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and once again my family tries to blackmail me... i got an email from my grandma, saying that if i dont come back in january, they wld give away my pets and cancel the contract for my flat so i wldve nothing when i come back. and once again: IM NOT GOING BACK BEFORE MARCH! and IF i come back and see that they gave away my pets, im gonna turn around and go streight back to england! for fucks sake!
i knew there was something gonna come and ruin my perfect christmas. this was the best christmas i ever had... i just love the ppl here... they accept me the way i am, they dont try to change me, they try to understand me... my family did NOTHING of all that... im happy here, my friends are here, i love the country, im far away from my family who destroys me with time... and still they try to do it even tho im far away... im already afraid of going back becoz i know im gonna fall back in that deep black hole, where im sitting every night in my damn flat and cry. i dont wanna go back! i just wanna be happy for once. and if thats selfish, I'M SORRY.
I wish marty and olly were here right now.
i knew there was something gonna come and ruin my perfect christmas. this was the best christmas i ever had... i just love the ppl here... they accept me the way i am, they dont try to change me, they try to understand me... my family did NOTHING of all that... im happy here, my friends are here, i love the country, im far away from my family who destroys me with time... and still they try to do it even tho im far away... im already afraid of going back becoz i know im gonna fall back in that deep black hole, where im sitting every night in my damn flat and cry. i dont wanna go back! i just wanna be happy for once. and if thats selfish, I'M SORRY.
I wish marty and olly were here right now.