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[silverchocolate]

i wish i could go back. avoid the hurt altogether. what's the point if it was going to end like this. every day i've been getting better about it, but tonight it all came flooding back. i'm trying the best that i possibly can to get over him but i can't. every time i turn around there's another reminder which i can't ignore. i keep telling myself that he's not worth even thinking about anymore but i can't help it. everytime i turn around there he is, in some shape or form. but what hurts most is that he doesn't even seem to care. about anything. it would just be so much easier if i understand his reasoning. i know there's got to be more to it than what he told me, and it kills me that i don't know. all i want is the truth, that's all i ask. but of course i'm never going to get that. for once i thought i met somebody different, but i was obviously wrong. how could he do this???

i'm sorry guys for this redundant and boring post. i might have had too much wine to drink tonight. whatever, it doesn't matter anyway. goodnight everybody.