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Mickey Mouse can be depressed at my dad's house. I have this gray cloud that follows me no matter how good my life my appear, I always get sucked in his fucked up hole. I hate it. I need to get out. I don't know what to do. I wish I was still living with Gianni in Burbank, and all I would need is a place to stay. He wouldn't have to be around ever, just so long as he paid for rent.
FUCK! I can't wait to graduate already! I feel I was on top of the world when I was in Chile & Argentina.I have no idea how to get back to that in this house. My dad is a psychological masochist. Many of my daily friends wouldn't know how much crap I am surrounded by because of the intense optimism that spills out when I'm out of this place... till I get out again. I am here with this black cloud around me. Thank god, I thought I was gaining some bad psychological thing. I am far from that. No one should ever come close to this house, unless you're into misery loves company type deal.
fuck. i hate this, it's hard to shake off. This is exactly why I have become a gypsy and sleep on other people's couches. It sucks after a while, but shit. I forget there's something worse that lies when I stay here too long. :(
shit. i should've gone out tonight, somewhere.
FUCK! I can't wait to graduate already! I feel I was on top of the world when I was in Chile & Argentina.I have no idea how to get back to that in this house. My dad is a psychological masochist. Many of my daily friends wouldn't know how much crap I am surrounded by because of the intense optimism that spills out when I'm out of this place... till I get out again. I am here with this black cloud around me. Thank god, I thought I was gaining some bad psychological thing. I am far from that. No one should ever come close to this house, unless you're into misery loves company type deal.
fuck. i hate this, it's hard to shake off. This is exactly why I have become a gypsy and sleep on other people's couches. It sucks after a while, but shit. I forget there's something worse that lies when I stay here too long. :(
shit. i should've gone out tonight, somewhere.