Update again
Monday, October 27, 2008
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I feel like crying.
fuck being alone.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Takes Up Space & Time
[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is doing?
sometimes
[02] Are you single, taken, or dating?
sadly single
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
Shakespeare in Love
[04] How many times have you honestly deeply fallen in love?
Once
05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
i've slowly began believing.
06] What's your current problem?
figuring out where my "relationship" is with anyone.
[07] Have you ever been heart broken?
Yes
[08] Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?
1 (san diego)
[09] Do you believe in this saying: What goes around comes around?
you mean karma, sometimes
10] Do you want to get married?
Yes
[11] How many kids do you want to have?
2 or 3 depends on what i'm in line for in my family and through genetics shit.
[12] Are you normally a jealous person?
usually
[13] Who was the last person you held hands with?
blake
14] Do you believe in love at first sight ?
Not really
15] Do a lot of people think your pretty/handsome ?
i guess so
[16]Do you have feelings for any one right now?
Yes
[17] Do you think your ex still loves you?
Yea
[18] Do you know if someone likes you?
Yes
[19] Are you afraid to fall in love?
Not really, but i don't think its a good idea.
[20] Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
my mom before she went to bed. lol.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Currently Listening
Spit
By Kittie
Do You Think I'm A Whore?
see relatedPhone Call
3am some fucking dumbass decides to call me and tell me:
"Ok Cat this is an outside observer and i have met you before i have to say i've watched you through the years and i have to say your a total slut. you treat your good friends like shit and you need to hold onto them. your boyfriend deserves more than what your giving him and you need to watch it and you need to re-evaluate your life cheating is not cool and you know you've done it several times before don't lie Cat. your a slut! and we are people that love you and care about you want you to stop being a slut."
i was entirely too pissed off to sleep after that.
so thanks asshole for your 2¢!
GO FUCK YOURSELF!
Friday, October 24, 2008
OBGYN = "I FEEL VIOLATED!"
yesterday morning
woke up at 8 to get ready for the obgyn.
9:15am - arrived and signed in/updated info on my lovely vag.
9:30am - name called and walk down the hall for a pee test thingy.
most embarrassing thing happens as i'm proceeding to pull my pants up and zip em.
as i'm pulling my pants up i mindlessly bring my head up fast and wack my already migraned head on the fuckin shelf in front of me. then everything falls off the shelf and i'm squatted down with my pants around my fuckin ankles holding my head and telling myself NOT to black out. by the point where i could stand up again everything is blurry and my vertigo is off wack. GO ME!
the day proceeds to be a boring one consisting of the usual online chatter with friends and babbling about nothing.
last night
without being completely alone it was pretty damn lonely.
alison called and asked if i wanted to escape to taco bell while she waits on her beau to get off work.
we order, we eat, we sing to Smash Mouth - Allstar like a bunch of idiots.
we decided its taking her beau too long to get there and it was cold in taco bell so we went to the car to get some warmth and have a cig as we continued to reminis and sing like blithering tone deaf idiots. (we were both in chorus together so it wasn't too bad)
then finally her beau shows up with his friend Ross.
we proceed to walk back into taco bell so i could order my dad's food and so the boys could eat.
rushing in to taco bell from the cold i managed to trip myself and fall outside the doors in front of her beau and his friend.
so lucky me by the time i get home i have a lump on my head and a scratched up hand and bruised finger.
10:25pm rolls around and blake calls me and asks to talk to my bro a min.
next thing you know my bro picks up blake and brings him over for the night.
i wake up this morning to blake looking at me as i sleep.
he realizes im awake and goes downstairs and browses for food so i get my lazy self up realizing we don't have much and made french toast and eggs for the first time without burning the house down.
that's right...i'm pretty damn proud of myself for the cooking.
no one died or had major bowel movement either, although i kinda wish they had.
me being the smart one and not so starved one didn't eat my own cooking i ate a bagel instead.
mmm bagel!
i don't know what to think about a lot right now.
i'm a bit frazzled.
wanting a bottle of Parrot Bay Peach Mango Rum & Dr. Pepper (YUM!).
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Emmure & Such
last night was kick ass!!
there were stage divers and crazy people everywhere/ it was sick as shit!
alison and i got to hang out with the bands on the buses, i didn't follow i chilled with our boy ryan.
he's a sweetie and cracks me up.
