The End Is Nowhere In Sight
I'm here in my second trimester. And not just the beginning of it anymore, mind you. Sure, it's still early, but still, I'm at 15 weeks (baby is 13 weeks old). For those who hate being told things by week measurements, it means I'm 4 months pregnant. Four out of nine is almost half-way done. In fact, in just 3 weeks I'll pretty much be at the half-way point for a term pregnancy (though not for a post-term). I do not FEEL like I'm halfway DONE with anything. In fact, I feel like a great deal has NOT changed in weeks. I'm still nauseated on a daily basis, round the clock. I'm nauseated now! Last night was another really bad night where it seemed like it was likely I was going to throw up everything I'd eaten, and I quickly went to sleep (at 8:30pm) to avoid it. I woke up 2 hours later, past the threshold of Must Throw Up Now, but still extremely nauseated.
Everything I have read says the same thing: by the time you hit your second trimester, you'll start feeling better every day!*
*Unless you're one of those unlucky types who may still feel sick for another month. But, you're probably not one of those people. If you are, well, you should know that it's also possible that you may NEVER FEEL WELL FOR THE ENTIRE 9 MONTHS. Kthx.
I'm trying very hard not to see this is as impending doom, but it's hard to think that I will ever feel human again, not as long as I'm carrying C Monkey around. I keep waking up expecting to be at least a little better, and it just keeps not happening. In fact, I've gotten worse again because my blood pressure is starting it's 2nd trimester drop--I've been getting dizzy upon standing, and my energy level is dropping slowly but surely. On some occasions, if I stand up after sitting for awhile, I will get a sudden, excruciating headache that lasts about 2 minutes. This is all still combined with a nausea that makes everything difficult.
We've also come to the sad conclusion that we need to find a better home for Gwenni. My problem with her smell isn't going away. We've had to trap her on a daily basis in the second bedroom, and Brian can hardly manage to get her walked for a total of 20 minutes a day--none of which is fair to her, and extremely unlikely to change for the entire pregnancy. And it's possible that it won't even change after birth, because there's a good chance that I will keep most of my aversions and strong sense of smell for at least 6 months after birth, and even possibly PERMANENTLY. So, we need to find her a new family.
Anyway.
Everything I have read says the same thing: by the time you hit your second trimester, you'll start feeling better every day!*
*Unless you're one of those unlucky types who may still feel sick for another month. But, you're probably not one of those people. If you are, well, you should know that it's also possible that you may NEVER FEEL WELL FOR THE ENTIRE 9 MONTHS. Kthx.
I'm trying very hard not to see this is as impending doom, but it's hard to think that I will ever feel human again, not as long as I'm carrying C Monkey around. I keep waking up expecting to be at least a little better, and it just keeps not happening. In fact, I've gotten worse again because my blood pressure is starting it's 2nd trimester drop--I've been getting dizzy upon standing, and my energy level is dropping slowly but surely. On some occasions, if I stand up after sitting for awhile, I will get a sudden, excruciating headache that lasts about 2 minutes. This is all still combined with a nausea that makes everything difficult.
We've also come to the sad conclusion that we need to find a better home for Gwenni. My problem with her smell isn't going away. We've had to trap her on a daily basis in the second bedroom, and Brian can hardly manage to get her walked for a total of 20 minutes a day--none of which is fair to her, and extremely unlikely to change for the entire pregnancy. And it's possible that it won't even change after birth, because there's a good chance that I will keep most of my aversions and strong sense of smell for at least 6 months after birth, and even possibly PERMANENTLY. So, we need to find her a new family.
Anyway.