years Day, is about letting go.
Let go of who you are, and become who you could be.
The past for years, and especially the past year, have been the best of my life, and letting go of those people is going to be the hardest thing i've ever had to do. But it really does make you stronger, so i'll have it rough now, and i'm not going to pretend to be ok with it... I love them all, and love isn't something i take lightly or let go of easily, but we're all moving on to the rest of our lives, and this is the way it has to be.
I wish Andrew wasn't so far away... I need him to tell me how stupid i've been, and that he still loves me in spite of it all.
Just starting to think a lot about life i guess, and realizing that after NJ i have nothing, and that really scares me. I fully intend to make the most out of my internship... but i also need to find something for afterwards, b/c going home really isn't an option.
I really wanted Scottsdale, but now it doesn't seem like that's such a good idea.
Maybe life will catch up to me in the next five months, and give me some sort of direction and purpose.
In the meantime, the next week, ok, hell the next month, until New Years Day, is about letting go.
Let go of who you are, and become who you could be.
The past for years, and especially the past year, have been the best of my life, and letting go of those people is going to be the hardest thing i've ever had to do. But it really does make you stronger, so i'll have it rough now, and i'm not going to pretend to be ok with it... I love them all, and love isn't something i take lightly or let go of easily, but we're all moving on to the rest of our lives, and this is the way it has to be.
I wish Andrew wasn't so far away... I need him to tell me how stupid i've been, and that he still loves me in spite of it all.