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Monday, November 17, 2008
Cancer and Capricorn
Getting down and dirty with the gorgeous Goat, gives a natural high that can take you to the top of the mountain. Your sensual, surging emotions will respond to the earthy sexuality of the Goat and you can build a beautiful life together.
Cancer is a Water Sign and Capricorn is an Earth Sign, so the relationship should be a fertile one. Sexual communication is marvellous, but even if you don't choose to raise children, living things will all thrive under your joint care. Whether you grow bonsai or breed Chihuahuas, run your own business or are just trying to run a household, you work well as a team. Your cool Capricorn lover can help you to structure your feelings and plan ahead , while you can introduce the often repressed Goat to glorious realms of emotional power. Both of you are good with money, and like to plan for a secure future. However, because you are both Cardinal Signs with a natural inclination to lead, power struggles are likely to emerge at some stage. Agree on a fair division of labour, including who is in charge of what, as early on as possible. If you have a reasonably flexible plan that allows for a balance of power, mutual respect and pride in each other will be the most likely result.
Cancer is ruled by the moody but nurturing Moon and thereby earns the reputation of being the Mother of the Zodiac. Capricorn, on the other hand, is governed by patriarchal Saturn, symbolized by the stern Father. Cap is inclined to keep private emotions under wraps, but you are all about expressing your emotions to the full. The nurturesome Crab favours the flowering of tender feelings, but the spiky Goat prefers plain, no-nonsense stoicism... and when the two of you meet in the middle, you will find a genuinely satisfying balance. Help the Goat learn to be more vulnerable and risk the rewards of being open to love, even as your Capricorn lover can help you become more aware of healthy boundaries in relationships.
These opposites attract and can go on to build a solid, fruitful partnership. Supportive connections between Moon and Ascendant signs will make this relationship run more smoothly, but in general this is a very good combination that should be satisfying to both of you. It's an excellent match!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Currently
The Dream
By In This Moment
All For You
see relatedHis Memory
Current mood:
sad
i still call his phone just to hear his voice. i still text him just to show i miss him and care. it seems like yesterday when he was trying to help me deal with what was going on in my relationship and make me laugh. (i still have the magnets on the fridge the way he left them.) i remember the first time he came over, i was having a rough time and he called me to see what was up. at that moment i was crying and as soon as he heard he came without getting off the phone. when he got here he gave me a huge hug and sat me down and talked to me as someone dear, not as a self pitying naive girl. i miss him more than anything. it still hits me hard that he's gone. i can't say the crying has completely ended, but i can say that its slowly fading.
i miss you nathan.♥
Friday, November 14, 2008
Sad Suprise
last night i couldn't sleep a wink. i've had my old nokia lilac sitting on my nightstand for a good few months due to it having a malfunction and no longer having the desire to use it opposed to the new motorola rizr. i got curious to see if i had any old messages i never looked at after recieving or any other various bits of left over life. i end up finding an old conversation from my deceased friend, Nathan. i sat and cried after i read it without a doubt, but i decided i'd post it here so i'd have it around, ya know. I miss him so much. This was a couple days after my 19th birthday.
Nathan: hey what's up babe?
Me: not too much. i feel like shit.
Nathan: i heard there's a stomache thing goin around
Me: Yea my ma had food poisoning last weekend.
Nathan: That sucks
Me: Yes
Me: Seriously im fuckin miserable atm.
Nathan: So what's up?
Me: Nada im layin in bed bout to pass out.
Nathan: I'm sorry baby
Me: Its alright babe. Atm id like someone to rub my back and take care of me.
Nathan: Sounds fun lol
Nathan: Want me to come over and do that for you?
Me: Cant my dad is sleeping in my bros room and my bro is on the couch
Nathan: Down stairs?
Me: Id love it but babe it cant happen.
Nathan: Well i offered
Me: I know and i appreciate it. Your good to me.
Nathan: I gots to be good to, ur my buddy
Me: ty
Nathan: Anytime babe
Nathan:
, i'm getting 20 hits of manslaughter tomorrow.
Me: geez!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
First Inkage: A Tribute To My Buddy
I'm getting this tattoo as soon as possible for the obvious reason.
Created by: Daelin Reid
Addage by: Me
I LOVE YA BUDDY!?! I HOPE YOUR HAPPY WHERE YOU ARE AND CHILLIN WITH JIM MORRISON!?
[Note: ok so even though this is a bit morbid i must express my slight happiness. Nathan used to live about 6-8 miles away from my house, now he's buried approximately 2.5 miles away from me. he's closer and i can visit him whenever i want. which more than likely will be a lot in the next two weeks and every 7th of the month.]
Monday, November 10, 2008
Beautiful Tradgedy
I have a great friend that inspired me in all aspects of life. he taught me that it was alright to be myself and to be comfortable in my own skin. he taught me what going with the flow was when i was all wound up in the stress of life. we'd chill in the parking lot of our high school several months ago listening to In This Moment & The Doors talking between breaks about life and where we want our lives to go. At 12 and 1am as much as i hate to admit i'd sneak him in my basement and chill and continue our talks from earlier that day. when i needed someone to confide in when i felt i didn't have anyone else he was there. when my relationship fell through he was there. we planned on moving in january to illinois and starting our lives over and living in peace with each other's guidance and love. a strange friendship and love at that, it never faltered no matter what was said or what others tried to influence we were always there for each other in the time we'd been friends. he was my miracle, my angel in a time of darkness and feeling like a failure.
Last friday that treasured friend passed on. he was an outstanding individual even with his flaws. i loved nathan, he is my friend, my lover, and my light.
(Haste The Day, Gwen Stacy, Devil Wears Prada concert @ the Masquerade)
(After his haircut, the sneak peak)
(in mrs. J's class)
In Loving Memory
Nathan Gerald Nippa 11-7-08
(whiteboard in my basement)
