It's been a while so why not.
The semester is close to being done, only 3 weeks left and i'm thankful. I love learning new knowledge and having challenges for myself in the school enviroment, but... however, my mind needs a break from the two classes i'm in now (Spanish 2 and Philosophy, Intro to Ethics). They're both fun classes that bring entriguing thoughts and wonders but i can only take so much learning.
During the short Easter break i grew attached to not doing homework during the weekend/week, something i wasn't use to doing because i've been studying every weekend and week day since school has started. Last week, the wek after our short break, i couldn't get myself to study like i wanted too. Not because i couldn't consentrate but more of the fact that i just wanted to rest and not consantly worry myself that if i don't study and keep studying i'll fail or do bad like i did years ago when i first started college. Oh, the heavy load of past grief/regret.
I'll get over it. ;) Because i just needed some time apart from homework and the home enviornment and just needed some good laughs with a friend that i havent had in such a long while. Mike and I hung out last night by getting some dinner and shopping at Mejiers for Tennis Wrackets and balls. lol Oddly enough, we're determinded to play Tennis this summer at random courts even if him and i are skeptical on either of us playing well. But we bumped into someone Mike knew years ago that he met through his ex-gf/my Cuz Katie, at Meijers who knows how to play tennis-well, her friend does and we were all interested in having all of us play together one day while her friend taught us how to play Tennis. I remember the basics of the two different ways to serve but Mike and i don't know anything about how to score points when it comes to all the different lines on the court. *shrugs* It doesnt bug me to not know as long as him and i can hit the ball back and forth without stopping or killing eachother by accidentally hitting one another with the ball-which i do see happening when it comes to him and I...being competative and all.
Katie, if you're reading this...i don't remember the girls name off hand, i think it starts with a C but she apparently was in Guard. She's older and has natural red hair...and lives on 19 mile and something...if that helps any. ha Cause that's all i got. Don't know if you knew her well or not.
So, i'm starting to come back out into the world again but...during that process I will be cranky (the next 3 weeks) and easily tired because of finals and trying to get organization done at work and the kids projects/crafts ready for the week before the specific day/week we're doing it. I never noticed how much work/time it takes to get all that organization with the crafts, projects, toy cleaning, and things for the kids to learn for that month was till Julie left. She won't be back till May 29th or the second week of June, depending on if she takes 6 weeks off or 8 weeks. I'm hoping it's the 8 weeks-not only for the extra cash but i'm also curious to see how much more motivated/more i would get done with more time on my hands when i dont have school studying in my way. During the weekends i have more time to do work related stuff (depending on the homework) but during the week i really have no time and have to play it off by ear-which i dispise because then either the projects dont get started or not everything is all together. I can be kind-of a perfectionist...there's probably a better word for me to use...but i like to do a good job and not half ass the learning projects for the kids because to me...it;s something very important and not a waste of my time or there's. They aren't just there to be watched but also to taught and i would like to be one of those teacher's that actually gets them to learn and want to learn more, then not learn at all/be bored, ya know?
It's cool to teach kids but i'm still not interested in becoming a teacher. I'm not good at teaching the kids science, math, social studies. lol This is judging on experience with past homework with the kids, especially Math. yeah, its elementary Math but i count with my fingers and sometimes even forget my times tables. That's a Learning Disability for ya but i still help them out and try to make it fun.
The kids find it weird that i count with my fingers sometimes, not being use to seeing adults do it, figuring everyone who grows up becomes intelligent in everything, till i explained to them of my trouble in learning-how i'm slower then others but still intelligent in subjects that i'm not slow in. I gave details of how iw as taught in Elementary, Middle School and High school by Special Education teachers and basically without their help, i wouldn't of learned how to read quicker, speak clearly, spell correctly, etc. I also gave them details of my Learning Disability and others. But one of the main things i really wanted them to know is not to tease someone who is slower in learning because i grew up being teased for it in elementary, middle and high school. One time most of the kids were out fo the blue starting to use words they weren't suppose to be saying, calling each other names and amking fun of kids who were slower, more sensitive, shy, etc, and it just got to the point were almost two weeks went by of this going on, them not listening to our warnings, that i couldn't take it anymore so i had them ALL (19-20 kids that day) sit down on the carpet and listen to what i had to say. This is when i gave a repeat speech of the rules in the room, but what i brought up new was giving personal examples of my past. Not all kids knew about my L.D. so i told them all and explained it again, then i mentioned that i could hear some of the kids making fun of other kids at the childcare who are slower in learning or just call other kids names like "stupid" or "retard" because they were angry or thought it was funny. So, i explained how words could/can affect people internally, that when i was younger i was constantly teased to the point where i cried and thought no one liked me and that i was even called a retard. After explaining my past, the kids were quite shocked but took interest and consideration. After that, it's been pretty good. See, i like teaching stuff like that and discussing why the child is upset or sad and i do enjoy teaching the kids art but...others dont interest me as much.
Okay, now i'm babbling.
I've been e-mailing certain friends and IMing others to start getting better contact again but dont get your hopes up that i might call because i'm not a big phone person-least not when school is in session. *shrugs* That's just how i've always been.
Starting this Monday i'll be working more hours. Work wants me to work as much as i can because Julie is gone and of course they know i'm willing too. Tuesday, Thursdays and Fridays will be rushing around because once i'm done with school stuff i have to leave straight for work, no time to stop at home to make a lunch or do errands. I'll have to start making lunch at nights. Fine with me....as long as i rememeber. ha
Oh! I signed up for a summer class that starts in June even if i still don't know what i'm doing this summer work wise. I'm still crossing my fingers that i'll get more hours then i usually have when Julie works ( me having shcool) so i can save more dinero. If i can't or i get more hours and i still have time to take that summer class, then i will. But i still have to wait till the end of this semester to find out if i can Transfer to Oakland Unv. Because i would rather take the culture class during the summer...if it's even a option. I don't even know yet how Oakland does their stuff.
Mope, i say. I just want to know my answers. :P
Time for some cereal and then homework.
Hasta Luego and all that Jazz.
During the short Easter break i grew attached to not doing homework during the weekend/week, something i wasn't use to doing because i've been studying every weekend and week day since school has started. Last week, the wek after our short break, i couldn't get myself to study like i wanted too. Not because i couldn't consentrate but more of the fact that i just wanted to rest and not consantly worry myself that if i don't study and keep studying i'll fail or do bad like i did years ago when i first started college. Oh, the heavy load of past grief/regret.
I'll get over it. ;) Because i just needed some time apart from homework and the home enviornment and just needed some good laughs with a friend that i havent had in such a long while. Mike and I hung out last night by getting some dinner and shopping at Mejiers for Tennis Wrackets and balls. lol Oddly enough, we're determinded to play Tennis this summer at random courts even if him and i are skeptical on either of us playing well. But we bumped into someone Mike knew years ago that he met through his ex-gf/my Cuz Katie, at Meijers who knows how to play tennis-well, her friend does and we were all interested in having all of us play together one day while her friend taught us how to play Tennis. I remember the basics of the two different ways to serve but Mike and i don't know anything about how to score points when it comes to all the different lines on the court. *shrugs* It doesnt bug me to not know as long as him and i can hit the ball back and forth without stopping or killing eachother by accidentally hitting one another with the ball-which i do see happening when it comes to him and I...being competative and all.
Katie, if you're reading this...i don't remember the girls name off hand, i think it starts with a C but she apparently was in Guard. She's older and has natural red hair...and lives on 19 mile and something...if that helps any. ha Cause that's all i got. Don't know if you knew her well or not.
So, i'm starting to come back out into the world again but...during that process I will be cranky (the next 3 weeks) and easily tired because of finals and trying to get organization done at work and the kids projects/crafts ready for the week before the specific day/week we're doing it. I never noticed how much work/time it takes to get all that organization with the crafts, projects, toy cleaning, and things for the kids to learn for that month was till Julie left. She won't be back till May 29th or the second week of June, depending on if she takes 6 weeks off or 8 weeks. I'm hoping it's the 8 weeks-not only for the extra cash but i'm also curious to see how much more motivated/more i would get done with more time on my hands when i dont have school studying in my way. During the weekends i have more time to do work related stuff (depending on the homework) but during the week i really have no time and have to play it off by ear-which i dispise because then either the projects dont get started or not everything is all together. I can be kind-of a perfectionist...there's probably a better word for me to use...but i like to do a good job and not half ass the learning projects for the kids because to me...it;s something very important and not a waste of my time or there's. They aren't just there to be watched but also to taught and i would like to be one of those teacher's that actually gets them to learn and want to learn more, then not learn at all/be bored, ya know?
It's cool to teach kids but i'm still not interested in becoming a teacher. I'm not good at teaching the kids science, math, social studies. lol This is judging on experience with past homework with the kids, especially Math. yeah, its elementary Math but i count with my fingers and sometimes even forget my times tables. That's a Learning Disability for ya but i still help them out and try to make it fun.
The kids find it weird that i count with my fingers sometimes, not being use to seeing adults do it, figuring everyone who grows up becomes intelligent in everything, till i explained to them of my trouble in learning-how i'm slower then others but still intelligent in subjects that i'm not slow in. I gave details of how iw as taught in Elementary, Middle School and High school by Special Education teachers and basically without their help, i wouldn't of learned how to read quicker, speak clearly, spell correctly, etc. I also gave them details of my Learning Disability and others. But one of the main things i really wanted them to know is not to tease someone who is slower in learning because i grew up being teased for it in elementary, middle and high school. One time most of the kids were out fo the blue starting to use words they weren't suppose to be saying, calling each other names and amking fun of kids who were slower, more sensitive, shy, etc, and it just got to the point were almost two weeks went by of this going on, them not listening to our warnings, that i couldn't take it anymore so i had them ALL (19-20 kids that day) sit down on the carpet and listen to what i had to say. This is when i gave a repeat speech of the rules in the room, but what i brought up new was giving personal examples of my past. Not all kids knew about my L.D. so i told them all and explained it again, then i mentioned that i could hear some of the kids making fun of other kids at the childcare who are slower in learning or just call other kids names like "stupid" or "retard" because they were angry or thought it was funny. So, i explained how words could/can affect people internally, that when i was younger i was constantly teased to the point where i cried and thought no one liked me and that i was even called a retard. After explaining my past, the kids were quite shocked but took interest and consideration. After that, it's been pretty good. See, i like teaching stuff like that and discussing why the child is upset or sad and i do enjoy teaching the kids art but...others dont interest me as much.
Okay, now i'm babbling.
I've been e-mailing certain friends and IMing others to start getting better contact again but dont get your hopes up that i might call because i'm not a big phone person-least not when school is in session. *shrugs* That's just how i've always been.
Starting this Monday i'll be working more hours. Work wants me to work as much as i can because Julie is gone and of course they know i'm willing too. Tuesday, Thursdays and Fridays will be rushing around because once i'm done with school stuff i have to leave straight for work, no time to stop at home to make a lunch or do errands. I'll have to start making lunch at nights. Fine with me....as long as i rememeber. ha
Oh! I signed up for a summer class that starts in June even if i still don't know what i'm doing this summer work wise. I'm still crossing my fingers that i'll get more hours then i usually have when Julie works ( me having shcool) so i can save more dinero. If i can't or i get more hours and i still have time to take that summer class, then i will. But i still have to wait till the end of this semester to find out if i can Transfer to Oakland Unv. Because i would rather take the culture class during the summer...if it's even a option. I don't even know yet how Oakland does their stuff.
Mope, i say. I just want to know my answers. :P
Time for some cereal and then homework.
Hasta Luego and all that Jazz.