with the words you borrowed

[silver_spoons]

i am trying so damn hard to make it work.
i want it to just be.
WHAT IS IT that i am missing?
how can things feel so right with music therapy
and so wrong with me?
how do i get where i want to be?
i'm really trying to make this year so different
without killing myself - because i want to just let things be how they are.

.....but i just don't like how things are.

tryingtryingtryingtryingiamsotiredofonlytryingtryingtryingtrying

icanandwillgetthere.buthow?