Owww....
Would someone PLEASE put a bullet in my fucking head?
This shit fucking hurts...
For the first time in my entire life I am completely uninsured. No fucking health coverage
I really wish I would have paid more attention when I chose my job at Joker Brand over
the one at American Apperal. I didn't think Joker Brand had no benefits... I mean.. they're not THAT small of a company. But this is really biting me in the ass right now.
There's no way I could afford to go to dentist right now... I haven't been to one since before I left for tour and that freaks me out.
Growing up in foster care I always had the best health coverage because I was a ward of the state. They paid for EVERYTHING and I used it to the best of its advantage. I'd go to the doctor for every little thing that was wrong with me. Now... I have nothing.
I just saw that Michael Moore movie Sicko the other night... it made me even more upset... I could feel the beginning of the tooth ache as I was watching the movie. But I've been in denial of it and just self medicating. Last night I came home, drank some wine and watched the Goodfellas in my room. I was drunken but I could no longer deny the toothache. I crawled into the living room and pleaded with Shoe for some Ibuprofin. Russ offered me something much stronger but I'm scared of pills. They always hit me way to hard. I've never even taken a Vicodin. It would put me in a coma. I told Russ the wine and the pills Shoe gave me should be enough.
I'm going to Ozzfest tomorrow. I was excited but now I'm worried about this fucking toothache. I remember one summer Russ and Dougie took us all camping at Boulder Gulch. It was fucking amazing but the first night we were there I got the worst toothache of my life. I remember laying in my tent trying to sleep and staring out the zip window watching the sky get lighter and me just laying there in a daze of exhaustion but I was in too much pain to sleep. It miraculously went away the second day... but it killed the first night of the trip for me. I'm praying to the Lady for this to go away.
Russ had no intention of going to Ozzfest, but something I said hyped him into wanting to go. So he started getting our porta grill ready. Last year's Ozzfest was looked over by our house because I was on the road. I'm normally the one to get everyone together to go. Russ is going to try to make up for last year this year. I'm stoked. If there's someone that knows how to throw a tailgate party... that's fucking Russ Mackay. I'm going to get some sun, and beer, bbq and metal, and find some crowd of hot dudes to hang out with. I'm rolling with Martha and Ariel, and meeting up with Chanel and Deedee. Some major hell will be raised.
I hate missing someone.
I have a serious lack of patience
and having to wait to see someone is fucking horrible.
Doing a gig at Angie's house to help her raise money for her baby.
It still freaks me out that she's pregnant. I mean I have no doubt she'll be a good mom. She's very nurturing. But she's so eccentric... I didnt picture her settling down to have a child for a long while. Neither did she. She kept it because she had no choice. But I'm happy she did. This may be what her life needed. It'll be interesting to have a baby around the Gates Street crew...
This shit fucking hurts...
For the first time in my entire life I am completely uninsured. No fucking health coverage
I really wish I would have paid more attention when I chose my job at Joker Brand over
the one at American Apperal. I didn't think Joker Brand had no benefits... I mean.. they're not THAT small of a company. But this is really biting me in the ass right now.
There's no way I could afford to go to dentist right now... I haven't been to one since before I left for tour and that freaks me out.
Growing up in foster care I always had the best health coverage because I was a ward of the state. They paid for EVERYTHING and I used it to the best of its advantage. I'd go to the doctor for every little thing that was wrong with me. Now... I have nothing.
I just saw that Michael Moore movie Sicko the other night... it made me even more upset... I could feel the beginning of the tooth ache as I was watching the movie. But I've been in denial of it and just self medicating. Last night I came home, drank some wine and watched the Goodfellas in my room. I was drunken but I could no longer deny the toothache. I crawled into the living room and pleaded with Shoe for some Ibuprofin. Russ offered me something much stronger but I'm scared of pills. They always hit me way to hard. I've never even taken a Vicodin. It would put me in a coma. I told Russ the wine and the pills Shoe gave me should be enough.
I'm going to Ozzfest tomorrow. I was excited but now I'm worried about this fucking toothache. I remember one summer Russ and Dougie took us all camping at Boulder Gulch. It was fucking amazing but the first night we were there I got the worst toothache of my life. I remember laying in my tent trying to sleep and staring out the zip window watching the sky get lighter and me just laying there in a daze of exhaustion but I was in too much pain to sleep. It miraculously went away the second day... but it killed the first night of the trip for me. I'm praying to the Lady for this to go away.
Russ had no intention of going to Ozzfest, but something I said hyped him into wanting to go. So he started getting our porta grill ready. Last year's Ozzfest was looked over by our house because I was on the road. I'm normally the one to get everyone together to go. Russ is going to try to make up for last year this year. I'm stoked. If there's someone that knows how to throw a tailgate party... that's fucking Russ Mackay. I'm going to get some sun, and beer, bbq and metal, and find some crowd of hot dudes to hang out with. I'm rolling with Martha and Ariel, and meeting up with Chanel and Deedee. Some major hell will be raised.
I hate missing someone.
I have a serious lack of patience
and having to wait to see someone is fucking horrible.
Doing a gig at Angie's house to help her raise money for her baby.
It still freaks me out that she's pregnant. I mean I have no doubt she'll be a good mom. She's very nurturing. But she's so eccentric... I didnt picture her settling down to have a child for a long while. Neither did she. She kept it because she had no choice. But I'm happy she did. This may be what her life needed. It'll be interesting to have a baby around the Gates Street crew...