everyday behaivior
sometimes i get a little over-zealous and type in 4 w's when trying to go to a webpage.
ie: wwww.livejournal.com
and thats exactly what i did just now.
today is thursday. this week went by pretty quick, and i am oh-so-happy about it. on my break today i am going to get an application for the CCSD. i dont want to stay here any longer than i have to. the shit has offically hit the fan...
never mind the fact that my boss is THE Gossip Queen, or that we aren't pulling any business.
my boss freaked out last week and walked out.
no worries, she came back an hour later and acted like nothing happened.
yesterday she freaked out on Ashley, which in turn caused Ash to freak out, and she too left the building. however, common sense hit her before she actually got in her car to drive away. she came back crying and yelling and throwing things (oh my).
its not worth it to me any more. the back-biting, the drama, the over-exagerrations... so im done. hopefully it wont take too long to get on with the district.
last weekend was an eventful one.
friday night we went to see our friend's band, Existo play at the Dive Bar.
i had 2 shots of Bacardi before we left.
neil bought me a beer there.
tyler bought me another shot of Bacardi.
listened to the band.
talked to Lance for a bit.
had a good time.
on the way home Tiffany calls Tyler and informs him that she and her boyfriend, Derrick, had broken up and she was a mess. so we (neil, james, tyler, and myself) went to the Tray for some consoling.
my night ended very early and on a fairly drunken note...
saturday night we celebrated Julie's 22nd Bday.
1 shot of after shock at my house
3 shots of vodka at Julie's
1 liquid cocaine at Whiskey
2 vodka-red bulls, also at Whiskey
needless to say, i was trashed.
i dont remember a good majority of the night. the first time i blacked out. fun fun fun.
danced and flirted w/ The Crush (who also bought me the liquid coke.)
watched the Ex dance and make out w/ his new g/f on the dance floor.
danced.
danced.
danced.
puked.
a whole lot more than i danced.
The Crush rubbed my back and "held" my hand the whole ride home. he was in the backseat, i was in the front. he must've had his arm outstretched b/c his hand was on my shoulder and my left arm was across my chest, holding his hand.
that much i remember.
got home. crawled up the stairs. The Crush sat next to me while i heaved some more in the toilet. helped me to bed. it was awfully nice of him.
gah! why do i like him! make me stop! he rarely shows signs that he feels the same (ok , that may be a lie, but i have to tell myself that!)
supposedly, while in my drunken stupor on saturday night i told not only one, but two people (including James... AHHH!) that i do in fact like The Crush and that it doesnt matter b/c he doesnt like me back. i have no recollection of those two conversations. i wish the people i said that to would just forget as well.
sunday was the super bowl party at my mom's house.
lots of food. lots of fun. lots of alcohol, but not for me!
my friends got drunk and hula-hooped their way into oblivion. it was awesome.
went back to my house after the game, where The Crush was supposed to meet up, but it ended up getting late and he was too tired.
monday night Ashley had to make a short film for her editing class, so i enlisted the help of The Crush and Neil.
we had a lot of fun with that. they were there till about eleven, just hangin out and being goofy.
i havent seen or talked to The Crush since. he shot me a short, 2 sentence email on tuesday, and thats it. maybe tonight we'll all get together. if not, tomorrow is friday, so i know for sure ill see him then...
in the mean time, i have everyone asking me whats going on with us, and if i like him, blah blah blah. i dont feel like the harassment is equally distributed amongst the 2 of us. why dont they ask HIM if HE likes ME? or what is going on between us??? why do all the questions come to me? and if they do ask him, why dont they tell me what he says??? a girl needs to know these things! Julie, who's bday we celebrated on sat, is very good friends w/ The Crush. i would go so far as to say best friends w/ him. she pulled me aside the weekend before last to ask what was going on, and to tell me not to give up on him b/c she can see that there is definitely something there.
im getting sick of waiting.
i want a sure fire sign.
i want him to smack me in the face with his feelings.
anything will do!
just something to let me know wether or not he feels the same way so that i could take the next step.
im an aggresive person if i know the feelings are mutual. if i knew for sure that he likes me too and is just a little too scared to make a move, ill do it! i will make the first move! just give me insight!
i hate waiting!
ie: wwww.livejournal.com
and thats exactly what i did just now.
today is thursday. this week went by pretty quick, and i am oh-so-happy about it. on my break today i am going to get an application for the CCSD. i dont want to stay here any longer than i have to. the shit has offically hit the fan...
never mind the fact that my boss is THE Gossip Queen, or that we aren't pulling any business.
my boss freaked out last week and walked out.
no worries, she came back an hour later and acted like nothing happened.
yesterday she freaked out on Ashley, which in turn caused Ash to freak out, and she too left the building. however, common sense hit her before she actually got in her car to drive away. she came back crying and yelling and throwing things (oh my).
its not worth it to me any more. the back-biting, the drama, the over-exagerrations... so im done. hopefully it wont take too long to get on with the district.
last weekend was an eventful one.
friday night we went to see our friend's band, Existo play at the Dive Bar.
i had 2 shots of Bacardi before we left.
neil bought me a beer there.
tyler bought me another shot of Bacardi.
listened to the band.
talked to Lance for a bit.
had a good time.
on the way home Tiffany calls Tyler and informs him that she and her boyfriend, Derrick, had broken up and she was a mess. so we (neil, james, tyler, and myself) went to the Tray for some consoling.
my night ended very early and on a fairly drunken note...
saturday night we celebrated Julie's 22nd Bday.
1 shot of after shock at my house
3 shots of vodka at Julie's
1 liquid cocaine at Whiskey
2 vodka-red bulls, also at Whiskey
needless to say, i was trashed.
i dont remember a good majority of the night. the first time i blacked out. fun fun fun.
danced and flirted w/ The Crush (who also bought me the liquid coke.)
watched the Ex dance and make out w/ his new g/f on the dance floor.
danced.
danced.
danced.
puked.
a whole lot more than i danced.
The Crush rubbed my back and "held" my hand the whole ride home. he was in the backseat, i was in the front. he must've had his arm outstretched b/c his hand was on my shoulder and my left arm was across my chest, holding his hand.
that much i remember.
got home. crawled up the stairs. The Crush sat next to me while i heaved some more in the toilet. helped me to bed. it was awfully nice of him.
gah! why do i like him! make me stop! he rarely shows signs that he feels the same (ok , that may be a lie, but i have to tell myself that!)
supposedly, while in my drunken stupor on saturday night i told not only one, but two people (including James... AHHH!) that i do in fact like The Crush and that it doesnt matter b/c he doesnt like me back. i have no recollection of those two conversations. i wish the people i said that to would just forget as well.
sunday was the super bowl party at my mom's house.
lots of food. lots of fun. lots of alcohol, but not for me!
my friends got drunk and hula-hooped their way into oblivion. it was awesome.
went back to my house after the game, where The Crush was supposed to meet up, but it ended up getting late and he was too tired.
monday night Ashley had to make a short film for her editing class, so i enlisted the help of The Crush and Neil.
we had a lot of fun with that. they were there till about eleven, just hangin out and being goofy.
i havent seen or talked to The Crush since. he shot me a short, 2 sentence email on tuesday, and thats it. maybe tonight we'll all get together. if not, tomorrow is friday, so i know for sure ill see him then...
in the mean time, i have everyone asking me whats going on with us, and if i like him, blah blah blah. i dont feel like the harassment is equally distributed amongst the 2 of us. why dont they ask HIM if HE likes ME? or what is going on between us??? why do all the questions come to me? and if they do ask him, why dont they tell me what he says??? a girl needs to know these things! Julie, who's bday we celebrated on sat, is very good friends w/ The Crush. i would go so far as to say best friends w/ him. she pulled me aside the weekend before last to ask what was going on, and to tell me not to give up on him b/c she can see that there is definitely something there.
im getting sick of waiting.
i want a sure fire sign.
i want him to smack me in the face with his feelings.
anything will do!
just something to let me know wether or not he feels the same way so that i could take the next step.
im an aggresive person if i know the feelings are mutual. if i knew for sure that he likes me too and is just a little too scared to make a move, ill do it! i will make the first move! just give me insight!
i hate waiting!