Forever and Ever
Title: Click - Forever and Ever
Disclaimer: Big emphasis to the word "FANFICTION". The only things I own are ideas and the plot.
Fandom - Pairings: Arashi - Sakumoto
Rating: NC - 17
Genre: Non- AU, Angst, Romance
Length - Word Count: Short Story - 1481 words (Part 2)
Summary: “If he can wake up with this sight every morning, Sho has only one wish…"
Author's Notes: Second part in Sho’s perspective.
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For some reason, they have a mutual understanding that both of them needed a time out. Sho doesn’t know who started it, but when one backs off, the other naturally does too.
It isn’t like they aren’t friends anymore. Maybe their relationship has changed. It’s less contact unless it is work related. Sho makes sure that Ma-chan becomes Matsumoto-san, and things between them are kept professional. Sho doesn’t have any say on it, and it seems Jun doesn’t mind it, so all is well right?
In a way, the others don’t pry even if they know something have changed between him and Jun. Maybe it is better, but worried stares coming from Aiba and Ohno didn’t escape Sho’s attention especially when it is directed to their youngest member. It’s nothing compared to Nino’s unexplainable silence though.
Sho knows Nino. Despite hating each other’s guts earlier in their junior days, he acknowledges Nino’s great perception. Seeing Nino not making any comment regards to the obvious development makes him restless.
Still, he doesn’t ask Nino about it because he doesn’t know whether he’ll like what Nino has to say in this matter. Everything seems to be in the past now, and they are growing up in their own ways anyways.
Sho has outgrown his little fuse when he thought everyone is his enemy and he has the burden of the world. Now, he can say he is calm and collected, knowing how to laugh at his own mistakes and to just keep on going. On the other hand, Jun has outgrown his phase when he is like a lost puppy, awkward and gangly. He stands on his own ground, proud, and confident. Yet as they grow up, the distance grows too.
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It takes more or less two years before Sho gets used to it, and that being alone with Jun isn’t that awkward. They’re the two level-headed members out of Arashi, making them to connect in ways other might not understand. Jun asks him when it comes to their concert production, if they can do this, or do that. But sometimes, Sho still gets to do things that Jun has thought about, but he never got consulted about it. It isn’t that he is angry when Jun does that, but then it involves being suspended high in the air, and he entirely doesn’t agree with that (and Sho will think maybe this is some sort of Jun’s revenge on him). Still, Sho waits for Jun, does his best in giving suggestion, and adding things that will be useful as they try to bring happiness to their thousands of fans.
It also comes naturally that every time Jun brings a bento in their green room, the younger male shares it with him. It is a given that he loves trying different gourmets and food, and that makes him more thankful because Jun is trusting his opinions and taste palette when it comes to improving the other male’s cooking despite knowing he fails so much when it comes to cooking.
Sho doesn’t admit it but he is overwhelmed with how much Jun trusts him with such things knowing how passionate Jun can be when he is into something. But really, all Sho can say is praises because Jun’s cooking is always the best, just like how Jun is.
Jun has always been good-looking, passionate and sincere. Those are just the few things Sho likes about him. That’s why he is proud when Jun openly said before that Sho is his idol. Even now, he still can’t believe such a wonderful person is admiring him before, and now, he can’t believe how he manage to hurt that same wonderful person again just because he couldn’t control himself once again.
It happens so fast. One moment, he is heading home to call it a night, and maybe skim through the newspapers he had for additional information he’ll be narrating when Monday comes. He is on his way to get a cab when he passes by their meeting room and finds Jun sitting there alone. Judging how serious Jun’s posture is, hunching whatever it is in the table, Sho knows it is something important.
Without a second thought, he can’t help but pry. That’s when he learns that is Jun staying behind to recheck everything so that their upcoming concert will be flawless. It’s Kokuritsu we’re talking about after all and that means a lot to all of them. The next thing he knows is staying behind too, giving whatever assistance he can offer, and then there’s that connection between them again as their conversation proceeds in a comfortable manner.
It’s feels good when it’s like this. There’s no awkwardness or anything. They just talk about things they think about the upcoming concerts and activities. It isn’t personal but everything just feels normal like nothing has changed between them.
Sho likes to maintain that feeling, so that they can continue on without tension or anything anymore, but in the end, Sho finds himself staring at Jun, in a way he has avoided all this time.
“Stunning.” Sho thinks.
The moment when Jun turns around to face him, Sho knows Jun has caught him in the act, still he doesn’t pull way. Neither does Jun. No one says another word, just staring at each other, and this will be the first time they actually stare at each other for years.
Sho doesn’t falter even if he knows Jun is leaning in, feels the latter’s lips brushing against his. He stiffs at that touch of their lips, but he doesn’t move and just waits. When Jun gives another peck, Sho loses all restrains he has in himself and deepens the kiss their lips connected again. He can only snap out of it a minute later to realize where they are and what they are doing. “Not here…” he warns.
But it is too late already for him to stop. Rather than walking away and think that this never happened, he gathers their things in haste, giving no room for Jun to protest as he grabs the younger male’s hands and leads him to ride a cab after leaving the building.
It feels nostalgic as Sho remembers the night almost two years ago when Jun had brought him in the latter’s home. It is the time when Sho lets himself look at Jun without holding back. He remembers the softness of Jun’s skin under his palm as he gently and carefully touched him, the feel of Jun’s lips when he kisses it, but what remains vivid is when he let himself hold Jun, conveying how precious the latter is to him.
It’s all the same feelings that overwhelm him inside out and Sho just follows his instincts, follows what his heart is saying, and let out all those feelings he had kept inside all of those years.
He hears Jun moans his name, and it’s like music in his ears as Jun rides him in his bed. Jun kisses him like there’s no tomorrow, and he kisses back with so much passion because he knows there won’t be tomorrow. He just takes everything what he can because as selfish as it may sound, that’s all he can have, and he won’t ask for more after this.
As they both release, he feels Jun’s face against the junction between his neck and shoulder. It is damp, and no matter how Jun tries to hide it, Sho can still hear those muffled sobs. Still he doesn’t say anything. He just lays Jun in his back, gets up to get a wash cloth, and cleans him up because that’s all he can do for Jun for now.
After getting himself cleaned too, Sho joins Jun under the covers. Jun’s back is facing him, but he doesn’t mind. He just stares because to know Jun is in front of him is enough already. When he least expects it, Jun turns around, facing him.
He wants to reach out, have Jun’s skin in his grasps again, but all he can do is stare. His heart skips a beat when he sees Jun smiling at him. He can’t help but smile back before closing his eyes. He wants Jun’s smile to be the last thing he sees before he drifts to dreamland.
“Will you still love me till morning?”
He is almost half-asleep when he hears it. His heart weights heavier as each word comes of Jun’s mouth in a broken whisper. Whether Jun says it in his sleep or Jun is still awake, Sho doesn’t find out, keeping his eyes closed in spite of wanting to open it.
“Forever and ever,” is his wish. It is his answer to Jun’s question but he doesn’t say it out. He doesn’t even have the chance to because when he wakes up the next morning, Jun is gone already.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
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Author’s Notes:
Sorry guys for updating this only now. Aside from looking for a job, I quite find myself busy with some art stuff. (And if you are curious what I have been up to, you are welcome to go here, and check it yourselves. Enjoy!) I guess I got addicted again with watercolor and trying to improve my strokes. Anyways, I’m sorry too for not replying to your comments. I do love reading your comments, I just haven’t found a time yet to sit for long and reply to all of your lovely comments. Anyways, I do guarantee you that I’ll finish Click verse next week. That means, I’ll be posting both Part 3 next Saturday. I’m almost done with last part of ‘WYSLMTM?’, so it’s easier to translate it to Sho’s perspective. Hope you enjoy this too.
Bonus:
[Some spoiler for the 3rd part of WYSLMTM?]He doesn't flinch when there is a sudden movement, and he finds himself eye to eye with the newscaster, a hand is over his own above Sho's cheek. He just stares because Sho is staring back. No matter how hazy Sho looks while looking back at him, he can still see it, the spark in the eyes that Sho had before.
Once again, he is reminded again about that night when everything started, the very first time he gives his all when he was 22 and Sho was a year older, and that leaves him with one question, "Will you still love me till morning?"
Disclaimer: Big emphasis to the word "FANFICTION". The only things I own are ideas and the plot.
Fandom - Pairings: Arashi - Sakumoto
Rating: NC - 17
Genre: Non- AU, Angst, Romance
Length - Word Count: Short Story - 1481 words (Part 2)
Summary: “If he can wake up with this sight every morning, Sho has only one wish…"
Author's Notes: Second part in Sho’s perspective.
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For some reason, they have a mutual understanding that both of them needed a time out. Sho doesn’t know who started it, but when one backs off, the other naturally does too.
It isn’t like they aren’t friends anymore. Maybe their relationship has changed. It’s less contact unless it is work related. Sho makes sure that Ma-chan becomes Matsumoto-san, and things between them are kept professional. Sho doesn’t have any say on it, and it seems Jun doesn’t mind it, so all is well right?
In a way, the others don’t pry even if they know something have changed between him and Jun. Maybe it is better, but worried stares coming from Aiba and Ohno didn’t escape Sho’s attention especially when it is directed to their youngest member. It’s nothing compared to Nino’s unexplainable silence though.
Sho knows Nino. Despite hating each other’s guts earlier in their junior days, he acknowledges Nino’s great perception. Seeing Nino not making any comment regards to the obvious development makes him restless.
Still, he doesn’t ask Nino about it because he doesn’t know whether he’ll like what Nino has to say in this matter. Everything seems to be in the past now, and they are growing up in their own ways anyways.
Sho has outgrown his little fuse when he thought everyone is his enemy and he has the burden of the world. Now, he can say he is calm and collected, knowing how to laugh at his own mistakes and to just keep on going. On the other hand, Jun has outgrown his phase when he is like a lost puppy, awkward and gangly. He stands on his own ground, proud, and confident. Yet as they grow up, the distance grows too.
----------
It takes more or less two years before Sho gets used to it, and that being alone with Jun isn’t that awkward. They’re the two level-headed members out of Arashi, making them to connect in ways other might not understand. Jun asks him when it comes to their concert production, if they can do this, or do that. But sometimes, Sho still gets to do things that Jun has thought about, but he never got consulted about it. It isn’t that he is angry when Jun does that, but then it involves being suspended high in the air, and he entirely doesn’t agree with that (and Sho will think maybe this is some sort of Jun’s revenge on him). Still, Sho waits for Jun, does his best in giving suggestion, and adding things that will be useful as they try to bring happiness to their thousands of fans.
It also comes naturally that every time Jun brings a bento in their green room, the younger male shares it with him. It is a given that he loves trying different gourmets and food, and that makes him more thankful because Jun is trusting his opinions and taste palette when it comes to improving the other male’s cooking despite knowing he fails so much when it comes to cooking.
Sho doesn’t admit it but he is overwhelmed with how much Jun trusts him with such things knowing how passionate Jun can be when he is into something. But really, all Sho can say is praises because Jun’s cooking is always the best, just like how Jun is.
Jun has always been good-looking, passionate and sincere. Those are just the few things Sho likes about him. That’s why he is proud when Jun openly said before that Sho is his idol. Even now, he still can’t believe such a wonderful person is admiring him before, and now, he can’t believe how he manage to hurt that same wonderful person again just because he couldn’t control himself once again.
It happens so fast. One moment, he is heading home to call it a night, and maybe skim through the newspapers he had for additional information he’ll be narrating when Monday comes. He is on his way to get a cab when he passes by their meeting room and finds Jun sitting there alone. Judging how serious Jun’s posture is, hunching whatever it is in the table, Sho knows it is something important.
Without a second thought, he can’t help but pry. That’s when he learns that is Jun staying behind to recheck everything so that their upcoming concert will be flawless. It’s Kokuritsu we’re talking about after all and that means a lot to all of them. The next thing he knows is staying behind too, giving whatever assistance he can offer, and then there’s that connection between them again as their conversation proceeds in a comfortable manner.
It’s feels good when it’s like this. There’s no awkwardness or anything. They just talk about things they think about the upcoming concerts and activities. It isn’t personal but everything just feels normal like nothing has changed between them.
Sho likes to maintain that feeling, so that they can continue on without tension or anything anymore, but in the end, Sho finds himself staring at Jun, in a way he has avoided all this time.
“Stunning.” Sho thinks.
The moment when Jun turns around to face him, Sho knows Jun has caught him in the act, still he doesn’t pull way. Neither does Jun. No one says another word, just staring at each other, and this will be the first time they actually stare at each other for years.
Sho doesn’t falter even if he knows Jun is leaning in, feels the latter’s lips brushing against his. He stiffs at that touch of their lips, but he doesn’t move and just waits. When Jun gives another peck, Sho loses all restrains he has in himself and deepens the kiss their lips connected again. He can only snap out of it a minute later to realize where they are and what they are doing. “Not here…” he warns.
But it is too late already for him to stop. Rather than walking away and think that this never happened, he gathers their things in haste, giving no room for Jun to protest as he grabs the younger male’s hands and leads him to ride a cab after leaving the building.
It feels nostalgic as Sho remembers the night almost two years ago when Jun had brought him in the latter’s home. It is the time when Sho lets himself look at Jun without holding back. He remembers the softness of Jun’s skin under his palm as he gently and carefully touched him, the feel of Jun’s lips when he kisses it, but what remains vivid is when he let himself hold Jun, conveying how precious the latter is to him.
It’s all the same feelings that overwhelm him inside out and Sho just follows his instincts, follows what his heart is saying, and let out all those feelings he had kept inside all of those years.
He hears Jun moans his name, and it’s like music in his ears as Jun rides him in his bed. Jun kisses him like there’s no tomorrow, and he kisses back with so much passion because he knows there won’t be tomorrow. He just takes everything what he can because as selfish as it may sound, that’s all he can have, and he won’t ask for more after this.
As they both release, he feels Jun’s face against the junction between his neck and shoulder. It is damp, and no matter how Jun tries to hide it, Sho can still hear those muffled sobs. Still he doesn’t say anything. He just lays Jun in his back, gets up to get a wash cloth, and cleans him up because that’s all he can do for Jun for now.
After getting himself cleaned too, Sho joins Jun under the covers. Jun’s back is facing him, but he doesn’t mind. He just stares because to know Jun is in front of him is enough already. When he least expects it, Jun turns around, facing him.
He wants to reach out, have Jun’s skin in his grasps again, but all he can do is stare. His heart skips a beat when he sees Jun smiling at him. He can’t help but smile back before closing his eyes. He wants Jun’s smile to be the last thing he sees before he drifts to dreamland.
“Will you still love me till morning?”
He is almost half-asleep when he hears it. His heart weights heavier as each word comes of Jun’s mouth in a broken whisper. Whether Jun says it in his sleep or Jun is still awake, Sho doesn’t find out, keeping his eyes closed in spite of wanting to open it.
“Forever and ever,” is his wish. It is his answer to Jun’s question but he doesn’t say it out. He doesn’t even have the chance to because when he wakes up the next morning, Jun is gone already.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
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Author’s Notes:
Sorry guys for updating this only now. Aside from looking for a job, I quite find myself busy with some art stuff. (And if you are curious what I have been up to, you are welcome to go here, and check it yourselves. Enjoy!) I guess I got addicted again with watercolor and trying to improve my strokes. Anyways, I’m sorry too for not replying to your comments. I do love reading your comments, I just haven’t found a time yet to sit for long and reply to all of your lovely comments. Anyways, I do guarantee you that I’ll finish Click verse next week. That means, I’ll be posting both Part 3 next Saturday. I’m almost done with last part of ‘WYSLMTM?’, so it’s easier to translate it to Sho’s perspective. Hope you enjoy this too.
Bonus:
[Some spoiler for the 3rd part of WYSLMTM?]He doesn't flinch when there is a sudden movement, and he finds himself eye to eye with the newscaster, a hand is over his own above Sho's cheek. He just stares because Sho is staring back. No matter how hazy Sho looks while looking back at him, he can still see it, the spark in the eyes that Sho had before.
Once again, he is reminded again about that night when everything started, the very first time he gives his all when he was 22 and Sho was a year older, and that leaves him with one question, "Will you still love me till morning?"