Death

[silverdragon23]

Today I got a phone call from my best friend at 830 this morning waking me up from a sound sleep. At first I was just going to brush her off to go back to sleep, but then she said, "Today I have to bury my father.." I was like WHAT?! She then proceeded to tell me that her father died last Wednesday of a massive heart attack in his sleep, and that the funeral obviously was today. I asked her if she wanted me there and she started to cry hysterically and said yes. I told her I would be over in 45 minutes. Needless to say I was shocked and worried about my friend. During the service she passed out three times. Each time I was right at her side when she woke up and started crying clutching on to me for dear life. When we got to the site, the burial service was very nice, he got TAPS played and the whole nine yards since he was a veteran. All I kept thinking about during this was this could have been me, my father would get all that since he was a veteran too. And it made me feel bad because I was glad I wasn't going through this. I know my friend needed me to be there and I was, as her pillar of strength during this time of her life, but it was very difficult for me to be so strong for her. I didn't really cry all that much during the services because I had to comfort my friend. I knew her father very well, used to spend a lot of time over at her house during the summers when we were in high school and her dad and I always traded jokes about the military. He was a really great person and would offer a lot of advice to me whenever I needed it. I just feel bad because I really didn't talk to him much since I have been so busy with so many things. But my friend left me with words to think about and taught me a lesson. Life is too short to not say things to the people you care about, who mean a lot to you. She knows how things are between me and my father and she down right told me that me and him need to work things out because you never know when time is up. She's right, precious time is being wasted whenever me and my father fight or he says the dumb mean things he says to me. I've decided that my father and I need to sit and have a talk. We need to hash out our differences because in reality our differences are we are too much a like in personality. But today really scared the shit outta me. Made me realize that life is too precious to be wasted on stupid shit.

This quote really hits home with a lot of thoughts going through my head..
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson