Ok, so last night was extreme anger. I still feel it, though I've been able to supress it for now.
I'm just so frustrated, The one question I need answerd still remain unanswered. I think not knowing the answer is what's keeping me so angry.
I need some affection from someone...I don't care who just this moment (as long as it's not a dirty hippy). Maybe I should go to Sarah's, there's always a lot of love in that house.
I've been getting no sleep this week (hmm...I wonder why?). I think it can be averaged to 5 hours max a night. I'm starting to feel exhausted.
Hempfest is this weekend, and oh yes, I will be there. While, I'm not a stoner, I missed Folklife this last May so I'm not missing the other hippy event of Seattle! Screw incence, I want more oils to burn! that and maybe I'll run into the owner of the Magikal Garden (the one in everett). They always have some great stuff there and I think I need to spend a few dollars on myself for once (ignorig the fact that I'm getting paied shit this next paycheck and I still have to shell out $150 for bumbershoot, and $85 for insurance. I will find away to manage!...
Another Poe song...
Wild
I go wild cause you break me open
Wild cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild because the chips are down
Wild because there isn't anybody else around
Wild when the waves start to break
And God knows they're breaking in me now
I go wild 'cause it doesn't make sense
For me to cry out in my own defense
Wild because I would do anything
To tear you off your precious fence
So this is what it's like living in limbo
First I'm high then I'm so low
I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
When I know you're near
I go wild
I go wild
Tell me what you've come for
Moving like a hunter through my back door
Leaving the perfume of all you adore
To die nameless on my floor
Yeah well we both know you don't play fair
I guess you really think that you get me there
Let's be honest perhaps this little ride
Is too much for even you to bear
You've got some nerve to come back here
You're not the only one who can smell fear
I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
Don't you get it dear
You're not the only one who runs on instincts
No I've got instincts of my own
You've got a lot of nerve to come back
Plan your attack yeah I am still waiting
You wrote the rules to try to contain me
You broke 'em
Now you have untamed me
I go wild
I go wild
Tell me what you've come for
What is it you adore
Won't you tell me?
What would you die for;
Swallow your pride for?
What would you
Go wild for?
You've got a lot of nerve to come back here
Speak up my darling I have been waiting
I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
Don't you get it dear
You're not the only one who runs on instincts
No I've got instincts of my own
You've got a lot of nerve to come back
Plan your attack and I am still waiting
Did you want something?
You wrote the rules to try and contain me
You broke 'em
Now you haven't tamed me
I go wild
I go wild