Will You Still Love Me Till Morning?
Title: Will You Still Love Me Till Morning?
Disclaimer: Big emphasis to the word "FANFICTION". The only things I own are ideas and the plot.
Fandom - Pairings: Arashi - Sakumoto
Rating: NC - 17
Genre: Non- AU, Angst, Romance
Length - Word Count: Short Story - 1 674 words (Part 2)
Summary: “With that one question, Jun had bore everything, that yes, he was in love with Sho…”
Author's Notes: If this keeps up, this will be a chaptered fic. And to think this will have three versions. Neh akhikaru?
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For some reason, they have a mutual understanding that both of them needed a time out. Jun doesn't know who started it, but when one backs off, the other naturally does too.
It isn't like they aren't friends anymore. Maybe their relationship has changed. It's less contact unless it's work related, Ma-chan turned Matsumoto-san, and things between them is kept professional. Jun doesn't mind one bit, and it seems Sho doesn't have any say for that matter too, so, all is well right?
In a way, the others don’t pry even if they know something have changed between him and Sho. Maybe its better, but worried stares coming from Aiba and Ohno didn't escape Jun's attention. It's nothing compared to Nino's unexplainable silence though.
Jun knows Nino is the most perceptive out of the three but the gamer doesn't show anything to them. There isn't a clue what Nino is thinking, and it makes him restless. If anything, Nino is the one who can read them like an open book.
In the end, he just gives up and let it be because everyone is growing up in their own ways anyways.
Jun has outgrew his phase when he is like a lost puppy, awkward and gangly. Now he stands on his own ground, proud and confident. On the other hand, Sho has outgrew his little fuse when he thought everyone is his enemy and he has the burden of the world. Now he is calm and collected, knowing how to laugh at his own mistakes and to just keep on going. Yet as they grow up, the distance grows too.
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It takes more or less two years before Jun can say that being alone with Sho isn't that awkward. They're the two level-headed members out of Arashi, making them to connect in ways others might not understand. Jun always asks Sho when it comes to their concert production, if they can do this or do that. Though he doesn't ask if they can do stuff that goes in the lines of being suspended in the air because Sho will strongly disagree (and even if Jun doesn't admit it, it's kind of a good revenge from his part). Sho, in response, waits for him and does his best in giving suggestions, adding things that will be useful as they try to bring happiness to their thousands of fans.
It also comes naturally that every time Jun brings a bento in their green room, he shares it with Sho. Knowing about how Sho likes to try different gourmets and food, he trusts Sho to be honest in telling him what lacks in his cooking.
Jun doesn't admit though that his heart is thumping of nervousness every time he tells Sho that he tried a different recipe, and he wants to know what Sho thinks about it. It's the same when Sho gives him dozens of praises afterwards, but Jun doesn't want to label it because he knows he's entering again the zone he doesn't want to. But in all honesty, it seems he can't keep himself out of it.
Sho has always been good looking, intelligent and hardworking. Those are just the few things Jun likes about him. It is no wonder he openly said before that he is Sho's number one fan. It seems his admiration for the newscaster hasn't really faltered. It just grows more, and it develops back to that thing Jun wants to avoid at all costs.
But Jun loses it all again, the ground for himself because he's falling again, falling in all the more. It is proven when it's one of the nights when Sho is too good for Jun's sake.
Jun intently stays behind because he need to recheck everything before they move on to rehearsals and stuff at a fast pace. A lot of things have been lined-up for the whole year and they need to keep this pace to continue the hype.
Of course, it isn't that Jun is complaining, or the other members aren't much of a help. Everyone is great, contributing in their own ways but there are times that it's been too much for Jun to handle too.
"Hey, you still here?"
Jun jerks up from his sit when he heard his voice. He turns around to face the door and finds Sho sticking in his head in the gap of the door and its frame.
Jun doesn't know how to react the moment. He is expecting that the other members have gone home already, but Sho is still there and he isn’t ready for that.
"Uhm, yeah." He manages to say before turning around. He doesn't trust himself in facing Sho now when everything is too hazy in his mind. And then, there's that charming smile once again and Jun can feel his heart flipping because seriously, even if Jun had seen it numerous times, whether it is for cameras or not, it is ten times different when they are in this kind of situation, when they are alone like this.
Jun can feel and hear his frantic heartbeat knowing Sho lets himself in. He is sure Sho will hear it too the moment the older male is within five meters from him. It doesn't help that he can clearly hear the sound of Sho's footsteps echoing in the four walls of the meeting room, making him fidgety in his seat.
"You know, there's still tomorrow for that Matsumoto-kun." Sho says after peeping over Jun's shoulder to know what the youngest member is up too.
Jun mentally congratulates himself because he managed to calm himself before Sho got too close or else he might place the older male in a uncomfortable situation.
"Yeah, I know but still..." He protests, quite amused to the fact that he can still act like it's nothing despite how everything inside of him is in turmoil.
"You're overdoing it." Sho reminds him and that may be true but that just how he is. Sho should have known better.
"Same goes to you." Jun retorts upon noticing stacks of newspaper peeking outside of Sho's bag.
Sho chuckles at that, raising his hands in mock surrender, but he doesn't say anything anymore. He just pulls a chair beside Jun, sits there and looks at Jun's notes about their upcoming concert. It's Kokuritsu we are talking about after all and that means a lot. Somehow, there's connection between them again as they talk in a comfortable manner.
It feels good when it's like this. There's no awkwardness or anything. They just talk about things they think about the upcoming concerts and activities. It isn't anything personal but everything just feels normal like nothing has changed between them.
"Yeah, I can do this." Jun thinks.
But when he turns his head around, he isn't ready yet with how close Sho's face is, staring at him with that ever gentle smile, and once again, he is reminded how beautiful Sho's eyes has always been.
No one says another word. No one pulls away. They are just staring at each other and this will be the first time they actually stare at each other for years.
And this time, Jun gives in.
Jun closes his eyes and leans in, brushing his lips against Sho. He feels Sho stiffens but he doesn't back out and gives another peck. It is Sho who deepens the kiss the next time their lips connected.
"Not here..." Sho pulls away before things get out of hand, but it's just enough space where Jun can still feel Sho's breath against his face. Despite the disappointment, Jun's complies as he realizes where they are and what they are doing. He nods and follows Sho as the older male gathers their things in haste, giving no room for Jun to protest when Sho grabs his hand and leads him to ride a cab after leaving the building.
It feels nostalgic as Jun remembers that night almost two years ago when he brought Sho to his parents' home, when Sho locked his eyes only to him, seeing all of him. He remembers how Sho touched him so gently and careful, and when Sho kissed him sweetly and full of warmth. But what remains vivid in his memory is when Sho held him, letting him feel like he is the most precious thing in the world.
It's all the same feelings that overwhelms him inside out and Jun lets it all out, all the frustrations, all the tension, and also all those feelings he had kept inside all of those years.
He moans Sho's name without restrictions, not caring whether Sho's neighbors will hear him as he rides Sho in his bed. He kisses him like there's no tomorrow, and maybe there isn't. As they both release, Jun hides his faces in the junction between Sho's neck and shoulder, trying to muffle his sobs.
He doesn't know whether Sho hears him or not, but he is thankful that the older male doesn't say anything. Sho just lays him in his back, gets up to get a wash cloth, and cleans them up before joining him under the covers.
His back is facing Sho, but he can feel the older male's eyes on him. With a deep breath, he turns around and meets Sho's eyes in the darkness of the room. He can't clearly see him but he can make out shapes in front of him. There is Sho's nose, his plump lips, and then there's Sho's eyes still staring at him.
He wants to ask him, tells him to stop and don't look at him, but he doesn't and stares back instead, smiling as Sho gives him a smile back before closing his eyes to go to sleep.
Jun can pretend for tonight, just for tonight.
"Will you still love me till morning?" Jun whispers because he can still pretend that Sho will answer, knowing Sho can't and never will answer it because the next morning Sho wakes up, Jun is gone already.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
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Author's Notes:
And so, this is un-beta and I'm posting this through my phone. Please forgive me. I'll be back as soon as I can. I can't do much now since I'm mostly at the wake of my uncle but I'm hoping you still like this update. Yes, you've read right. This fic will have three version. This version is from Jun's perpective. There will also be another from Sho's perspective and an AU version (the original one). Either I'm finishing this till part 3 or this will turn into a short story. That's all.
P.S. if you do have a time to like an entry in facebook, I hope you'll do me a favor in liking my entry for Design-A-Mascot contest. Just click here and like. Please and thank you. I really appreciate it.
Edited: I've edited this now. Still comtemplating whether this will end at Part 3 or more?
Disclaimer: Big emphasis to the word "FANFICTION". The only things I own are ideas and the plot.
Fandom - Pairings: Arashi - Sakumoto
Rating: NC - 17
Genre: Non- AU, Angst, Romance
Length - Word Count: Short Story - 1 674 words (Part 2)
Summary: “With that one question, Jun had bore everything, that yes, he was in love with Sho…”
Author's Notes: If this keeps up, this will be a chaptered fic. And to think this will have three versions. Neh akhikaru?
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For some reason, they have a mutual understanding that both of them needed a time out. Jun doesn't know who started it, but when one backs off, the other naturally does too.
It isn't like they aren't friends anymore. Maybe their relationship has changed. It's less contact unless it's work related, Ma-chan turned Matsumoto-san, and things between them is kept professional. Jun doesn't mind one bit, and it seems Sho doesn't have any say for that matter too, so, all is well right?
In a way, the others don’t pry even if they know something have changed between him and Sho. Maybe its better, but worried stares coming from Aiba and Ohno didn't escape Jun's attention. It's nothing compared to Nino's unexplainable silence though.
Jun knows Nino is the most perceptive out of the three but the gamer doesn't show anything to them. There isn't a clue what Nino is thinking, and it makes him restless. If anything, Nino is the one who can read them like an open book.
In the end, he just gives up and let it be because everyone is growing up in their own ways anyways.
Jun has outgrew his phase when he is like a lost puppy, awkward and gangly. Now he stands on his own ground, proud and confident. On the other hand, Sho has outgrew his little fuse when he thought everyone is his enemy and he has the burden of the world. Now he is calm and collected, knowing how to laugh at his own mistakes and to just keep on going. Yet as they grow up, the distance grows too.
----------
It takes more or less two years before Jun can say that being alone with Sho isn't that awkward. They're the two level-headed members out of Arashi, making them to connect in ways others might not understand. Jun always asks Sho when it comes to their concert production, if they can do this or do that. Though he doesn't ask if they can do stuff that goes in the lines of being suspended in the air because Sho will strongly disagree (and even if Jun doesn't admit it, it's kind of a good revenge from his part). Sho, in response, waits for him and does his best in giving suggestions, adding things that will be useful as they try to bring happiness to their thousands of fans.
It also comes naturally that every time Jun brings a bento in their green room, he shares it with Sho. Knowing about how Sho likes to try different gourmets and food, he trusts Sho to be honest in telling him what lacks in his cooking.
Jun doesn't admit though that his heart is thumping of nervousness every time he tells Sho that he tried a different recipe, and he wants to know what Sho thinks about it. It's the same when Sho gives him dozens of praises afterwards, but Jun doesn't want to label it because he knows he's entering again the zone he doesn't want to. But in all honesty, it seems he can't keep himself out of it.
Sho has always been good looking, intelligent and hardworking. Those are just the few things Jun likes about him. It is no wonder he openly said before that he is Sho's number one fan. It seems his admiration for the newscaster hasn't really faltered. It just grows more, and it develops back to that thing Jun wants to avoid at all costs.
But Jun loses it all again, the ground for himself because he's falling again, falling in all the more. It is proven when it's one of the nights when Sho is too good for Jun's sake.
Jun intently stays behind because he need to recheck everything before they move on to rehearsals and stuff at a fast pace. A lot of things have been lined-up for the whole year and they need to keep this pace to continue the hype.
Of course, it isn't that Jun is complaining, or the other members aren't much of a help. Everyone is great, contributing in their own ways but there are times that it's been too much for Jun to handle too.
"Hey, you still here?"
Jun jerks up from his sit when he heard his voice. He turns around to face the door and finds Sho sticking in his head in the gap of the door and its frame.
Jun doesn't know how to react the moment. He is expecting that the other members have gone home already, but Sho is still there and he isn’t ready for that.
"Uhm, yeah." He manages to say before turning around. He doesn't trust himself in facing Sho now when everything is too hazy in his mind. And then, there's that charming smile once again and Jun can feel his heart flipping because seriously, even if Jun had seen it numerous times, whether it is for cameras or not, it is ten times different when they are in this kind of situation, when they are alone like this.
Jun can feel and hear his frantic heartbeat knowing Sho lets himself in. He is sure Sho will hear it too the moment the older male is within five meters from him. It doesn't help that he can clearly hear the sound of Sho's footsteps echoing in the four walls of the meeting room, making him fidgety in his seat.
"You know, there's still tomorrow for that Matsumoto-kun." Sho says after peeping over Jun's shoulder to know what the youngest member is up too.
Jun mentally congratulates himself because he managed to calm himself before Sho got too close or else he might place the older male in a uncomfortable situation.
"Yeah, I know but still..." He protests, quite amused to the fact that he can still act like it's nothing despite how everything inside of him is in turmoil.
"You're overdoing it." Sho reminds him and that may be true but that just how he is. Sho should have known better.
"Same goes to you." Jun retorts upon noticing stacks of newspaper peeking outside of Sho's bag.
Sho chuckles at that, raising his hands in mock surrender, but he doesn't say anything anymore. He just pulls a chair beside Jun, sits there and looks at Jun's notes about their upcoming concert. It's Kokuritsu we are talking about after all and that means a lot. Somehow, there's connection between them again as they talk in a comfortable manner.
It feels good when it's like this. There's no awkwardness or anything. They just talk about things they think about the upcoming concerts and activities. It isn't anything personal but everything just feels normal like nothing has changed between them.
"Yeah, I can do this." Jun thinks.
But when he turns his head around, he isn't ready yet with how close Sho's face is, staring at him with that ever gentle smile, and once again, he is reminded how beautiful Sho's eyes has always been.
No one says another word. No one pulls away. They are just staring at each other and this will be the first time they actually stare at each other for years.
And this time, Jun gives in.
Jun closes his eyes and leans in, brushing his lips against Sho. He feels Sho stiffens but he doesn't back out and gives another peck. It is Sho who deepens the kiss the next time their lips connected.
"Not here..." Sho pulls away before things get out of hand, but it's just enough space where Jun can still feel Sho's breath against his face. Despite the disappointment, Jun's complies as he realizes where they are and what they are doing. He nods and follows Sho as the older male gathers their things in haste, giving no room for Jun to protest when Sho grabs his hand and leads him to ride a cab after leaving the building.
It feels nostalgic as Jun remembers that night almost two years ago when he brought Sho to his parents' home, when Sho locked his eyes only to him, seeing all of him. He remembers how Sho touched him so gently and careful, and when Sho kissed him sweetly and full of warmth. But what remains vivid in his memory is when Sho held him, letting him feel like he is the most precious thing in the world.
It's all the same feelings that overwhelms him inside out and Jun lets it all out, all the frustrations, all the tension, and also all those feelings he had kept inside all of those years.
He moans Sho's name without restrictions, not caring whether Sho's neighbors will hear him as he rides Sho in his bed. He kisses him like there's no tomorrow, and maybe there isn't. As they both release, Jun hides his faces in the junction between Sho's neck and shoulder, trying to muffle his sobs.
He doesn't know whether Sho hears him or not, but he is thankful that the older male doesn't say anything. Sho just lays him in his back, gets up to get a wash cloth, and cleans them up before joining him under the covers.
His back is facing Sho, but he can feel the older male's eyes on him. With a deep breath, he turns around and meets Sho's eyes in the darkness of the room. He can't clearly see him but he can make out shapes in front of him. There is Sho's nose, his plump lips, and then there's Sho's eyes still staring at him.
He wants to ask him, tells him to stop and don't look at him, but he doesn't and stares back instead, smiling as Sho gives him a smile back before closing his eyes to go to sleep.
Jun can pretend for tonight, just for tonight.
"Will you still love me till morning?" Jun whispers because he can still pretend that Sho will answer, knowing Sho can't and never will answer it because the next morning Sho wakes up, Jun is gone already.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
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Author's Notes:
And so, this is un-beta and I'm posting this through my phone. Please forgive me. I'll be back as soon as I can. I can't do much now since I'm mostly at the wake of my uncle but I'm hoping you still like this update. Yes, you've read right. This fic will have three version. This version is from Jun's perpective. There will also be another from Sho's perspective and an AU version (the original one). Either I'm finishing this till part 3 or this will turn into a short story. That's all.
P.S. if you do have a time to like an entry in facebook, I hope you'll do me a favor in liking my entry for Design-A-Mascot contest. Just click here and like. Please and thank you. I really appreciate it.
Edited: I've edited this now. Still comtemplating whether this will end at Part 3 or more?